A B H I M A N Y U
I love the darkness in which I reside, my deepest demons which came into existence due to my sins, accompany me and for the first time ever i want to replace them with her, I know I'm no good for her but I will have her even if it means drowning together with her in the river of darkness.
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I puff the smoke out of my mouth the intoxication of it making my inner self relieved
I grasped the glass which was half filled with alcohol and smirked at my today's victory because today I killed two birds with one stone.
Yesterday dadu sa gave me final warning of finding myself a bride, that man was getting on my nerves for almost two years telling me to get married and find a suitable 'yuvrani' for Rajasthan, i turned a blind eye for his request cum order but yesterday argument messed with my mind i really wanted to get away with his blabbering about a bahu as as I am already 27 and royal people ought to get married before the age the 26. And by threatening Shanaya to marry me I get to have her all for myself and also fulfill the wishes of my family, and save myself from the upcoming dramas.
I glanced at the watch and saw it was 11:12 pm
I called my wife to be
But her being the stubborn lady she is didn't receive it, she really wanna play with fire i called her again and again but she didn't pick up and at very last switched her phone up and not able to control the rage inside me I threw the glass which I was holding earlier
'You really are provoking me to show you something worse Darling let's show you what I can do'
Next morning.
S h a n a y a
I was preparing breakfast because my younger brother Veer wanted to eat pancakes which I made, today I was gonna tell them about the thing happening with me, I can't wait any longer after telling them all these things we will move away from here. Yesterday's event became a trauma night for me. I packed veer's tiffin and after which he went to school he is still in tenth standard.
Ma baba and I sat down on the dining table and started devouring pancakes
"Hmm you always make the best pancakes" ma said
"So true your in-laws will be impressed by your cooking skills" Maa said to which I stopped eating and numerous thoughts surrounded me.
"Yes beta you're already 23 and turning 24 after 2 months dear and in our family tradition girls should marry in their early twenties and your College will be ending just in 2 months too, so please tell if you have anyone in your mind or should we find someone for you, you know Rajesh's daughter Rohini got married yesterday and she was younger than you dear so try to understand" my dad said oh god how much I hate this topic who the hell get married at this early age in this century. But there was something in his tone a plead, a request coming deep from his heart
I always wonder even in this 21th century where it is said that boy and girl are equal and are treated equally, I wonder how hollow these words are.
I remember the story my relatives and my parents told me when I was born how my grandparents weren't that happy because it was a girl child and accused my mother for it even though they told me all this as a joke but the intensity of those words can be felt as you grow up. And on the other hand how happy my grandma was when ma gave birth to veer.
My grandparents never really spent any special time with me and sadly they are not with us but the feeling of being a burden because of being a girl child is what they have left me with as soon as I turned 12 they started advising papa to work harder to arrange dowry money and all, how they resisted the idea of sending me to a known private school to save money for veer's education. In every aspect of my life I feel a burden on my parents although my parents being a sweetheart they never tell all those things. But I have seen all this how my mother is treated because she is a woman, in every argument of their papa is the one to raise his voice every time and prove his statement right how ma have to do all things accordingly to papa just like when ma went to buy clothes for wedding and the money was not enough how she bought it for veer and papa saying that me and her will adjust and women have to adjust accordingly to the environment
I was in a deep thoughts then remembered telling them about Abhimanyu.
"Baba, ma actually I want to tell you something" I said while nervousness was dripping from my words
"Hm say" baba said while eating
"There is man name-" I was cutt off by the ringing of the bell and ma stood up and went to see who was there
"Namaste aunty ji" as soon as those voice came to my ear i quickly stand up and went to the living room to see my nightmare dressed in the expensive armani suit with a bouquet in his hands and my eyes widen
He handed the bouquet in my mother's hand and came inside while she stood there in shock.
Papa went to see who it was
"Who are y-" before he could ask he was engulfed in a hug
"Namaste uncle ji aur should I say sasur ji" he said with a grin.
"Huh? What are you saying" papa said
"Saadi krna cahte hai hm apki beti se to uska hath mangne aye hai hm" he said makin us all shocked and for me I was literally shivering and his gaze went to me
"Shanaya didn't you tell them about us" he asked. And all the eyes turn to me.
"H-ha?" words were not coming out of my mouth due to sudden shock.
I glanced at him and saw his eyes directing to his waist and settled his blazer due to which I saw a gin residing there i looked at him in horror and saw his smirk with his one raised brow.
"Let's sit down and talk peacefully" he said and signalled someone outside and they came inside with tons of things in their hands.
"What's all this bete" ma asked him 'bete seriously ma' i thought.
"Ab aunty ji agr apni pasandida ladki aur Rajasthan ki hone wali yuvrani ka hath man gne ayenge to Khali hath thodi ayenge" he said to which my family widens their eyes.
"have a seat then we will talk, Shanaya go inside and prepare something for him" baba said
I moved inside and they both were engaged in some talk I was sweating badly and set the tea pot on the stove to prepare tea
A message popped up on my phone i opened it
'If you don't want any kind of trouble unfolding in front of your parents quietly come and agree to it or else you know what I can do but I don't wanna make any scene and use violence in front of my in laws'
A image was attached to it and I saw a the pic of my brother's bus
Then a video of my brother with his friends.
