(A/N): Hey, so this one shot is based on a German song. I translated the lyrics for you, because I'm sure some of you don't understand German. Everything that is written in Italic is the lyrics of the song. And if there are these: "" around an Italic word then Castiel is saying that out loud (example: "Feathers". I hope you enjoy. It's a bit sad, but I tried to do fluff lol
Enjoy!
Based on the song: "Wunderschönes Wesen" by GReeeN
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You sit at your table, the looks are poison
Dean is sitting at the map table, whiskey in his hand and a half empty bottle next to him.
Castiel is watching Dean. Since days Dean is in a terrible state of depression and self-consciousness. He hasn't looked in the mirror in days, trying everything to avoid his reflection. Dean only leaves his room when he thinks that he is alone, he doesn't know that Castiel watched over him the whole time.
Seeing his strong hunter in such a terrible state makes the angels heart break.
As ghosts on the wall, no help in sight
You constantly ask yourself, “What’s wrong with me?”
Sighing Dean downs his drink and stands up. He rubs his eyes and walks to his room. Tears are threatening to fall and his breathing starts to quicken.
In his room he sits down Infront of his bed, pulling a blanket down and wrapping himself into it.
Letting go his tears start to fall. Laying down on the floor with the blanket wrapped around him, only his face popping out of the thick layer of the blanket, he starts to cry and sob loudly.
Cas hears his human breaking down completely and giving up. Dean's thoughts are worrying him even more.
“They’re picking on me or they’re not interested"
You wonder what did you do to them
You feel like the whole city hates you
You don't know why that could be
Dean thinks that he doesn't deserves to live, that Noone loves him and cares about him. He feels ugly and disgusting, fat and worthless.
Castiel doesn't really know why Dean should think about something like this, but he knows that they are not true. The hunter is a beautiful creature in the angel's eyes.
Feeling insignificant, like you're from no man's land
Dean is too far gone in his mind to see the reality, to see how beautiful and loved he is.
You look down and you see the hungry caterpillar
Looking down at his body is making the older Winchester crying out even louder. The scars on his arms are hidden under new fresh cuts. Even though he lost weight and his ribs are visible in his own eyes he is fat.
Every dream so far has been shattered, at some point you'll leave here
He can't remember when the last time was that was truly happy.
No self-love, inside you is the third world war
Why should you love others if you don't love yourself?
Castiel wished Dean could see himself the way he does. But Dean already gave up...
Been inside this precipitation for far too long
He threatens to drown you, and the worst thing is: no help is forthcoming
Without knocking the angel enters the room. Slowly walking up to the crying hunter that lays on the ground he puts his hand on his shoulder.
"You forgot someone, someone very specific
The savior of your life, look in the mirror", Castiel tells Dean.
"You forgot something, you beautiful creature. There is talk of a miracle"
Dean looks up at the angel and wipes away his tears, sniffling a bit.
Green eyes meet blue ones. Softly Castiel smiles at Dean, kneeling in front of the now sitting hunter. He puts his hand on the hunter's cheek and wipes away another tear.
"Your strength is immeasurable for a beautiful life. Because you have to give one hundred percent"
Dean leans into the touch and lays his hand over the angel's one on his cheek.
"You forgot something, you beautiful creature. There is talk of a miracle"
Slowly Dean closes his eyes and Castiel moves Dean so that the oldest Winchester is sitting on his lap with his head on the angel's chest.
"Your strength is immeasurable for a beautiful life. Because you have to give one hundred percent"
He begins to move his hand into Dean's hair and starts to cam the messy hair with his fingers.
Be strong, boy, the others are talking
Slowly Dean relaxes and cuddles into his angels chest.
Mentally send them to another planet.
And force yourself to smile , think of something beautiful
"I'm here for you, Dean. Always."
And let's face it, you can't scoff at something like that
And start loving yourself, change what bothers you
Dean sighs with content. The warm embrace of the only person he loves is making his bad thoughts disappear.
If you feel too fat, start exercising
Accept what you cannot change
Cas kisses the top of Dean's head and uses his grace to make the fresh cuts heal and the alcohol to leave his system.
It belongs to you, it makes you unique
Let it go, the bitterness needs to be softened
Sam is now standing at the doorframe. He came back a few minutes earlier from the hunt. With a sad smile he watches the scene. The other two don't notice him though, too far gone in their world of love.
Change your mindset, instead of thunderstorms let it shine
Dean's tears stopped and his breathing is calm again.
A genuine smile can work wonders. For example in front of the mirror.
Been inside this precipitation for far too long.
He threatens to drown you, and the worst thing is: no help is forthcoming
"You forgot someone, someone very specific. The savior of your life, look in the mirror"
Like that everything seemed good for Dean. He wanted to stay in his boyfriends embrace forever. The warmness of the angel's love is warming up Dean's cold and broken heart.
"You forgot something, you beautiful creature. There is talk of a miracle"
He thought about how he could ever think about not being loved. Because he is loved. His angel will never leave him. Never.
"Your strength is immeasurable for a beautiful life. Because you have to give one hundred percent"
His bad thoughts completely disappeared as if they never were there. And even if they would come back, then he would have Cas to help him. Because he has always Cas there to help him and to be there for him. Even if they don't talk about what wrong is. Just knowing that Cas is there was enough. To know that his angel loves him no matter what.
And even if Dean has a problem with seeing the love he gets then Castiel will show him and tell him.
"You forgot something, you beautiful creature. There is talk of a miracle"
Because Castiel cares. He always does and always will.
Slowly Dean starts to fall asleep while the angel stroked his hair.
"Your strength is immeasurable for a beautiful life. Because you have to give one hundred percent"
The sleeping hunter in his arms he stood up and laid him down on his bed. Taking off his clothes and stripping down to his boxers he does the same for Dean.
Then he lays down next to his boyfriend and spoons him.
Dean's face is snuggled into Cas's chest.
"I love you...", Dean mumbles and finally falls asleep completely.
"I love you too"
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If you listen to the song and understand the lyrics it's way better, but I hope you could still enjoy it.
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