Just dropping by to put this one. So it will have a not too frustrating end but I am upset with this story so I don't know when I'll finish it for real, I apologise. Thank you for everyone who sticked around all this time.
If you want to read my current fics, go on AO3 instead, thank you.
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Deku and I had sex. I don't know how many times already. There was the first time when he came to my room, and... when I came to his room and where we did it... How many times...? Three ? Maybe more. I don't remember very much except the fact that my back, thighs and butt hurt so fucking much in the morning. And probably his too.
Fuck. He overdid it this shitty nerd !!! That's not because I have muscles and that I'm pretty flexible that he could push me like this.
...
...
Well it's not like I hated that either.
I gulp.
What should we do now ? It's already been three days. We talk casually, and we aren't much more angry at each other like we used to be. ... It's even the opposite. We are calm around each other. Is it because of what we did ??? I don't understand fuck.
Maybe I should talk to him again.
No wait, I'll go and ask shitty hair first.
I get up from my bed and go right away to his room. I knock once and enter directly.
- Oi, Shitty hair !!
I froze, noticing that Dunce face is here too. They are weirdly sitting beside each other, holding some tablet with a movie on the screen.
... I look at both of them, like some thieves caught in the act.
... Those idiots are all flustered. It's not like I caught them doing dirty stuff damn.
Anyway.
I walk to the chair like nothing and sit down on it, my elbows on the backrest. I look at Shitty hair right in the eyes. He seems awfully confused and embarrassed, this asshole.
- ....B-Bakugou...?
- ...Can I talk to you ?
- Huh? Oh yeah. Of course!!
He shut the movie and tablet before giving me all of his attention.
Out of the blue, I just ask :
- ... Have you ever experienced sex desire ?
I see them looking at each other kind of surprised. Pfff. Those idiots.
- ...Well yeah.
Both of them huh. Why am I not even surprised...? I sigh, take my time to ask something... clear as possible.
- ... And what about a desire you can't get away from ? Like... you can't think about anything else...?
I see Kirishima looking at me with deep concern. I look down. Don't blush fucker. He can't learn a thing about what you do with Deku !!!!
- ...Well, if you can do it, then huh... do it again maybe ? Like, to be sure about what you think of it ? 'Cuz maybe... well you might be in love...?
I clench my fists together, grip my teeth. Is he serious...? That's not the answer I wanted to hear. ... ... ... Not at all...
Silence.
I stand up.
- ...I see. Thanks.
I start to walk away but stop after some steps and come back to look at them.
- ...Both of you are so bad at faking you are not a thing...!
I grin and get out, ignoring them trying to make an excuse.
...
No need to take more time to think about it right now because-
Hm.
Yes.
It's time to talk to Deku I guess.
Deku's p.o.v
In my room, a little upset at being kind-of avoided by Kacchan, I started to randomly jerk off at night, looking at some of his pictures I have. Well, he is not really ignoring me, we are talking without a problem but... That's not the point !!! I'm sure he is kind-of angry at me and he searches for a way to make me pay for what I have done to him. Like... How is it even possible that Kacchan, the GREAT KACCHAN could be topped by... ... ... ... ... Me ? ... And not only once, but a few times ?
I make a face, frowning my eyebrows. Fuck. He is really beautiful. And his smell, voice, I- ....
Damn... if only-
My door opens suddenly and I put my pants on in a hurry, locking up my phone. I forgot to lock my door argh !!!! I meet Kacchan's gaze.
Argh the real one is here now ?!?!
I gulp, red.
-...Were you jerking off?
I look away, culprit as much as what I was doing.
-N-no-...
-...Liar. You were.
I don't answer. My cheeks are red enough to let him know how guilty I am anyway.
Silently, he comes sit down on the edge of my bed. I sit too trying to calm myself down.
-...I came to talk.
-...O-oh.
My whole body is shivering. Time has come. He will know throw all his anger at me, tell me how disgusting I am and all.
I gulp, feeling tense and anxious.
Kacchan's p.o.v
I take a deep breathe before sighing and asking straight :
-...Do you regret what we have done ?
- Huh ? No. Not at all. Do you ?
I can hear and feel how stressed and sincere he is. I take a deep inspiration and look at him.
- Want to do it again ?
My heart is pounding faster. My palms get even more sweaty. Waiting for an answer.
-... If Kacchan allows me to, yes.
I gulp. This guy... seriously.
-... Then let's keep this relationship up, let's do it everytime we need or want to.
-... R-really ?
I look at him upset. He is really so stupid, I can't handle it. Why does it have to be him ?? Pff.
-...Don't make me repeat it idiot !! Tch. I'm going to bed now.
I stand up but he restrains me by the hand.
-... Y-you can stay if you want...Kacchan.
I look at him, this perverted brat !!!!
I redden a little. Well, I guess, there will be times like that between us too... I say, shyly.
-... You want to do it ?
The Deku I know, grown up. But it's not like I didn't. We can jerk off together after all. It's not like there is feeling or else, ... I guess. ... Well, at least not yet.
...
Gently, we did it again. But I realise that we never kiss. If we were with the older version of each other, ... right now, then maybe we-... but we aren't. We aren't with the other one. Right now it's just Deku and I, our foreheads touching. It's just us, the growing-up heroes.
Yeah.
It's like we aren't allowed to kiss each other. Kisses are nothing. But still, it's like it's too early for us. Too damn early.
But you know what ? Fuck off. It's not like we can't take our time. At the moment, doing it with him is enough for me. And I guess it is for him too. We don't need more than that between us. We are each other's rope to reality now. Even if it's nothing more than stress releasing. Than a ghost feeling to try to understand what the older us feels... It's still about us. About our very own relationship. Our issues. Our feelings. I guess it's like that.
And at some point, we will sort that out. Everything.