he sings?
hey bae
how are you doing
hi hee
i'm doin alright
dating scandals are nawt for the week
he sings?
i can imagine
i'm sorry it's happening again :(
it's okay it's not your fault
the public's just a little silly
it's eunji and beomgyu im worried about
he sings?
oh yeah
gyu was with his sisters so he didn't see anything until he got home last night
him and eunji are figuring stuff out tho
it's kinda cute that we're best friends with each others best friends significant others
he sings?
i'm struggling to figure out what the hell you just said
i'm sorry im illiterate
LMFAO
i mean
my best friend is dating your best friend
that's cute
he sings?
its fate
by law we have to date
stop playing 😭
he sings?
i'm serious
do you not wanna date me
heeseung if i'm being completely honest i would want to date you
but it's hard for me to figure out if you're joking or not
he sings?
what do you mean?
idk it's just like
i want to believe that you do actually find interest in me
but i'm not sure
i mean you say all this stuff and you definitely make me feel good but i can't tell if it's genuine or you're just messing around
he sings?
why would i mess around?
what makes you think that?
okay please don't take offense because this is just the way my mind works now and i'm sorry
but i just don't know
you say all of this flirtatious stuff and everything but it's hard to believe that you actually mean it
he sings?
of course i mean it jiah
you are genuinely one of the most beautiful and talented women i have ever met and im like super drawn to your personality
you say that and i really REALLY wanna believe that you're being genuine but i just can't imagine why you would think that
he sings?
because it's true jiah
i would get nothing out of it if i lied
you don't even know me that well
he sings?
so let me
i want to
believe that i want to
but it's really hard for me and idk why
im sorry
he sings?
i don't understand
because you've been egging it on but you never said any of this
if you were feeling this way why didn't you established that
well i just thought it was one big joke at the beginning
i didn't know you were genuine
he sings?
how could i not be genuine
i've acted like this for far too long not to
idk heeseung like i said it's just hard for me to actually believe it's not just one big joke
he sings?
but i never gave you a reason not to
i know and im sorry im really trying to
he sings?
so do you not mean anything you say when you're talking to me then?
i do
he sings?
so why do you think that i don't mean what i say?
that's unfair
i'm sorry
he sings?
and i get that you're sorry but i don't even know that you know what you're sorry for
jiah fidgeted with her fingers as she stood in front of the white door of woozis house. the anxiety was crawling up her throat and she knew the minute he opened the door she would be a sobbing mess.
woozi was always a constant in her life. she grew up in china until the age of 10 when her mother moved them to korea for her job. that's when she found pledis entertainment and decided that that was her dream.
eventually, her mother had to move back to china and from then on it made having contact with her very hard.
and her father, well she didn't know enough about him to even consider trying to explain his situation. the minute her mother had told him they were having another child after jiah was born, he left.
no explanation, no sorry, no nothing. he just left.
so growing up that obviously effected jiah the most. not having a father figure to give her harsh advice and not having her mother near when she needed her dearly.
but growing up so young in pledis really helped her get through that aspect. because then she had siblings, a plethora of them.
the pledis family was tight knit, especially since they all started so young.
the seventeen boys immediately took a liking to the trio of pre teens that had joined them, taking them under their wings and teaching them everything they knew albeit the chaos.
she considered the older boys her brothers at this point because they very well could've been. but there was one specific member that stood out.
woozi had always had leader aspects. he knew what to say when to say it all the time.
this was the reason jiah had gravitated towards the older. they stuck together like glue and soon the father daughter jokes started which made her so happy she could die. she finally had a figure in her life that could pose as her father and he was fine with it.
he wasn't gonna run away when things got hard and he wasn't ever gonna hurt her.
which is why the minute he opened the door, surprised to see the girl in front of him, jiah broke down into tears and threw her arms over his shoulders.
"sunshine?" he hummed in question, wrapping his arms around the girl and rubbing her back. "what's wrong?" his tone was full of worry as he carefully stepped back into the house with her, closing the door gently.
