thirty-six || my true feelings revealed
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"Are you done? You're in my way."
"Oh, sorry Taehyun!" Soobin smiled apologetically, moving out of the way so he could sweep the last part of the art room. "By the way, I really like some of these paintings you have out."
"...Thanks," Taehyun mumbled under his breath, glancing over at the male through the window's reflection.
Really, it kinda sucked that he was stuck with Choi Soobin on cleaning duty in the art room, but it was better than being stuck with Choi Yeonjun who was unbearable sometimes.
"Oh! By the way, have you—" Soobin paused in the middle of his sentence when he saw multiple students running down the hallway, immediately catching his attention.
"Did you just see that?"
"Yeah, I'm not blind, dipshit."
Soobin brushed off the mean nickname and walked over towards the door and opened it, suddenly being startled by how loud it was in the hallway when more students ran by to see something that was happening down the hallway.
"Let's go let's go!"
"I can't believe it!"
The male heard Taehyun walk over behind him, the two of them glancing at each other before curiously staring at the crowd
of students down the hallway.
"H-Hey!" Soobin called out for a classmate who immediately stopped after hearing him call for her. "What's going on? Why is everyone heading towards the classroom?"
"You don't know?" She says in disbelief, her eyes widening.
Both Soobin and Taehyun glanced at each other one last time before looking over at her, shaking their heads as a smile full of amusement began to grow on her lips.
"There's a fight happening!"
Both of their eyes widened in shock, not expecting that answer at all, it was a rare occurrence and experience that a fight would break out in their school since everyone wanted to stay on their very best.
"Between who?" Taehyun asked her, her eyes flickering over to him as she smirked slightly.
"Between Choi Beomgyu and Park Seong-jin!"
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"L-Let me go! Let me go!" Seong-jin cried out, his nails digging into the male's wrist as he tried his best to somehow loosen the death grip the male had on his head.
"You should've kept your fucking mouth shut," Beomgyu muttered under his breath, his darkened eyes staring into Seong-jin's fearful ones. "You have no right to run your mouth on things you don't even know about!"
"Agh!" Seong-jin cried out when Beomgyu tightened his grip more, pulling his head back so he could face him properly. "I-I get it! Let go! Fuck—"
"You have no right to talk about Yeonjun like that!" Beomgyu cried out, immediately swinging his hand and threw Seong-jin to the ground, causing the male to yelp loudly as he fell onto his side and slid against the wall.
"You don't have the right to talk about Soobin like that," Beomgyu stepped closer, pressing his foot down onto Seong-jin's side who — in a failed attempt — tried to get up. "You don't have the right to talk about Taehyun like that!"
He began to put pressure onto the male below him, his foot digging into the male's side as Seong-jin cried out, weakly hitting his ankles to somehow get the pressure off of him.
Yeonjun watched in shock, staring at Beomgyu who seemed pissed out of his mind and was actually physically hurting someone. It was a side of the male he had never seen before, his eyes lingering back and forth on the two, becoming speechless by how Beomgyu actually had the capability to be this pissed off at someone to the point he would actually hurt them.
He was impressed, lowkey.
Seong-jin deserved it.
"Soobin sincerely likes Taehyun for who he is," Beomgyu spoke once again, taking his foot off of Seong-jin's side before leaning down and grabbing onto the male's hair again, lifting him up effortlessly as he slammed him against the wall. "Soobin and I are still good friends, even after what happened!"
"I get it already! Let me go!" Seong-jin cried out, grabbing onto the male's wrist as he stared up at him. Hissing loudly as Beomgyu slammed him against the wall.
The male looked around frantically, his eyes widening when he realized that nobody, not even Yoshino or Miyuki, dared to go and free him from Beomgyu's wrath.
That's when he knew Choi Beomgyu really had a hidden fierce temper.
"Move it! Who are you? You're not even in our class...?"
"Excuse me!"
Yeonjun's eyes widened as he heard two familiar voices behind him, immediately turning around, his heart dropped as he saw Taehyun, Soobin, and Huening Kai approaching him. All of them were obviously confused and worried as to what was going on.
"Jun!" Soobin called out, rushing towards the elder and wrapping himself around the elder almost immediately. "What's going on?"
