Ari knocked on the dorm door, already regretting her decision. This wasn't like her. She wasn't someone to just show up at anothers door step, as vulnerable as she was.
"What are you doing here?" Jordan asked, already in their male form, surprised at the sight of Ari standing at their door. They had a slight frown to their face like they were dissapointed to see her.
"I didn't have anyone else to go to. My brother hates me, and Athena's with Marie." She held in her tears.
"What happened?" They looked slightly concerned, something that had changed a lot in the past few days.
"I don't even know. I just need someone to take my mind off things." She came there looking for more alcohol but what she would leave with was so much more than just a drink.
"How am I supposed to help you with that?" Their eyebrows furrowed with a deep look of confusion.
"We might argue a lot, but when we do I always seem to forget my problems." She spoke with a hint of shakiness to her voice, saying the very thing she was scared to say.
"So you want me to argue with you? Cause' that I can do." They laughed, though they knew she didn't need anyone to argue with now. She needed more than that, a distraction that was worthwile.
"No. I'm not saying us arguing helps, not completely. I'm trying to say you help. Somehow. You just take my mind off things, every single thought about the things happening right now goes away when i'm around you.." She admitted.
"I want to know how."
"It's weird. I just feel like we're a lot alike." She stepped closer.
"In what ways?" They grabbed their bottle of vodka, and two shot glasses, knowing she could use a drink.
"For one, the alcohol choice." She hinted towards the vodka.
"You mean you'd choose vodka over another drink?"
"I mean yea. It's gotten me through some tough times. Maybe too many tough times, thats why I was so reluctant at the club."
"Another shot then? We're not at the club anymore and you've already had a taste of it."
"Sure." She nodded, grabbing the bottle as she wanted to be the person that poured it this time.
"Didn't know you liked it like that. You were so opposed to alcohol before."
"It's this week. I just want it over."
"I do too. But hey what's our second similarity?"
"We're always alone." She said, almost in a faint whisper. "No matter how many people we're around. We could be in a crowded room and still feel alone."
Jordan ignored her comment, like they did a lot, A comment that they knew was true. That was the thing. It was so true they didn't want to think about it, because it meant they were still human, still weak.
"Okay if I ask you something promise you won't make me feel like an absolute fool." She tried changing the subject, when she realized they weren't going to respond to her comment.
"No promises but okay." They agreed.
"That's probably all I'm going to get from you so I'll take it." She paused to take a deep breath in, preparing herself for the conversation to follow. "Have you ever felt like you weren't wanted? I mean- have you ever felt like no one cares, or that you're such a horrible person that you don't deserve to be cared about in the first place."
They stayed quiet for a moment, thinking about the words that came out of her mouth. They didn't want to tell her the truth out of fear that they'd seem weak, just like she did. "I don't think you're a horrible person." They answered truthfully, scared for her response.
"That's not what I asked."
"It's true though." They stepped close to her.
"But there's so many-."
"You wanted to go back for Marie and Athena. And you care about your brother so much. How does that make you horrible? If anyone is horrible it's me."
"You have a reason to be."
"So do you. I see how you look at your father and how he looks at you, like you'll never be good enough, and I know you doubt yourself."
"This isn't like us. Saying all this nice shit." She laughed, knowing that under different circumstances she wouldn't be saying good things about Jordan Li, not like she used to.
"Maybe we just need a distraction, like you suggested. From every shitty thing going on right now."
"What do you mean by a distraction? I just meant a drink." She asked as if she was oblivious, but deep down she knew just by how close they were to each other now.
"I don't know, it's stupid." They said firmly, almost like they were refusing to tell her.
"Jordan.."
"Okay fine. You asked me last night..." They paused inching even closer, just a breath away. "If I wanted to fuck you. And I said not in a million years. But I lied." They loo ked her up and down taking in every single curve and movement on her body.
She thought it could be the vodka giving her the courage, but she knew it wasn't that one shot. She wanted this. Wanted them. Again...
She kissed them first, a soft kiss, and she automatically regretted it, pulling back quickly. "I'm sorry shit. Did I take that wrong?"
"I thought that was the only possible way to take it."
They kissed her back softly too, letting the moment sit in but it became rougher when they remembered who it was with. They pulled on her arm to get her closer to them, till their bodies were touching.
This wasn't just a passionate kiss, and it wasn't because they liked each other. They both just needed a simple distraction, and if it meant that their enemy was making them come it was okay.
"Are you sure you want this?" They asked, making sure it was okay. This was just a casual hookup but they didn't want her to feel uncomfortable.
