3RD PERSON POV
" THERE'S NOTHING TO BE EXPLAIN, KAHIT ANO PA ANG EXPLAIN MO WALA AKONG PAKE AT WALA NARING KWENTA IYON DAHIL BALIWA NA YANG EXPLANATION MO BECAUSE YOU'RE 20 YEARS LATE, YOU A**H**E, WE ARE OVER SO PLEASE FOR F@*@*@G SAKE!!! LEAVE ME ALOVE " - pasigaw na wika ko sabay tulak sa kanya at pagkatapos ko siyang itulak ng malakas na siyang dahilan para mapaupo siya, pagkatapos non ay tumakbo na ako ng mabilis
Tumakbo ako ng mabalis na mabilis mara makalayas sa s**a*l*ng mang-iiwang kong ex boyfriend, pagkatapos nya kaming iwan bigla syang babalik ng ganon ganon nalang, wala akong pakealam kung bakit nya kami iniwan ng basta basta na parang maduming basahan pagkatapos nya durugin ang puso ko, sya pa itong may ganang magsalita para magkaclosure kami, utot nya
But my heart hurt like it's gonna burst when i saw him crying and begging to talk
No, no, no self, hwag kang bibigay panigurado acting lang, yah, it's just all an act
If he really wants me back, bakit 'di niya ako sinundan, pagkalingon ko nakita ko sya kaya naman nagtago ako
I saw him, the man i love so deeply, and the man who broke my heart and abandoned me
I F*****G HATE THAT MAN
No, you F*****G LOVE THAT MAN
I saw him, hinahanap ako, i was shocked when i saw him in his knees, crying on the floor, crying out loud my name and then he crying out loud say saying
" I KNOW I'M SELFISH BUT IF I JUST TELL HER THE TRUTH THAT TIME MAYBE SHE STILL WITH ME BUT I KNOW NO MATTER I WISH IT HAPPEND IT DIDN'T CHANGE THE FACT THAT I HURT HER. I'M SUCH AS AS****E i SHOULD JUST TOLD HER THE TRUTH, I WISH I CAN TELL HER THE TRUTH BUT I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IF SHE HAS HER FAMILY OR NOT BESIDE IT'S BEEN SO MANY YEARS WHEN I LEFT HER, YOUR F*****G IDIOT ****** YOU SHOULD JUST SAID THE REASON WHY YOU LEAVE HER SANA YOU STILL WITH HER"
What does he mean by that?
Does that mean there's a reason why he left? what is it? what's the reason for him to leave me?
Why are you so curious? you said to yourself kaina diba na wala kang pake ,so why are you so curious now?
I know he hurt me, but i want to know the truth
Palakad na ako pabalik sa kanya ng may bigla lalaki na tumatakbo sa direction niya
" KUYA " - Pasigaw na tawag nito sa kanya habang patakbong palapit sa kanya " Kuya what happend?" - nag-aalalang tanong nito
" Sh-e-'s he-r-ee , " my ex said while still sobbing
" Who? " - he asked
" T-h-e re-a-so-n w-h-y i s-t-i-ll live , " my ex said while still sobbing
" What happened between you too? Based on what you look like, it's not good, wasn't it?" - he asks
" She hates me," my ex said while crying out loud
It hurts to see him like this
But he hurt you and y---
But i still love him. I want to know the truth. Maybe he really has reasons why he left me
You're just hurting yourself
But he ---
"NAPAKAG**O KO KASI INIWAN KO SIYA NG DI MAN LANG SINASABI ANG TOTOO, I WANT TO PROTECT HER SO I LEAVE HER BUT I HURT BECAUSE I LEAVE HER, NAKAPATANG*A KO" He shouted while bursting in tears
What does he mean by that, he leave me to protect me? what's the real reason for him for leave for my sake as he said?
