Searching for the Answer

By ShawnGreinert5

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This is a compilation of stories involving childhood abuse and trauma through a first-person impactful perspe... More

Welcome to Reality
My Story
The Beginnings
7 Year Suicide
Melissa Mavelly/Greenwelle
A Watch & A Clothespin
Dragged Down Block
Face Grab
Yelling in car
Hot Checks
Jonathan Greenewell/Dad
Birthday Spankings
Father DUI and Money
Father Takes Rare Coins
One Jonathan's Rehab
Drunk Dryer Door Break
Drunk Dad Wrecks Rim
Bryce Greenwelle
Bryce & Mom
Baseball Window X10
16 Slit Wrists
Grandmother's Final Breath
Losing It All
Money & Food
She's Mean To Me
Father Burger Place Seizure
High School Graduation
Cancer Fundraiser
Mother Dies of Cancer at 53
Grandfather Head Split
Jane Mavelly
The Final 2 Weeks
Jane, She's Gone April 1st
Her Final Breath
Jonathan's Confinement age 12
Father Wall of Women
Bryce Drunk Ativan Granny
Molly
Do Something with Your Life
Harold Mavelly
Dumpster Dive
Herald Threatens to Break Leg
Sally Sentinence
Parental Failure
There was no Medicine
Grandpa's cough medicine
Car Door Finger Slam Break
Kindergarten
Why Won't You Make Eye Contact?
Dreams Denied and Derailed
500 Not Given
3rd Grade Torn Ligament
Car Wreck
Father Screaming
Disney World Dropped Smile
Soccer Glasses Break
Swing Dissociation
Time with grandparents not spent
Mean to Raji
Shop Class/Industrial Technology
Roosevelt Latin Kings
Tennis
Middle School Father Tennis Tournament
Motorcycle Class
Christmas Pain
Writing Articles
Tennis Shoes
Last Place
Simpleton Senior Year
She's Mean to Me
Northwest Parkway Room Not Touch
Northwest Mom 6 Months to Live
Final Moments at Northwest
Glasses and Blurry Vision
Final Thanksgiving
High School Graduation
Senior Gifts Inequality
Bennington Public School System
Cancer Fundraiser
Grandfather Inconsiderate
Jonathan's Reflections
Trying to Help Jonathan After Melissa's Death
Father Return to Ohio
Ohio New Student Conference
Damien & Jen
Archie Davidson 1st Time Smoking Cannabis
Retail Associates
Ohio State Hospital & Others
Bryce's Call to OSH
2nd ST OSH Counselor
OSH Stories
Basketball Music and Clouds
MHMR Tyler?
Strattera
Ohio State to Arkansas State
Arkansas Graduation
Gardening
Grand
Bennington, Arkansas
Comfort Care
Car Broke Down
Tommy & Amanda
Bryce Starts Lawsuit
Arbitration
WWJD
Torn Ligament Father Cry
Going Fishing
Teeth
Wisdom teeth
Moving in with Damien
Father Delusion
Garage Sale in Durham
Jonathan locked key in car buying beer
Wellbutrin Seizure
Lawn Care
Lawsuits in Bennington Arkansas.
Hayden Parsons?
Elementary School Sing-A-Long
Fruit Loops
Arbitration Missing Feeding Granny
Every Cop is Bad
Defenseless
Pharyngitis Ruins Shop Trip
Childhood Over at 15
Contact Lenses
ST Helmet Break
Nothing is Fun: Lake
Silence from this Point Forward
Go Kick Chuck
Tabasco not Ketchup
Swing Hits Head Stitches
Haircuts
Jack Moves to Perry
Neighbor Insane
Father Says He'll Fix the Lawnmower
Dad Wears Heely's
Ohio State Hospital People
Bo Austin State Hospital
Todd & Gabriel Logic
Cathy 2nd stay mid early twenties.
He'll Swing on You
Poverty & Shame
Bathroom Products Stolen
Men Are Trash
Wells Fargo Mother Fraud
2008 Storage Unit Lost
Drug Dealer
Weed Checkpoint
Tyler and Jordan
LSD
Southside Recovery
Tainted Weed Supply
Kratom
Evan Smith
Evan Takes Rent
Jeff
Norman Mavelly
Damien ST
Cynthia
Canton
No Sex Talk Around Me
Can't Handle Physical Touch
Cathy Simpleton Throws Away My Medication and Belongings.
Carleton Is Mean
Understanding Melissa Now
Bryce is not a Man
Brother not Hiring Disabled
B- End up on streets
You Can't Sing
Harold and Bryce Diaper
Church
Disney World Easter Gifts Taken
Raji
Charlie
Getting Arrested
Brother Disrespects Women
Cynthia & Bennington Brainwashed via Bryce
MHMR Tyler?
Tyler and Jordan Drug Dealer
Carleton
Mother Keeps Fundraiser Money
Bruised Ribs
New York Return Hate
Father Flash Children
Ripping out IV
Father Trying to See Daughter
Brother Selfish
Bryce Movies Blockbuster
Bryce Expecting My Money
Gatti's
Disney World Sister Tooth Ache
Family Game Night
Anna
Shop Class/Industrial Technology
Abbacus
Damien
A Big Mistake
Never had a girlfriend
It Would Have Been Nice/It Was Nice

Senior Year Shoes

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By ShawnGreinert5

Senior Year Shoes

Over the summer of my junior year prior to my senior year of high school I wrote a few articles to be able to afford new shoes for the year. The thing is I was only able to save something like $20 because I was getting paid 1 cent per word and wasn't fully adept of churning them out.

Given the limited budget it makes sense that my mother should have taken me to a thrift store, but instead I checked on eBay. Senior year and really all of high school what you wear affects how people see you, and this is the time in your life when you really care what everyone thinks of you, so I wanted shoes that were decent looking.

After searching through eBay I found some Sperry's that were size 11 and a fraction of the cost that they would be in store, and so I ordered them. The only problem was the Sperry's were the only shoes I could find in my price range and the problem I was a size 10 so I had to hope that when they arrived they fit me, but they didn't. They were a size too big which greatly impacted my ability to walk. There was a slump and indention in the shoe where my toes ended and the shoe had too much space which I had to deal with for 10 months. For 10 months I walked around the campus in shoes that didn't come close to fitting me all because my parents couldn't provide for us and I had to work with what I could still being a teen and in high school. It was miserable having your shoes shift walking miles a day from campus to campus and home.

Aside from my shoes not fitting, I also wanted a watch so that I could keep track of how much time I had to suffer in each class. Even with a watch I would check the clock every five minutes to see when I could leave. The watch though I saved up $30 for a Casio on eBay. The problem with this was the watch didn't fit at all, it could go up to my elbow and close on my bicep, so I went with my friend Raji to Walmart to have it adjusted but I desired so much to have the watch that when she took out a few links I told her it was perfect when really it was only decently fit. The result from this was I went 10 months walking around with a watch that shifted from halfway up my forearm to stopped at the wrist by bone. All day I would have to adjust it and I'm sure that was a mark of other kids seeing I was in poverty, but I worked hard for that watch and kept it because it was one of the first purchases I made for myself that was absolutely necessary.

So my senior year of high school I had to wear all of the clothes from the previous year with two or three new shirts, and the same pants I didn't get any new ones, I was wearing the same pants I had in 8th grade. My shoes didn't fit, and neither did my watch, and I had to use the same tennis racquet I bought my Freshman year. These little things that could have been fixed would have made my daily suffering in high school just that less tortuous.

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