"Yes shut up." She was focused, taking off her shirt right after the words came out of her mouth.
They helped her take off her bra, letting it fall to the floor, and then she took their shirt off, revealing their abs.
They stared at her chest in awe, as if they didn't have tits their self half of the time. She was just beautiful.
They both slowly undressed, the rest of the way, not wasting time as Jordan sent kisses down Ari's neck.
"How do you want to-."
"Do you have a condom?" She asked, staring down at them, now pants-less. She could see their bulge through their underwear, and she knew exactly what she wanted.
"Yea hold up let me get it from the drawer." They said, coming back with the condom momentarily.
Ari didn't want to waste a second, helping them put it on. She wanted them in her then. Its like they were just waiting for this moment, the tension between them has been strong for days. They continued kissing her lifting her up with one swift movement.
"Fuck, Jordan." She moaned when they were finally inside of her, scratching her nails into their back with every thrust. She wanted them as close as possible.
They were enjoying it just as much as her, letting out soft moans from time to time.
She had her own eyes closed as she melted into their touch,with their hands almost guiding her body, placed on each hip.
This would be the second time she fucked an enemy, the very person she swore to never like. But this time it was amazing
Jordan knew just where to touch her, just which spot made her feel good, and exactly what to say.
They thrusted deeper, and faster as it went on, because that's what she liked, they knew it from the way she moaned their name, and the pure look of ecstacy on her face.
In the end was almost like they came in sync, but Ari just couldn't hold it in. She had never had sex like this, and just like that she forgot why she hated Jordan in the first place. She could take in charge, but at the same time Jordan led her.
"This doesn't mean I like you." She lied down beside them, looking into their eyes.
"You fuck like you do."
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"I've never done this before. But I want to." She said faintly, she wanted to do something for them.
Ari got to pick what they did the first time, but they were both ready for something different, something just as fun.
When Ari left Jordan's dorm to clean up, all she could think about was the sex they had. She wanted to do it again, doing whatever Jordan wanted. It was just casual, but its all she thought about, every waking moment was Jordan.
It wasn't long after that she decided to go over to their dorm again, seeking another distraction.
"I'll help you." Jordan said, in their female form. They were worried that she wouldn't want to have sex with them in their female form, so they were extremely glad that she wanted to. They were so used to rejection, but Ari didn't care what form they were in.
Ari was on her knees, with her tongue circling their clit. She had never went down on anyone before, so to do so on Jordan was a big deal to her, one she was freaking out about.
"Fuck. Keep going." They moaned, giving her a little more motivation to keep going. She started to feel a little more confident.
Jordan pushed Ari's head down slightly, guiding her mouth to the spot they wanted it at. They moaned, as she quickened her pace just a little bit.
"If she's ahead of me when tomorrow's rankings come out I'm gonna lose my fucking shit. That little liar is stealing all of my credit." They said, but it didn't bother Ari cause she knew who they were talking about.
She couldn't really respond, being that her head was in between their legs, but she felt the exact same.
"I'm going to come." They announced, and almost as if it was a sign, someone knocked at the door.
"Go away!" They shouted at the door, trying everything in them to not moan.
"Jordan is that you?" A familiar voice asked through the door.
"Honey?" The other said.
"Uh just a second." Jordan switched their voice, with ease.
"Who's that?" Ari came up, knowing she was wet from thinking about what she just did to Jordan.
"Shit. It's my parents , get some clothes on."
They put their pants back on, and started to clean their room, or at least get rid of any bottles of alcohol they could.
"Jordan? Hey open up. Jordan we know you're there open up." Their dad kept banging on the door.
"Uh coming!" They hid more bottles in their closet.
"Jordan! Your mom and me are here. Your favorite parents." The knocking continued.
Getting tired of it, Jordan walked over to the door still in their female form, changing as soon as they opened it.
"Surprise!" Their mom smiled, happy to see their child. "Are you surprised?" She gave them a hug.
"Surprise is a word that I'd use, yeah." They looked fairly confused, as to why they would just show up out of nowhere.
"We wanted to pay our respects to Brink tonight. We know what he meant to you."
"He thought you were such an upstanding young man." Their dad said, sending their stomach in knots. That wasn't just who they were.
"Hungry? We brought you some vought-a-burger. Deeps calamari poppers, though I guess we didn't get enough for your friend back there, hi!" She called out to Ari standing in the background.
"Thanks, um we're just going to-."
"You're not going to introduce us to your girlfriend?" Their dad asked, concerned as to why he knew nothing about her.
"Sorry dad. That's Ari."
Ari gave them a look when they didn't correct him. She was going to make sure they regretted that.