" Shhh, i know. i know it's not all your fault. You just did what you think good for her. She doesn't know the truth," his brother said in a comforting voice
" SHE HATES ME, SHE DOESN'T WANT ME ANYMORE, MAYBE SHE ALREADY HAS SOMEONE " - he crying shouted in jealous and angry voice at same time
" As i said, she doesn't know the truth. She just hates you probably because she might be taught she's not good enough for you," his brother said
" NO I WILL NEVER LEAVE HER FOR SUCH THING, SHE IS PERFECT IN ANYWAY POSSIBLE, I AM THE ONE WHO'S NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR HER, I LOVE HER SO MUCH TO THE POINT I RATHER DIED SINGLE FOREVER IF SHE WASN'T THE ONE I MARRIED " - He shouted said but it had the tone of honest man who will rather become a eunuch than married other woman.
" Kuya, let's go," his brother said while trying to help him get up
" NO, I WANT TO FIND HER TO TELL THE TRUTH EVEN IF SHE DOSEN'T WANT ME ANYMORE, I JUST DON'T WANT HER TO HATE ME, IT HURTS SO BAD " - he shouted at him
" Kuya sa tinggin mo sa lagay mo na yan mahahanap mo siya, anong oras na oh, panigurado bumalik na yun sa hotel kung saan yun nagstastay, hayaan mo muna siya magpahina, let her processed it first i know for the fact she might also emotionally drained " - his brother said
" But----"
" We will find her tomorrow okay, so you should rest first so that you have energy for tomorrow, okay?" - his brother said in a comforting tone while helping him get up
" You will help me to find her? It's promised , " my ex asked while his wiping his tears
" Yes, of course kuya" - his brother said
I saw my ex eyes, it's so red for crying, he is snoring cause of crying so hard also his voice is a bit crack because of shouting while crying
It hurts to see him like this
I want to talk to him
Umalis ako sa pinagtataguan ko at akmang lalapit sa kanila
When his brother stares at me and opens his mouth and says this word without sound
The word is "Let him rest first, you two talk tomorrow " - he stares at me like he is begging me to let us both rest first
I mouthed "okay tomorrow "
He nodded at me and basically inalalayan ang ex ko pabalik ng hotel nila
To be honest, i don't know what i feel, especially since it feels like all things i think the reason why he left is not truth
But why???
Why do you keep it a secret for this long???
What are you keeping, my love?
~ In Other side ~
His lips so soft and so weet
While i kiss him I'm touching his face to kiss him properly
I open my mouth so that he ans so we kiss with our tongue
i want more, i want to kiss him more
While we making out i feel a finger in my shoulder na may kumakalabit sa aking balikat
Because of that we stop our make-out session at lumingon kay prof
"Time's up! Great job, you two! Tapos na ang 5 minutes, That was a bold dare, and you both handled well, so you can go to your sit now" - wika ni prof
i stil want to kiss him but our prof stop us because the time is up, so unfair, i want more
"Thank you, Sweet heart, for being open-minded to the dare. It was a fun experience" - wika ni ko sa cusual but flirty way as usual para hindi siya maghinala
" No problem at all! It was all in good fun. Thanks for asking for my permission, not just doing it without my permission" - wika ng sweetheart ko sa casual niyang wika
I stared at his lips it's still red from our makeout session
Inabot ko ang aking kamay sa kanya para maghandshake
Then we shake hands and go to our sit
And so the game continues, with the bottle being spin again and new truths and dares being chosen by different players.
I just stared at him the whole time while the game was repeated until they are tired and go back in own rooms.
I'm at my room, staring at wall while remembering the kiss we shared
I touch my lips while remembering his soft sweet lips, i want to kiss him again
I want to taste his lips again so bad
I love that man
I love him so much
I love his smile, i love the way he speak, I love his sweet yet flirty manner only for me, love the way he laughs, i love his kindnesses and thoughtfulness, I love everything about him, I love every inch of him however i know that we can't be together, it will never happened because he already in love with other person and i know no matter what i do, he will never love me
I'm content just being with him even if just being with him as his bestfriend
No your not, you want more
But i can't
He doesn't love me the way i love him
Just confess
No, i will just rejected because he already inlove with other person and if i confess to him i will just ruin our friendship, i don't want that ti happen
I'm happy just the way it is
Yeah, right
I love you my dearest sweetheart