Dean had his car keys in his hands. He just left Benny's Halloween party.
Why was he so goddamn stupid.
He shouldn't have listened to Charlie and much less shouldn't have sent that text to Cas. They wouldn't even read it before the next morning.
What if Cas freaks out and Dean ruins their whole friendship with those three stupid words.
"I love you."
This whole situation was such a disaster.
Dean could say that he was just drunk and didn't mean to send it to Cas but he knew him to well for that lie.
He was still standing outside the Impala, loosing his mind and debating whether he should just drive home or not.
But what if Charlie was right. What if Cas likes him back?
Is it purely platonic that they call him almost every night and then they end up talking for hours?
On the other hand, if he's reading it all wrong then he would rather just die than having to face Cas.
Maybe he's just making it all up and all it is is wishfull thinking on his side.