"Uhm..." Yeonjun mumbled softly, slowly looking over at Seong-jin and Beomgyu, Seong-jin who was still screaming his ass off. "Well—"
He was suddenly interrupted when Huening Kai gasped Taehyun's name loudly, the two of them frozen in their spots as their eyes remained focused on Beomgyu who didn't seem like himself at all.
"Beomgyu...?" Taehyun gasped under his breath, speechless that the male was genuinely hurting someone.
It was like the brunette was in his own world, that all of the people around them were just blurs in his eyes. Instead, he only had to focus on the bitch underneath him who had the audacity to speak badly about his friends and the one he loved so dearly.
It wasn't fair.
"I really don't know what delusions you've been making up in your head," Beomgyu muttered underneath his breath, loud enough for Seong-jin to hear. "Using that pathetic head of yours, but you should've kept it in your head!"
"Why would it even make sense I didn't love my friends," The male's voice began to tremble, forcing Seong-jin to look up at him, the male's eyes filling with hatred and fear. "Why would it make sense I didn't love Taehyun!"
Yeonjun's eyes flickered over towards Taehyun who looked like he had gone ghostly pale, looking back over at Beomgyu, the male wanted to step in and split the fight up before the male got in trouble, but before he could even take a step, he was suddenly pushed back by Soobin who gave him a look.
A look that screamed "do not interrupt them".
"But why wouldn't it make sense that I wouldn't like him...?" Beomgyu whispered underneath his breath, his voice wavering as his angry expression began to turn into a sorrow filled with desperation.
"Why would you accuse me of forcing Choi Yeonjun to date Choi Soobin?" Beomgyu gritted his teeth, his grip tightening on the male strands he was certain he felt some of them snap off from his scalp.
"It's true I did like Choi Soobin in the beginning," He breathed out heavily, his vision blurring as all of the pent up frustration began to leak out of his bottle that he kept closed tight for so long. "It's true that I sacrificed my happiness for my best friend, but I did it for him!"
"But with Kang Taehyun, it's true it was strange that the two of us had a strange relationship with each other," Beomgyu said, blinking his tears away as he stared down at Seong-jin who was still struggling against his harsh grip. "It's true we broke
up for unreasonable circumstances."
"But even now..." Beomgyu hesitated, his mind running on cloud nine as he realized what was about to happen. "I fell for him on my own, he's not a nobody! He's someone who captured my heart, he's not useless either!"
"The useless one here is you Park Seong-jin!" Beomgyu released his grip on the male's hair before slamming his foot against his chest, pressing him against the wall as the male underneath him cried out. "You don't have the right to say who I like and I don't like because even now..."
"...I still love Kang Taehyun with all my heart!"
A loud commotion of gasps echoed out behind him, whispers becoming louder and louder the moment he said that. Amongst the whispers, a peculiar name caught his head as he immediately turned his head, making eye contact with Taehyun who stared at him in disbelief.
Instantly feeling a cold wave of water hit him, the male gasped loudly as he took his foot off of Seong-jin and backed away from the crowd of people where his friends stood. His hands covering his mouth as his eyes were widened with fear.
Taehyun had just witnessed that entire thing.
"He still likes Kang Taehyun?"
"He wasn't lying at all! Look at that emotional outburst!"
"Did you hear that?"
"So Seong-jin was wrong this whole time, the two of them really did like each other?"
Taehyun scoffed underneath his breath and drowned out the amount of people whispering behind him, glancing over at Yeonjun and Soobin, he couldn't help but squint his eyes in suspicion as to why one was staring at him with disgust and the other staring at him with shock.
"Taehyun...?" Beomgyu squeaked in embarrassment, completely taken aback by the fact THAT HE JUST HAD TO WITNESS ALL OF THAT?!?!
He felt so stupid! No way he just confessed his entire love and feelings for the male while beating the shit out of Seong-jin (who really cares about him though). He couldn't help but feel so embarrassed and frightened knowing that not just Taehyun, not just his friends, but everyone in his class and other classes witnessed that!
He should've checked in on his behavior damn it! Focus himself back into reality instead of blurring out everyone and focusing on the bitch who deserved it!
