[Personally, this is... I think you did a little better.]
Kang Siwoo chose me without hesitation.
It seemed like an unknown light flashed in Lee Dokyung's eyes for a moment, but fortunately, he clearly admitted his defeat without saying anything.
[...I agree.]
[Thank you. I'll try my best!]
That's how it happened.
I just stepped forward with enthusiasm, but I really did it.
The main vocalist, a role I thought impossible.
Life is truly unpredictable.
"Gee... main vocals..."
I let out a short sigh and washed my face dry. To be honest, good things are good, but it is also true that I have a lot of worries....
It was a good mountain to climb at least once if you were aiming to be an all-rounder.
Well, I'm not saying I'm going to challenge other roles in the debut group.
I can't help it.
If you feel confident, just try. That was my view.
I carefully took out the lyrics I had analyzed and looked through them
Our team's final song selection was 'First Confession', a famous duet song by Yooyoung & Jin.
The characteristic of this song is that, except for the highlight chord part, there are no loud parts
"It's worth singing a high note. But there's a problem..."
The high note of the last chord part.
The key is how neatly and refreshingly this part is uploaded.
I have put in a lot of effort to create such vocalizations.
[Seohan, you have a good voice, so it's worth a try.]
[The high notes don't go up well, do they? The pitch is usually low, but is this selection worth raising?]
At that time, the highest note in the song that teacher Yoo Min-seo mentioned was 2nd C.
It was exactly the same vocal range as the highlight part of 'First Confession'. A vocal range that is still difficult to reach comfortably with my capabilities.
It was high even by the standard male vocal range, so of course it was difficult for me, who has a low voice.
However, I believed what Teacher Yoo Min-seo said.
I guess she told me that because they believed in me.
In my last life, I well... I eventually gave up and handed that part over to someone else.
"Of course, I have just to keep going. Don't back down Seohan."
I slapped my cheeks, cleared my throat, and turned on the recording app.
Since no one could give immediate feedback, I wanted to sing it and then check my voice.
The difference between hearing it with my own ears and listening to it recorded is bigger than I thought. There are often mistakes that you don't hear when you just listen to yourself, so practicing like this has become a habit since I was a trainee.
Click-
I opened my mouth when the song started playing on my phone.
~ ♫⋆｡♪ ₊˚♬ ﾟ.
The moment you came, this world stopped
I came to believe that this is love
Thinking that I would use a chest voice, I raised my voice as much as possible.
I received advice from Teacher Yoo Min-seo until the final competition...
I want to know
Everything about you
[Seohan, it sounds like you tend to burst when building up chords.]
So is this it?
"Ah-"
♫
"I want to––"
The most difficult part.
Of course, it was not easy to produce high notes in just one attempt. In order to sing the high note, which goes up to the pitch of 2nd Octive C, as cleanly and comfortably as possible, I needed the help of teacher Yoo Min-seo.
"Yet again."
She told me to spit out a high-pitched note as if I was throwing it.
When making high notes, you had to throw them forward in order to keep your vocalization as clean as possible. If you swallow it again to squeeze out the high notes, it can end up making a really frustrating sound.
I want to know
Everything about you
She was not one of the top vocal trainers in Korea for nothing, just recalling each of Yoo Min-seo's comments is of great help.
"Is it better than before?"
I muttered with a satisfied smile.
When I played the recorded part again, I felt a slight tremor in my vocalization, but overall, I had improved a lot compared to the first time I played it.
"I can do a few more hours tomorrow and try to do everything together."
At that moment, my voice was almost hoarse.
As with dance practice, vocal practice requires consideration of tomorrow's neck condition.
I gulped down some water and prepared to leave.
"Wow, my voice is scratchy..."
Mmmmm-
I came out of the practice room humming the melody of 'First Confession'.
Should I buy another can of cola on the way?
I paused.
"Why do you look at me like that? So fucking scary."
What?
At the sound of a clearly familiar voice, my steps instinctively stopped.
* * *
"Ugh..."
What was heard after was a deep sigh that made the earth tremble.
Where have I heard that voice before?
Wait... Lee Dokyung?
It was Kang Siwoo who sighed now...
I felt like it was a stormy situation, so I hid behind the door.
Kang Siwoo opened his mouth with a voice that was incomparably more harsh than during the meeting.
"I want to make one thing clear. I'm serious about this performance, and unlike you, it could be my last performance, so I'll do my best. So, let's just move on from this..."
"Hey."
What are you talking about?
My ears pricked up without realizing it due to the harsh atmosphere.
It's good that they won't be able to see me from here, but if this keeps up, I won't be able to pass through the hallway.
Regardless of whether the situation was uncomfortable or not, the two people, who had no way of knowing that I was there, started arguing in earnest.
A face that said he had already endured enough in the conference room.
Lee Dokyung, with a bitter smile, let out a soft scoff
"What a funny bastard you are"
"..."
"I know how to distinguish between public life and reality. You don't even smile in front of the camera. You're good at managing your facial expressions, you're completely rotten, aren't you?"
Lee Dokyung's mocking voice echoed through the quiet hallway.
He was the kind of person who could say something like that?
He was so different that I wondered if how this was the same guy as the one who usually smiled.
I muttered as I held my throbbing head.
