ISHAS POV:
"bitch get back here" the faint voice echoes in the back of my head, a shadow running behind me above the stairs,I see me, When im about 8 or..7? My little figure trips over the stairs as my dad catches up
"you little slut you really thought you could get away, huh?" He looks at my figure with a physcotic smile, i could see my figure shaking, Tears continue flowing out of my eyes "please i promise baba, please i pro-" Before the figure finished the sentence, my dad kicked it in the stomach,
My eyes open, My whole body shaking, shivering, My lungs slowly closing my mind spinning, I open my eyes to only see blur and nothing else, I try getting up but trip and fall back
shit.shit.shit.shit
i usually get nightmares, its never this bad, well not always atleast.
I try reaching for the door handle as the door opens and i fall on my back, As i see a tall black haired figure standing towering me.
ace.
no it cant be
He cant see me like this.
Like when im all weak
fuck
"Leave p-please" I say my voice shivering, I could feel sweat drops on my forehead, "Calm down isha, Try taking deep breaths." He says in a low calming voice
I try inhaling before my breath breaks with a huge break, A cry comes out of my mouth my breathing higher and higher, its shit not being able to control it.
"fuc-fuck ace leave dont do-" Before i can finish my sentence ace puts a arm around my neck placing me on the bed, He rubs a hand on my back.
Butterflys erupt in my stomach.
not the time isha
never
but it all feels so comforting, nobodys ever helped me with my panic attacks, Its always me, and myself trying to escape it all as quickly as possible.
"Its okay im j-just over reacting" I try forcing a smile on my face as my brain goes fuzzy, He keeps rubbing his hand on my back
Why does his touch do illegal like things to me..
"No just isha shut up and focus on your breathing." He says in his normal harsh tone with a hint of calmness in it.
I try breathing in and out, It helps a little but my mind is still racing, "A-ace its not my breathing." I say in a low voice
He looks at me with a confused expression,
"Isha what do you mean." He says, "It-its nothing its silly, sometimes i get nightmares i know its childis-" He inturuppts me "Its not childish, Try thinking of something else" He says.
Why is he doing this
i dont deserve it
fuck this all needs to stop.
now.
please
"o-okay you can go its fine" I say forcing a smile, "Im not going anywhere isha shut up for fucks sake" He says in a harsh tone
fuck okay bro
i try thinking about the time me and rora were cliff jumping off a random cliff we found and the water ended up being fucking freezing cold, and we thought piranhas were chasing us but it was just plastic and we ended up getting so fucking drunk
the thought makes me smile
it also suprisingly calms down my mind
a bit
"It worked" I say with a real smile this time, I straighten up, His expression remains his usual cold face, "im glad it did, What happend, i just heard a loud thump and i was confused." He says
"oh nothing just silly nightmares" I say with a fake laugh, His looks shows that he dosent believe me at all.
"Um thanks for the uh help though appreciate it" I give him a side smile, "Dont say thank you, I have no interest in your thank you's consider it a payback for earlier which again dont do ever again i dont need your help" He replies coldly.
Ofcourse he didnt need your help idiot hes a fucking grown man
why do you have to act all heroic and shit
and hes obviously doing all this for a payback
why would he do it otherwise,
"your a dickhead you know that ace carter." i say with a sarcastic smile, He looks almost shocked, Hes about to say something, "Learn how to accept help it dosent make you look weak, And trying to look all strong makes you look like a dick get your head out of a gutter." i reply coldly.
did i just say that
well fuck yeah
he did just help you
not by choice.
I let out a little gasp when he grabs my wrist and shoves me against a wall, the same position as before me pressed against him,
here we go again, twice in a day! im being pushed against a wall.
"Didnt i tell you not to talk to me like that princess, so sad a small pretty mouth like yours says such such dirty stuff, Punishment worthy if you ask me." He says with a grunt
princess?
what the fuck
wait hold up did bro just call my mouth pretty
who cares honestly
"uhm i do whatever i want infact you do not own me mr carter." I say with the same tone as his.
dumb fuck
He lets out a low chuckle
whys it kind of hot
no its fucking embarassing shut up
He tightens his grip on my waist, "Your so lucky your off limits...If only, I would fucking slit that petite neck of yours." He smirks
okay bro
buddy
im honestly in denial
bros tryna act like my dad
death threats are kind of funny to me now
I let out a hyena like laugh, "whys bro acting like were in a horror movie" I keep laughing like a fucking dying dolphin, His face expression changes to a corner smile.
"Isha for fucks sake im trying to be serious your stuck as a four year old, grow up honestly." He spits in my face as he lets go off me.
whats it with men spitting, its not attractive being all for facts here
"How am i supposed to know my brain lags like a dell 2005 computer that hasnt updated since the 400B.C" I shrug.
"Not suprised." He says coldly as he twists his rings on his fingers, whys his hands so veiny and his fingers, its something about vei-
You whore stop looking at his fucking damn hands.
god.
"Okay so um get out" I say in a normal voice, He looks up and and gets up, "Mya's gonna be back at 8 in the morning, She'll need her breakfast packed,Im taking her to the amusment park" He says in a cold tone as he leaves.
ace carter
an amusment park.
i woudnt be suprised if it starts raining dinosaurs tommorow.
I sigh as i wash my face once again and hope to actually sleep this time.
for some reason, i cant get a certain pare of fucking painfully blue eyes out of my mind.
"you were the hardest lesson i had to learn."
A/N😻
uhm so im definetly not writing this at 3:19 am
RAGETON CHAMPAGNE PAMPAMPAM
im sorry, i dont know what came over me.😿😿
ANYWAYSSSS
IM GOING TO WRITE SOME SMUT, YOUR NOT GETTING SOME RIGHT NOW BUT MAYBE IN A FEW CHAPTERS...
To anyone reading this, I love you so much my love, You deserve so so so much, that thing your overthinking about, or deciding to do, do it. you'll regret it later, and again yolo, I hope the best for you and apreciate you so so much, byebye butterfly❣️
RAGETION CHAMPAGNE PAMPAMPAM...