"Hey I think he just confessed that he still likes you." Yeonjun whispered next to Taehyun who slowly looked over at the male, his ears burning a bright shade of
red.
"Yeah, I heard, thanks dipshit."
"I can't believe Seong-jin would lie about something like that..."
"Does that mean everything he's said was a lie? Especially about Beomgyu and Yeonjun?"
"Has to be! Look at him!"
"He told us Beomgyu told him directly about it, I can't believe it!"
"He's a compulsive liar."
"Why would you do that, Seong-jin?"
Seong-jin's eyes flickered around frantically, his breath becoming heavier as the numbing pain on his head and chest began to sink deep into him. He couldn't help but clench his jaw tightly as he looked over at Yoshino and Miyuki, a desperate sign for them to defend him.
But instead of the two speaking up for him, the both of them looked away and left the crowd, causing his eyes to widen in betrayal.
"He made it seem like Beomgyu wanted Soobin to cheat on Yeonjun with him."
"But after hearing what Beomgyu said... I think he wanted Soobin to cheat on Yeonjun with him!"
"That is so messed up. Jealous much."
"A complete fool."
Seong-jin's eyes landed on Yeonjun who stared down at him with a disgusted expression, a deep burning pit of rage began to light up more as he slowly stood up, grateful that Beomgyu was distracted by the sight of Kang Taehyun.
This isn't fair.
I'm supposed to ruin you, Choi Beomgyu!
You don't deserve anything in this world, you stole everything from me.
Rage began to build up as his vision began to go red, his blood boiling by the second as he stared at Beomgyu as if he were the worst person in the entire world, as if he didn't deserve to even be breathing right now.
"You fucking bitch!" Seong-jin launched himself towards Beomgyu who immediately turned his head and stared at him in shock. "I'm going to fucking murder you!"
"B-Beomgyu!" Taehyun called out for the male, his eyes widening as everything happened in a split second, as if times had slowed down and made the scene unbearable to watch.
But before Seong-jin could land any hits onto the male's poor face, in that split second, a sharp pain had bloomed on the side of his face as time began to slow down, his eyes widened at what had just happened.
Beomgyu had a split second to react to what was happening, without a second thought, the male immediately raised his fist and swung hard.
His fist meeting the side of Seong-jin's face hard, creating a harsh impact.
When time finally went back to its regular pace, the male didn't process anything until he looked down and saw the male on the ground grabbing his cheek hard as he wailed out. The tingling numbing pain on his fist made everything clearer as the crowd was silent in shock, his friends staring at him as if he were insane.
That's when he came to realize what had happened.
He had just punched Seong-jin, hard.
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"I can't believe you two got into a fight on the last day of school before break! I barely even got you two out of suspension!"
After Beomgyu had punched Seong-jin, the two of them were caught when Mr. Son and Mrs. Lee came in the crowd and saw what was happening, in immediate anger, Mrs. Lee had sent them down to the office while Mr. Son gathered around the students and sent them all back to class, leaving just the two of them in punishment.
"You both are top students in my class, especially you Beomgyu, I'd expect you to help break it. Not be in the center of it!" He said disappointedly, causing the male to lower his head down in shame.
"Seong-jin, I expected you to stay out of trouble this year, that's the whole reason I moved you from class 2-B to 1-A." Mr. Son looked over at the male with a disappointed frown, causing Seong-jin to bow his head in shame as well.
"You both are so lucky you didn't get suspended, but for now as punishment, you two are to clean the classrooms and club room yourself until the end of the school year." Mr. Son said, sighing softly as he held his head up and felt an upcoming migraine form.
It wasn't a bad punishment at all, Beomgyu was grateful that Mr. Son had managed to not get them suspended at all, he knew that would anger his mother despite her being... okay... lately.
"You two are dismissed, I don't want another issue again."
The two of them bowed respectfully before leaving the classroom. At that moment, Beomgyu took the chance to look over at Seong-jin who had anger written all over his face, which made his stomach drop in guilt.
He had lost himself in his bottled up anger, he didn't mean to physically hurt someone! But after the male started talking so badly about his friends and Taehyun, he couldn't help but feel something snap in him.
"You know," Seong-jin muttered under his breath, causing Beomgyu to look at him. "I never did like you."