'My man is there on his bus just one wrong move from your side and with a heavy heart I'll have to say goodbye to my sale sahab'
It says and tears continuously rolled from my eyes and my hands were literally shaking in fear of losing him.
I turned off the gas and placed tea cups on the tray and went outside not before washing my face.
I placed it in front of him and he passed me a smirk. I looked at my parents and they signalled me to sit
"Beta you should have told us beforehand if you liked him" ma said with a smile
'How should I tell you that, how much I hate him' i thought but brushed it off.
"So Shanaya do you agree to marry him?" Baba asked in a serious tone and a hope was placed in it.
I glanced at him covering my hurtful expression and then looked at the man who was the reason for my tears, he raised a brow while placing a threatening emotion on his face
"Y-yes" I said and lowered my head not wanting to let them see my tearful eyes. This monster didn't left me with any choice
My ma hugged me and everyone became so happy.
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It has been two days since that man came to my house and made my parents so happy but here it was the beginning of my destruction.
He called me everyday and i ignored it not even answering any of his calls and he would just send messages and I paid no heed to him,letting myself enjoy the last few days of freedom.
My phone again vibrates suggesting it is a message, i opened it
' tomorrow I'll be bringing my family to greet you all i already informed your parents about it'
' I know you are intentionally ignoring me and you can do it all you want because in just a few days I'll have you all for myself'
A lone tear escaped from my eyes but i harshly wiped it harshly
Tomorrow morning
I was combing my hair and making my self 'presentable' according to ma infront of my in-laws. Ma said to wear some traditional because they are from the royal family and would appreciate traditional over western.
I combed it simply and conceal the dark circles i had because of the sleepless nights and just like those dark circles i also conceal my emotions.
Ma came and held my hand letting me out of the room we came down and saw all of them sitting while having some talks. Ma gestured me to touch their feet I resist the urge to say a no and moved to them with a small smile and bent down but the lady infront of me whom I think is her mother held my shoulders and made me stand straight and engulfed me in a hug saying
'Betiya pair nhi Dil chuti hai bete' she said to which I gave her a tight lipped smile.
Then greeted his father and then grandfather. He was not present there and it was a relief.
I went to kitchen preparing tea and other snacks for them and came out with all of it and my breath hitched seeing the person responsible of all my miseries sitting comfortably on the couch while eyeing me from head to toe I gulped and moved to them my legs were literally shaking but i led no emotion come to my face i served them everything and all of them were engaged in talks about the upcoming functions all these talks seemed nonsense to me, I just wanted to escape from here
I felt him staring at me from a very long time and finally I looked at him and saw him signalling me to open my phone I did it saw his message.
'you are looking god damn beautiful'
I rolled my eyes at him and placed my phone away
"Shanaya go and show Abhimanyu around the house" baba said i looked at him with a pleading eyes which speaks to not let me go alone with him but he didn't buy it
"Go beta" he said and i nodded while standing up.
I moved upstairs with him following me i stopped as soon as I was out of their sight and sighed.
And just stood there not knowing what to do I felt him Staring at me and I looked up at him
"What now" I asked
"Show me around" he said
"The hell stay where you are I'm not gonna show you anything" I said getting annoyed
"Oh darling i didn't asked you to show your body that you are getting so angry" he said
"Shut up" I said to which he just shrugged his shoulders I sighed and started showing him my house
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"And this is the guest room now let's go back " I said and sighed in relief
"There is still something left" he said to which frown
"Your room" he said
"No way I'm taking you there and you already saw it so no need" I said and turned around to move away but when I feel he was not coming i again turned back to see him moving in the direction of my room i ran to him he entered and i stood in front of him with my one hands on his eyes blocking the view he held my wrist to remove it which was holding his eyes
"Please close your eyes and turn away for a bit" I said biting my lips he halted and to my surprise he agreed.
I quickly ran to my bed
"Don't open it yet" i shouted
My clothes and bra were placed on the bed I didn't know he would come inside i quickly grabbed them and threw them in the cupboard i sighed and said
"You can come in now"
He came in and started observing at my room after some seconds I said
"It is enough now let's go" i moved to the door to open it but he held my arm pulling me to him and closed the door with his leg and trapped me between the door and him
My eyes widened and abnormal breath due to his sudden action and closeness
He leaned in and i placed my hand on his chest Stoping his chest from colliding with mine. He slowly placed his thumb on my lips caressing it then realising it from the hold of my teeth
"You are looking breathtaking it's taking every corner of my strength to stop myself devouring you right now" he said seductivly while his one hand was slowing caressing my arm
"Let go" I said firmly but he paid no heed to it and leaned in looking at my lips and I knew what he was up to so I moved my head to the left resulting in his lips to land on my cheek causing a wave of electricity running across my whole body.
"Let go right now" I said gritting my teeth trying to be as firm as I can while my inside was shaking in fear
He chuckled and moved away.
"Just some days and you will be in my arms" he said and moved out of my room and which I fell down to where I was previously standing and then letting all those tears I was holding back to fall down.