Story Unfolds :
At a small house: At the outskirt of Hastinapur:
From the Point of view of Karna:
He stood lifelessly before her. His own wife who had disowned him once. His Devi!!! He did not know his fault then. He did not understand his mistake at this moment too. That day she took his permission to go to her father. She went there. But did not come back to him again!! He waited patiently for her arrival. For the fortnight. He even thought to write a letter to his father-in-law King Chitrangad but did not do it bashfully. What would he think?!! A husband so impatient that he could not leave without his wife?!!! That also a second one!!! For the first wife One could seem impatient but for a second one none could be like this!!! People would laugh on him. He would become a laughing matter to all. His honor would be doomed!! So he had to suppress his urge to write down a letter to Supriya's father.
But after midnight when she did not came back he became impatient. He did not understand how significant the was in his life. He underestimated her importance in his life!! She was like heart beat to him!!! People forgot to count it but when it stopped then only they understood it's importance. She was like that to him!! She had to roam around him. She looked at him from far. She noticed every single thing about him. She took care of him. But from distance. His clothes. His foods. His shoes. His armors. His bow and arrows. His relationship with his family. Everything was taken care by her from distance. She gone!! His life became suddenly empty!! None was there to look at him from far. None was there to follow him like a shadow. None was there to keep his things in proper place. None was there to think of his whereabouts. Padma tried hard but she was a queen!!! A queen had many more responsibilities!!! Than just being a good wife!!! Supriya was just his wife!!! She was never a queen. Just a Karna Sangini. So it was easy to manage by her, not by her Jiji.
Till then he looked desperately for her everywhere. In her empty room. In her clay made idols. In her balcony. In her kitchen. In Vrish's room. But she was gone. So also her traces!! She left nothing behind herself!! He searched for her sign. He did not found any!! So he took the idols. In his temple. Since then he whenever got up at the dawn time he roamed around her room. He looked at the teak tree from where she peeped towards him and watched him to pay tribute to Sun God!! He had followed the same road every day where she hid herself to watch him and then sat down to touch his dust of feet. He had passed through the same balcony where he had once passed out and she ran to him. When he sat down on the throne his eyes searched desperately for her face. Among his masses. She loved to stand between his masses. As a simpleton. His doe shaped hazel eyes searched her big eyes. Full of pride and joy!! That girl!! Always so proud and happy for him!!! Just to steal a single glance of him!!
In those six years he tried hard to forget her. He could not. It seemed so impossible. She became his life line!! She was passing on his blood!!! She was like his heart beat!!! It could not be stopped!! For a single day he could not forget her. Her smile. Her eyes. Her divine smile. Her touching his feet. She was his devotee!!! And she had captivated his heart!! He became her slave or Daas!!! Every night he had the same dream. She was living him alone!! He got up immediately and had gasped in utter shock. Every single night. He loved Padmavati but he worshipped Supriya!!! Padma was his Sakhi!!! Supriya was his Devi!!! Both were important to him!!
When he got the letter from her he was ecstatic in joy. He thought she was coming back. To him!! But no!! She had another plan!!! Why she had insisted bot to come to him?!! What was his fault?!! Did not he loved her wholeheartedly?!! Then why?!!
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From the point of view of Supriya:
She had to talk to him gently. She had the knowledge that he would be hurt by her decision. She had seen hope in his eyes. She had understood that he came back to her. Just to her!! But she was not ready to go with him!! She did not want to break the marital bliss of her Goddess!!! She had witnessed love in his eyes!!! It was a sin!! He did never fall in love with her!! She was a devotee to him!!! Not his wife!! But she had became his weakness!! She did not want to run away from him!! But she did not want him to know of the existence of Chitra in her womb!! She thought he would give her the position of his wife!!! For the sake of his son!! But that position was of his wife's!!! Not her!! So she hid all about her pregnancy!! She snatched away a father from his son!! She performed a sin!! First by taking away a husband from a wife!! Then a son from his own father!!! She was a sinner!!! She had no right to be happy in her life!! No. Never ever. She had to repent alone. She had to repent hard. She had to live her alone life in poverty. She had no right to be happy. Yet she wanted to keep her tired head on his chest!! She wanted to tell him how much she loved him!!! She wanted to hug him!! But she could not!! There was a big barrier in between them. Padmavati. Her Jiji. Her Goddess!! For whom she would sacrifice everything!!! She had and she would!!! (For Her this love and devotion to Padma, the story of Vrishaketu would began soon. In the next three years.)
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Story Unfolds:
Karna stood motionless. In front of his Devi!!! He suddenly felt no urge to live more. He felt dejected and dead. His Devi refuted him!!! Once again!!! A small smile escaped his lips. He was laughing on himself!! On his fate!! God?!! What he thought?!! And what was happening now?!!