The words the male said struck Beomgyu right in the heart, weeks of friendship he thought was really shattered in an instant when he saw how cold he was towards him, all of the sweet actions turned out to just be fake acts.
"It's so obvious you're being fake with your kindness," Seong-jin spat out, refusing to look over at Beomgyu as the bruise on his cheek made it nearly impossible to turn his head without it throbbing in pain. "I don't understand why anybody likes you, why they think you're so nice. It's unbelievable."
Beomgyu stood there in silence, his eyes widening as all of the words Seong-jin had said processed through his mind. But before he could say anything, the latter started walking away, causing him to panic.
"W-Wait! Seong-jin!" Beomgyu called out for the male who completely ignored him. Right before he was going to catch up to him and sincerely apologize, he suddenly felt a hand wrap around his wrist and held him back.
Looking over his shoulder to see who had stopped him, his eyes widened seeing Yeonjun behind him who shook his head. "Jun hyung...?"
"Don't even bother with him, he's a selfish brat who's a pathological liar." Yeonjun said, full seriousness in his tone as Beomgyu frowned.
Beomgyu had always believed in second chances, but right now, he wasn't so sure whether he should listen to his mind or Yeonjun right now. Looking back over at Seong-jin who pathetically scoffed and walked further away from them, he sighed and gave up, knowing it was no use to apologize.
Yeonjun saw how saddened the male was, as if a part of him were ripped out and thrown on the floor, which wasn't a surprise since Beomgyu had completely lost it back there and physically hurt someone.
Letting go of his pride, finally letting his walls come down, the elder pulled the male back and wrapped him in a warm hug, placing his hand on the back of the younger's head.
"There are so many people who do like you in this school, Beom," Yeonjun mumbled softly, feeling the brunette start to tremble in his arms. "Even if there is one person or more who doesn't, they won't impact your life, you're better than them."
Beomgyu finally let his anxiety fall free, his emotions that were so suppressed finally broke loose as he grabbed onto Yeonjun and hugged the elder tightly, afraid that if he were to let go, he would lose his best friend again.
"I'm sorry," Beomgyu whispered underneath his breath, loud enough for Yeonjun to hear. "I'm so so sorry."
"I really did want to tell you the truth, about everything, but I got so scared..." He pulled away from the hug and stepped back, giving them space so he could look at him properly. "I was afraid that you'd hate me, so I put all of your feelings before myself."
"I didn't want to believe it," His voice began to shake, his eyes watering slightly by how overwhelmed he was. "But I think Seong-jin may be right, I thought that my kindness would make everyone happy, but instead I just ruined it all, I'm a fake."
"I really did like Soobin hyung in the beginning," He admitted softly, his eyebrows furrowing in frustration. "But after knowing that you liked him as well, even longer than I have, I wanted nothing more than for you to be happy... so I... fake dated Taehyun to make that happy."
"I didn't mean for you to feel like a rebound, I'm sincere when I say that, all I wanted was for you two to realize your feelings for each other because in all honesty, Soobin had never looked at me in the way he looks at you, and I'm grateful for that."
It was honestly so frustrating for Beomgyu.
In the beginning, his heart and mind would always think of Soobin, thinking of the elder as a flower in the springtime. Warm, beautiful, comforting, becoming that ticklish feeling he felt in the warm spring air, making his heart flutter with joy.
But now that he thought back on it, he had started to realize that instead of liking the fact of dating Soobin and him liking him back, he had only liked the heart fluttering feeling the elder made him feel.
But for Taehyun...
It was a complete disaster, he had honestly never expected to befriend someone so rude... so cold... and so straightforward as him! He was so certain the two of them were never going to get along.
Until they began their act to fool others to gain Beomgyu's one goal. It led him to fall down a deep hole of unwavering emotions, his thoughts and feelings running wild the longer he spent with Taehyun who opened up to him more, showcasing a wonderful mysterious world that he wanted to discover more.
His heart would race every time he was around him, more and more every day until he felt like he was about to puke.
He would find himself becoming anxious, afraid, even uncomfortable with his unknown feelings from the start around Taehyun.
Until he had finally realized he felt feelings he had never felt towards Soobin, as if the younger had unlocked a deep part of his heart he didn't know was locked, opening up a whole new perspective of life for him.