"i just-" she cut herself off, leaning back to rub at the bottoms of her eyes. "i'm- i don't know what to do." she let out as another sob racked her body, her tears unstoppable now.
"let's go sit down, i'll get you some water," he said softly, pulling her out of his arms and towards the living room so she could sit on the couch. he quickly made his way to the kitchen to pour her a cup of water before coming back to sit next to her, handing her the glass. "what happened." he got straight to business.
"i was talking to heeseung," she was sure he could already see where this was going, mentally rolling her eyes at how many times she had talked about the boy to the older. "and i really fucked up." she bit her lip, trying not to shake as much now that the glass was in her hands.
"how so?" he tilted his head in question.
she took a moment to stabilize herself, drinking eagerly from the water as if it would help her not to lose her shit in the next ten minutes so she could explain.
"we got onto the topic of dating and i told him that it was hard for me to believe that the way he was treating me wasn't just some big joke and that he meant it and he kept telling me he had no reason to lie or mislead me but i keep feeling this like- i don't know how to explain it." she held her head as she attempted to rack her brain for the right words.
woozi was attentive, moving his hand to rub her knee in comfort as he listened. "i just feel like every time someone interacts with me romantically it's just one big joke that im not in on. that it's not genuine because how could it be?" she rolled her eyes, dabbing at them with her hoodie sleeve.
woozies brows furrowed as he listened, the man clearly not understanding why she would be saying these things. "what do you mean how could it be? why wouldn't it be?" he questioned.
"i don't know," she shrugged, swallowing the large lump in her throat. "i just feel like im not the best person, especially not to love." she shook her head, earning a sound of disagreement from the older.
"now you're just bullshitting," he clicked his tongue. "do you know how many people love you genuinely? not just your fans but your family? your friends? hell, niki loves you so much he calls you mom." he chuckled, earning a ghost of a smile from jiah.
"you're not unlovable jiah, in fact it's quite hard not to love you. you've been the same ever since you were that little ten year old girl that would sing fiction by beast at least a thousand times a day. it's hard not to genuinely love you and your beautiful soul." he said genuinely.
jiah couldn't help but burst into more tears, allowing herself to be pulled into his warm embrace as she cried harder at his words.
this was what she needed. most of the time when you're an older sibling and you lack those older figures in your life to teach you the way of the world you often yearn for it so terribly that when it comes in small ways you're thankful and full of joy.
having the seventeen boys was like that. she was the oldest in her family but sometimes the eldest siblings needed older siblings too to feel whole.
"you know what i think," the older pulled away from the hug after letting her cry for a few minutes, holding her by the shoulders. "this is hwans doing." he insisted, earning a look of confusion from the girl as she wiped at her eyes again.
"you want so terribly to feel unbothered by what he said to you, but jiah i really do think what he said affected you terribly," he sighed, brushing a hand through her hair. "that whole bit about being unlovable and all the names he called you, they mean nothing. especially coming from a guy like him." he rolled his eyes.
and this was what jiah feared the most. that her stupid ex and his harsh words would mentally affect her more than she wanted to.
but it was true, that's why it was so hard to believe that heeseung would actually genuinely like her romantically. because lee fucking hwan had the audacity to put it in her head that nobody else could ever love her romantically.
"damn, i really didn't wanna give him the upper hand." jiah cursed, laughing when woozi laughed at her reaction. he shook his head, grabbing her glass of water to place it on the table in front of them before grabbing both her hands.
"heeseungs an understanding guy, he'll understand that if you talk to him about it," he smiled. "and you are not unlovable, du jiah. if i have to call the rest of the family to get you to realize that i will." he said sternly, squeezing her hands.
she laughed it off, shaking her head. "thank you ji," she hummed, squeezing his hands back. "seriously, you're like the only person besides yunjin and eunji that can knock some sense into me." she smiled.
"well it's my job, obviously. i'm your stand in father, that's what i do." he shrugged, moving one of his hands to rub his knuckles into the top of her head as she squealed.
now was the hard part: finding a good time to talk it out with heeseung.
god i love woozi