"Sigurado kana ba sa desisyon mo Liv?" Ulit na tanong ni Julius na sa wari ko'y pang anim na.
"Oo nga, kaya ko na okay?" Saad ko saka inirapan siya.
"Bakit ba kasi ayaw mo pang isama si Hunter?" Giit nanaman nito.
"Ayuko Julius mangungulit nanaman yun eh. Saka ayuko ng maingay sa byahe." Sagut kong muli. Pinadaan naman nito ang mga daliri sa buhok at tila frustrated na ewan.
"Kahit kailan talaga ang pasaway mo, pareho kayo niyang si Primative kunti nalang pag-uuntugin ko na kayo." Anito sa inis na tono. Natawa naman ako dahil duon at hindi maiwasang mapailing.
"Relax okay? I'll call you when I get there." Humarap ito sa aking kunot ang nuo.
"Kelan ka babalik?" Tumaas ang kilay ko.
"Two days, I just need to visit the company, that's all. Babalik din ako agad."
"Tsk, bakit ba kasi kailangan pag bisitahin yun? Anong ginagawa ni Ricardo?"
"Julius lawyer si Tito Ricardo pinamahala ko lang sa kaniya ang company dahil nagtatago ako. Mabuti naring kinupkop pala niya si Primative at siya ang humawak nuon." Sabi ko naman.
"Alam mo naman kasing delikado pa Liv pumayag kapa sa kapatid mo na yan. Wala pang nahuhuli sa mga Dark kaya hindi pa alam kong safe kana ba talagang umalis." Bumuga ako ng hangin dahil nakukulitan na talaga ako sa kaniya.
"Julius, ikaw na nga ang may sabi na baliw ang kapatid kong iyun. Tingnan mo nga itong hideout daig pa ang palasyo ng presidente sa dami ng security guard. Malamang sa Manila mas madami pa." Sa huli ay wala narin naman siyang nagawa kundi ipag buhat ako ng bag na nilamnan ko ng mga damit at ilang gamit nakakailanganin ko.
"Kaya mo na ba talaga mag maneho?" Tanong niya na ikinatango ko agad.
"Oo nga."
"Tsk, sige na mag-iingat ka tumawag ka pag nasa Manila kana." Sabi pa nito pero imbis na sumagot ay niyakap ko nalang siya ng mahigpit.
"Aminin mo nalang kasi na overprotective kana sakin." Biro ko sabay suntok sa balikat niya.
"Kapal mo naman masyado." Ngumiti ang sulok ng labi ko sa pagiging denial niya.
"Sus diba nga sabi mo, I'm sorry anak. Sige itanggi mo pa." Sumama ang tingin nito sa akin na ikinatawa ko.
"Umalis kana nga Olivia pinapainit mo ang ulo ko!" Hiyaw nito na may pag hampas pa sa hood ng sasakyan. Tumatawag pinaandar ko ang sasakyan at pinanuod nalang siya sa rearview mirror. Bakas ang pag-aalala sa mata nito na tila humahaplos naman sa puso ko.
"Tama ka nanaman Noah mukhang magkaka instant Daddy na ako. Hay! I'm sure maiinggit nanaman si Tito Ricardo." Natatawang turan ko saka pinaharurot ang sasakyan.
Papunta ako ngayun sa Manila para bumisita sa kumpaniya. Isang taon narin naman kasi ang nakalipas mula ng basahin ko ang liham ni Noah sa burol. Isang taon narin ang nakalipas mula ng simulan kong tanggapin ang mga tao sa paligid ko Including Prim. Hindi naging madali, lalo na pagdating sa kaniya dahil hindi ko dati matanggap na isa siya sa dahilan kung bakit nagpatiwakal si Mama. Pero napag isip-isip kong hindi naman niya kasalanan iyun. I also found out na hindi ni Tito Ricardo inalis ang pangalan ko bilang may-ari ng company sa halip ay ipinahawak lang niya ito kay Prim. Hindi ko man ini-expect pero walang naging reklamo duon si Primative. Sabi niya, she only need is to have the position inside the company kahit pa nga daw vice president lang. Gusto lang daw niya ay makaahon sa hirap. Isa pa siya din ang tumulong kila Julius ng ma-ambush sila ng Thana's during our mission na fortunately ay nabulilyaso. Her team are the one who convince the police force and even the people for our innocence. Binuking at binaliktad lang naman niya si Dean Ramirez sa polisya. Inilantad nito ang pagkakasangkot niya sa Thana's. Sa huli napaamin din si Dean dahil sa kaniya mapupunta ang patong-patong na kaso. Anton said that he has a tracker which can be explosive. Malamang ginawang panakot ng Thana's iyun kay Dean para sundin ang lahat ng kanilang gusto.