He admired Taehyun so much, from his caring nature to his natural talent, how passionate he was about his interests, and especially how selfless he was. How he was there for him everytime.
Beomgyu had always felt comfortable around him yet so annoyed, annoyed in a way that he would end up chasing more. Chasing that feeling to catch it and keep it so it would never go away.
Taehyun captured his heart in the way he would've never imagined.
"It just hurt," Beomgyu finally breathed out. "It hurts seeing you all together without me, I know what I've done was harsh... pathetic... but I don't want to be forgotten or left out."
Yeonjun stared at the male pouring out his feelings, a small frown growing on his lips as he breathed out and nodded his head.
"Alright," Yeonjun replied briefly, as if he were unsure what to exactly say. "I accept your apology... but..."
"I'm sorry too, Beomgyu."
Beomgyu's eyes widened as he looked at the elder in shock, not expecting him to apologize for anything at all. "Wh-Why are you apologizing?"
"Because I've also been selfish," Yeonjun frowned, crossing his arms. "I should've taken your feelings into consideration, I was just so blinded by anger and in my own perspective, I see how I could've overwhelmed you with everything."
"I'm also... really sorry for being mean to you," Yeonjun lowered his head, ashamed of his behavior. "I was just... so upset, at you but also at myself. I guess I became so frustrated I took it out on you, I'm so sorry."
"I never meant to make it feel like you were left out or that you weren't my best friend anymore."
Beomgyu began to feel even more overwhelmed, all emotions crashing down at once as he immediately pulled Yeonjun into a hug, wrapping his arms around the elder tightly as he cried out in happiness.
"I'm so happy you don't hate me hyung! I'll never lie to you again!"
Yeonjun huffed softly, he couldn't help but just smile and pat the younger's head, he began to feel so relieved that he had forgiven him. It took a whole fucking lot of him to admit his wrongdoings.
"Yeah yeah whatever," Yeonjun grabbed his shoulders and peeled him off of him before he suffocated even more. "But you do understand a simple apology to me won't just do, right?"
Beomgyu had to think for a second what he meant by that, he had already apologized to Soobin and Huening Kai, so all that left was—
"Taehyun..." He breathed out, his eyes widening as he felt his heart drop.
"Oh my god." Beomgyu grabbed his hair, watching Yeonjun walk away as he immediately followed him without a second thought. "You're telling me he saw... all of that?"
"That was in the fight, right?" Yeonjun asked him, looking over at the male who remained silent, which sorta answered his question. "I think everyone saw you beat the shit out of Seong-jin, good job though! He deserved it."
"I-I can't talk to him," Beomgyu began to panic, his mind creating all sorts of strange scenarios that could happen if he were to approach Taehyun. "That means he heard me say— Oh. My. God!"
Yeonjun looked over towards the male, an amused smile growing on his lips as he saw Beomgyu cover his red ass face in embarrassment when he remembered he had practically professed his love towards the male in front of everyone.
"Do you think he still hates me...?" Beomgyu asked warily, slowly removing his hands from his face as he looked up at the elder.
"Hmm..." Yeonjun hummed, pausing in his steps which startled Beomgyu but he still did the same. "I don't know."
"Why don't you ask him yourself?"
Right before Beomgyu could question what the elder meant by that, he heard a soft cough in front of him which immediately made him turn his head, his eyes widening when he saw Huening Kai, Soobin, and Taehyun standing there waiting for them.
"I think we should leave you guys alone to talk." Yeonjun said quickly, not allowing Beomgyu to process anything as he took Huening Kai and Soobin away, leaving both him and Taehyun alone.
The man's eyes widened as his heart dropped, his stomach churning in the most twisted way he was certain that he'd pass out.
"T-Taehyun...?" His voice began to tremble, just standing in front of the male who had his eyes fixated on him made him panic.
After a few seconds of awkward silence and standing there like idiots, Taehyun coughed slightly, turning his head away as he closed his eyes to compose himself.
After a bit, the male turned to face Beomgyu, a small smile growing on his lips as he stepped closer which made him absolutely panic even more.
"I think it's time we should talk, Beomgyu hyung."
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