"What's going on..."
It's true that there was an awkward atmosphere while we were having a meeting together,
But Kang Siwoo is awkward with everyone, so I just ignored it.
However, I was very mistaken.
Just by looking at what they were saying, it seemed like they were almost enemies.
I'm glad I didn't get on his bad side...
Did the two of them have beef during the first evaluation together?
My name suddenly popped out as I was frowning and lost in thought.
"Didn't you have biased feelings when you chose Seohan as the main vocalist?"
Why is it suddenly going in this direction?
Lee Dokyung seemed to be dissatisfied with the fact that Kang Siwoo made the final decision on the main vocalist.
"You just did worse."
What Kang Siwoo said is not wrong.
Because the vocals that Lee Dokyung presented were not very stable.
Lee Dokyung's expression became even more rotten due to Kang Siwoo's sharp tone.
"What?"
"You did worse. Anyone would agree. Even if teacher Minseo came, she never would've made you main vocalist."
"Hey, Kang Siwoo."
"It's a contest. I repeat, I have no intention of getting personal, but rather, I want you to cooperate."
Kang Siwoo's low voice spoke softly in a cold tone.
"Cooperate?"
"Don't stab me like last time."
I paused momentarily at that word, which is Junhyuk's trademark.
For some reason, instead of resolving in a positive direction, the conversation between the two seemed to be falling further and further into the labyrinth.
"Ah, that thing?"
Lee Dokyung laughed and accepted those words.
"Why? Are you still mad that I mentioned that to the producer?"
"It's not normal for someone to sell someone else's history just to get a bag. That's what you were trying to do."
"A good thing is a good thing, it will all be taken away anyway. It wasn't a bad idea to use this opportunity, right? Imagine if you ended up not being able to go on air because you were talking shit. Shouldn't you be grateful?"
Therefore...
To give a rough guess, Lee Dokyung spread Kang Siwoo's family history to the PD in order to boost popularity and create drama.
That almost got aired, but Kang Siwoo made a fuss, so it was covered up?
If that's true, wouldn't it have been filmed?
"..."
I wanted to know more about the details, but I didn't think any words would come out of Kang Siwoo's tightly closed mouth.
Above all, I'm likely to be seen if I go forward, so this is the end of the eavesdropping.
Someone else's family affair.
I'm really not curious about gossip..
But I need to find out what happened between the two.
"This is a mess."
The first priority was to successfully complete the contest.
* * *
Lee Dokyung is dissatisfied with his part assignment, and Kang Siwoo is hiding a secret family story.
While I was agonizing over the chaos of the group evaluation, which I thought would be smooth, heavy snow was falling from the sky.
"Kyaa! It's snowing!"
Seo Haim was running around like a puppy seeing snow for the first time.
Having a blast with the windows wide open on this cold winter day.
"Do Seohan! Would you like to go outside and build a snowman with me?"
"...It's cold."
"I know! It's so romantic~!"
Ha Junseo slowly nodded his head at Seo Haim's words.
"It's romantic... I get emotional just by looking at the streetlights on a snowy day."
"My Hyung is naturally emotional. All 365 days, even in summer."
Jin Sehyun clicked his tongue and threw a fastball.
Seo Haim and Ha Junseo were smiling.
Unlike the other two, Jin Sehyun's eyes showed a lot of fatigue. Since he stayed up most of the night to practice for the second evaluation, he didn't even have time to go out and roll his eyes.
Jin Sehyun glanced at me and asked.
"Do you like snow too?"
"Well. It looks like beautiful trash."
"...!"
Seo Haim became a big-eyed puppy at my bombshell remark.
"...How could you say such harsh words...!?"
What is with that shocked expression?
I felt sorry because I felt like something had destroyed his childhood innocence.
But it's true.
"When it snows... I have to clean it up like trash... . If you clean it up, it' will come back.. If you don't clean it up, it will freeze... If I clean it up, I freeze, wouldn't it be difficult for me?"
"The main vocalist has to be full of many emotions. So why are you being so realistic?"
"You will find out when you enlist."
Seo Haim was startled by my words and turned to Ha Junseo.
"Hyung, what do you think of the youngest's remark?"
"There's nothing Seohan won't say."
This is unfair. I've already been through it once!
"Tsk."
Ha Junseo sipped his bitter americano and clicked his tongue.
"You act like you're old."
"Admit it. Junseo, a shovel will suddenly appear in front of your eyes. You'll have to get to work to make sure your drive way doesn't freeze."
"Haim, you should not condemn your Hyung like that."
A 20-year-old makes such a statement...?
"If you're really old, you won't be able to drink caffeine like that."
While people who are all strangers are competing to see who is older,
Anxious thoughts passed through my mind.
Oh crap.
"But I have to go again...?"
"Eh?"
I forgot this.
I'm about to turn eighteen, so I have quite a bit left... No, but....
"Sorry. I suddenly started thinking about other things and became distraught."
"It's your first time doing vocals, so you can't help but be nervous. I mean, there is a midterm evaluation tomorrow."
It's not like that.
Instead of correcting what my Hyungs said, I sighed and admitted.
"I'm so nervous about the midterm evaluation. Haha..."
"You'll be okay."
The snow fell beautifully.
Damn it.
"Beautiful trash."