Matapus ang lahat napagdesisyonan namin tumira na sa hideout ng sama-sama dahil wala paring nahuhuli sa mga nakatakas na Thana's member lalong lalo na sa mga Dark. Julius are afraid that they might attack again kaya hinayaan rin niya ang mga SG na pinadala ni Prim sa bahay. Hunter is now living with us at kamuntikan ko na siyang mapatay ng maabutan ko siyang nakahiga sa kama ni Noah. Talagang ilang suntok ang natamo niya sa akin dahil duon. Ang ending share sila ni Waxton ng kwarto. Kinausap pa nga ako ni Julius dahil duon but they all stop when I told them that I'm still not ready kahit ang totoo, hindi talaga ako magiging handa. Iginalang naman nila iyun at hindi na muling binaggit pa.
What happened inside the lab is what I feared for today. It brings no nightmares, but the guilt were chocking me and I'm not trying to untangled. This feelings is what I'm deserving. Because it feels so inappropriate when people begun accepting me for who I am after everything I've done, after bringing people their death. I lost a friend, but how much more for the victims family.
But ironically how people beginning to accept me, they even labeled me as their hero but I feel so ashamed for that. I killed, hundreds of Thana's that are just used by their stupid invention. I know, some of them have a family, a friend, a special someone that can be the reason why they accepted a faith like this. What I've done is nothing heroic.
Another thing—Rebel, I met a woman who I never thought exited. I felt her wrath when she shot me, her stares were so deep digging console as I guess. Even no one clarify who she is, my heart knocked for the answer. And somethings telling me that she meant something to me. And my heart sank thinking what have happened to her.
On the other hand, Mr. Marcello and Dean Ramirez got arrested kasama ang ilan pang mga kasabwat ng Thana. Finally, napakinabangan ang mga naipong ebidensiya ni Chief Sanchez dahilan upang mapatunayan ang pag suporta nila sa experimentation. Sadly, Hunter's father was included. Sa subrang lungkot nito sa nalaman ay hindi na siya umuwi pa sa kanilang mansion.
Marami paring tanong ang naiwan sa ere, sa totoo nga lang ay mas nadagdagan pa iyun. Ngunit kahit duon ay hindi parin ako handang usisain ang sagut. Alam kung dadating din ang araw para dyan, pero sa ngayun hindi pa ako handa.
But I won't deny na malaking parte parin sa akin ang nag-aalala. Waxton and Hunter are both included in Thana's subject list 17 years ago. Wala pa man akong nakikitang epekto sa kanila. Perhaps what Dante told me is true. The level 1 and 2 appears natural. They only make the immune system healthy ngunit hindi ko parin maiwasan ang hindi mag-alala
But like what I've said, I'm not ready to face people who are responsible for Noah's death. Ni kahit banggit sa pangalan ng mga sangkot duon ay iniiwasan kung marinig. Sa pagkakataong ito alam kung napakahina ko. But this weakness make me open for people. It make me vulnerable in a good way.
Pilitin ko man, Noah will never be out of my system. He will forever stay in my heart at mukhang wala ng makakaalis sa kaniya duon. I know this is suffocating. Imagine holding on to someone who will never be able to hold you back. Pero ayukong lukuhin ang sarili ko. If I have to stay like this in order to survive, I will. Because I didn't think I can move forward anymore once I left Noah's memories behind.
Somehow, it made me think that- people can actually move on even without moving on from someone. It's okay to stay still with the memories, feelings and emotions without being stuck. You would just bring all those things in you but not as a baggage but as a reason. Right there, you unknowingly going on with life. Until you realize that you are moving freely with the flow. Pain still lingers indeed, but I think that is what makes us more even persistent.
My past has thought me this things since I had endured too much agony ever since I was just a kid. My families death bring me pain that sleeps within the bottom of my soul. And it made me lived with darkness and nightmares until I become use to it. But when Noah arrives, his jolliness, cheerful words and even such his presence ended the era of my suffering without renewing my bruises and wounds. He wipe my tear-stained cheeks, and I couldn't believe that I managed to get through it alive. I'm young, but I guess I survived the strongest storms and blows life threw with his help. Although it wasn't an easy journey, but I made it.
I owe everything to him. Without him I don't know how can I past with only self's thriving, I won't be here where I am right now. He made me faced the lessons in my life, which I was continuing till today. I am still learning what those instances had taught me. I am trying to be better and get better everyday. Rainy days are still coming, pain is just around the corner waiting its turn to finally show, but Noah rebuild me prepared and I can now manage how to deal with it, unlike how my past self had done. I no longer drown from too much hidden emotions and I let myself accept tears and sadness.
I want to fulfill my longest wish for my future self, which to be able reminisce things with tears of joys in my eyes-not with tears of heartache. That's why I am giving my best to make each day better, to make myself better each day. I deserve to be done with this life with a smile on my lips, a contented heart, a happy soul, and a peaceful mind.
This might be far from happy ending, but I would like to call it— a fortunate the end.