"Hamara sath hi aisa kyun hota hain Madhava?!! Kyun baba ke bad yeah bhi hamara tyag karna chahti hain?!! Kya hamara Prem main koi kami reh gayi thi?!! (Why it happens frequently just with me, Lord Krishna?!! Why it happened to me?!! After Baba why she is rejecting me too?!! Don't I love her enough?!!)" He asked to his deity in mind.
"Bhagwan banana saral nahin hota, bade Bhaiya. (To be a God is not an easy task, big brother.)" Lord Krishna promptly answered in his mind
"Main toh keval ek manushya banana chahta tha. Ek achha Putra. Ek uttam Pati. Aur kuch bhi nahin. (But I never ever dreamt to be a God. I just wants to be a mere human being. A good son. And a loyal husband. Nothing more than that.)" His voice choked up. His eyes got teary instantly. His own Adam's apple moved upwards. In the front attempt to contol his emotions.
Karna (Hero of our story)
Supriya looked at his face in disbelief. She expected him angry. Not that amount heart broken. Her heart ached tremendously for him. What was she doing?!! Did not she know that she was hurting his side heart?! How could she do that?!! She should die before doing that?!! But she had no other choice left!!!! She had to break his heart!!! Unless he would not hate her!! Unless he would never go beyond and be happy in his life!! She was a bad phrase in his life!!! He had to forget her!!! Alas!!! This foolish girl!! She did not have the knowledge that Karna could never forget her nor forgive her!!! He loved her!! He lived for her!! He would die with her too!!
Her devotion melted his deity's heart too!!!!
"Keval ek prashna ka uttar dijiye ki hamara dosh kiya hain?!!! (Just try to answer my only one question what is my fault?!!)" He asked her calmly.
Supriya bit her lips. In indecision. She had no answer!!! It was her fault that she seduced him. Not his fault. A bit. She was a sinner, not him!! You could see how gullible this girl was!!
Devi Supriya (Karna's Devi)
"Dosh mere bhagya ki hain, Swami. (It is not your fault. The fault is of my fate, my dear husband.)" She replied to him meekly. While holding back her tears.
He lifted his eyes towards her face. Then touched her cheeks. To wipe her tears.
She cried aloud. She did not expect that from him. She thought he would be angry on her!! He would leave her at once!!! Instead he was wiping her tears!!! When his own eyes were full of tears now!! She could not control herself anymore and put her head in his chest. He hugged her tightly. Then he closed his eyes slowly. A single drop of tear emerged from his left eye. He wanted to cherish the moment. Forever. In his heart!!!!!!
They both had cried in unison. Their mouth were silent. Yet eyes talked too much on that day!!! None of them wanted to stay away from each other!!
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The best day: At the same house:
She bade farewell to all of her sons. She did not want to break the young hearts of Shatru, Dip and Bana. So she hid the truth from them that she was sending them away. But she told it to Satya and Chitra. She knew that those boys could handle themselves.
"Apna aur bhaiyo ke khayal rakhna. Unke raksha karna. Pitashree ke dhal banna. Badi maa ki Garv. Aur Bhrata Vriahasen ki raksha kavach. (Take good care of yourself and your young brothers. Be loyal to father. Be pride of your elder Mother. And be the body guard of your elder brother.)" She told while kissing each boy's forehead and hugging them tightly. Her motherly heart ached tremendously. She was not ready to let them go!! They did not live without her!! In their small lives!! She knew that her dear Jiji would take good care of them but as a mother she was crying fanatically.
"Ham pran lete hain, Maiya. (We all promise that for you, Mother.)" Those boys kept their promises. Before their deaths none could be able to touch a single hair of their Vrish bhaiya.
Then they got up on the chariot. In unison. By touching her feet. She had waved her hands to them. Then she tried to touch his feet. But to her own dismay he held it tightly. As if he was requesting Her not to live him alone. The chariot started to ride. He did not open his fist. She had to run behind it. He was still holding her hand.
"Jane toh do!!! (Let me go!!)" She had insisted again.
But he was not ready to let her go. He was persistent!!!! His own heart was bleeding profusely!!! He thought that he was losing her!!! Forever!!!
The chariot started to ride with force. His fist was too tight!! But with a jolt she broke his grip. Unless he would not let her to go!!! She had to even run behind him!!! The chariot started to roll on!!! And it disappeared in the horizon!!! Within a minute!!!
She had then fell down on the floor clutching her heart. Limply. Then she cried her heart out. Her God had left her!!!! Her husband was now gone!!!! Once again!!!! She made a picture of him. On the floor!!! Then she touched it's cheeks. As if she was touching someone!! She did not know that a person also felt her touch on his own cheeks!!! At the same moment!!
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Now what will happen to Supriya? Will she get a chance to meet with her husband Karna and her sons once more? The answers will be given in the next chapters. Enjoy.
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