🍒·˚ ༘ ┊͙CHAPTER 011 ! ˊˎ
coffee dates
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viviennerosee healing over pass me the weed🫀
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matthew.sturniolo who took that picture what the fuck🤔
↳ dylandiazz oopsies i did 🤗
↳ matthew.sturniolo WHY?? you can't even see my face
↳ dylandiazz i don't see the issue.. 😁
user OMG?? HER AND CHRIS COMEBACK
user COUPLE OF THE YEAR 🩷🩷
user NEW MUSIC COMING ‼️‼️
nicholassturniolo we look so good in that picture wtf
↳ viviennerosee i have the copy i'll give it to you
↳ nicholassturniolo no?? 🤨🤨it's going on your wall
madisonbeer MY BABY👩❤️💋👩
↳ viviennerosee OMG MOMMY GF👩❤️💋👩👩❤️💋👩
↳ madisonbeer NO I CANT STOP LAUGHING ABOUT FUCKING CHRIS FALLING😁
user THEY ALL HUNG OUT??
oliviarodrigo nice to hang without christopher being an opp😴
↳ viviennerosee he still is wdym??🤔
↳ christophersturniolo STOP LYING ON MY NAME ‼️
dylandiazz next goal is to smoke a bowl with matt🙏🏽
↳ matthew.sturniolo WTF??
diego.martinez dope ass hangout🧛🏻♀️
↳ dylandiazz you literally were with me the whole time wdym 😒
↳ diego.martinez don't see the issue? 🤨
christophersturniolo make me pasta again🫵
↳ user WHOAAA ITS 2023 CHRIS STOP TELLING HER TO GO BACK TO THE KITCHEN🚩🚩🚩
↳ viviennerosee WHOAAAA 🚩🚩🚩🚩
sabrinacarpenter nick and chris killed my eardrums this is harassment and abuse you WILL be hearing from my lawyer 😇
↳ nicholassturniolo HELLO???
↳ christophersturniolo i don't got money like that.. nick has the bill covered😁
↳ nicholassturniolo HUH?? NO?? 😀😀
user why did she forgive him so quickly? girl did he not leave you for someone else??🤨
user desperate ass going for his brother😒
user didn't she break up chris and estella 🫣 couldn't be me tbh
༄✧ *:･VIVIENNE
"okay, cut the shit are you okay?" sabrina asked me, placing my coffee down in front of me, today was the third saturday of the month, which has come to be known as 'coffee date saturday'
"what are you talking about" i asked before taking a sip of my beautiful and favorite coffee order. "you and chris being friends again? i could see it on your face when we hung out viv, your not over it"
i laughed— very nervously. "what are you talking about?" i asked again, nervous laughter coming out with every word
"your not over what happened— the breakup? you don't have to lie and say your good, viv. you are allowed to be pissed and hurt." she disapproved. the look on her face was different though, unlike her sharp tone her eyes were soft, and worried
"it's just.. weird" i mumbled, staring down into my cup "look at me." she commanded, earning an immediate response
my eyes once again met hers "you are allowed to be pissed at him. you were hurt, and he needs to understand that you just accepting him back into your life doesn't mean that it's all peaches and rainbows" she reminded me sternly
it had been five days since chris went over to my house and said he still loved me. it had been five days since i told him i still loved him, but couldn't be with him.
then yesterday, dylan invited all of us out to a small hangout with diego and his friends.
it was emotional rollercoaster and then party and then a day off where i was in the studio all day. now today.
i wanted to keep busy. i didn't want to stop and think about chris and i, but deep down i know i have to.
"he texts me as if nothing happened- like it's the same it was 2 years ago! and i know nick and matt have nothing to do with it but a part of me is pissed at them too? is that stupid?" i finally confessed.
"i knew something was locked behind those eyes"
"you sound like liv" i nagged, even though she was right "well she says it for a reason"
"you could tell something was off? was it obvious?" she shrugged in response
"maybe it's cause i've seen you when your comfortable— and sure you acted comfortable but you didn't talk at all viv, you were quiet and like standoffish? do they know.. about?" she hinted at my moms passing, and i shook my head.
i shrugged. it still felt weird with them there, they didn't know anything that had happened to me in the last two years
they weren't caught up about boyfriends or my music, my family.
nick had seen from a distance on my spam, but matt or chris hadn't asked about anything at all. it's been five days and i had already called their mom and dad, AND seen tervor on facetime.
"i'm sorry if bringing it up made you upset" i was snapped out of my thoughts by sabrina "what?" i asked
"you just got quiet, you look lost in thought, that's all" she gave me a short smile "no, i need to think about this stuff.. your right, i'm not over it" i admitted
"tell him that" she urged on, drinking her coffee "he needs to know why we all strongly dislike him"
i laughed— she was once again right. after we all hung out, chris texted and asked why all of my friends were so defensive towards him but not his brothers.
he really was stupid sometimes, how could i miss him?
"it's so embarrassing, missing someone this much and then them coming back into your life like nothing happened" i groaned out, leaning my head back in frustration "tell me about it"
the rest of the coffee date was well needed. like a very long overdue therapy session.
i kissed sabrina on the cheek before we walked our separate ways, her walking to her car and me walking to mine.
my mind once again wandered back to him, his smile, his laugh. he was my first love and he wanted to be my last— but so much pain was left
i was so focused on my inner thoughts about him i didn't realize the group of teenage girls heading straight towards me
and once again— like the job no one wanted at work. i smiled and took pictures
"are you and chris really back together?" one of them asked, she was taller than i was, long legs and red hair like someone in a movie
"no, we aren't" i laughed nervously "i just missed his brothers"
liar, you missed him too.
"well if you do get back together good for y'all— him and that other girl didn't make sense" another one added, brunette, tanned skin and large blue eyes
i looked down at my watch "oh shit, im so sorry guys i'm late to a meeting"
LIARRR. i yelled at myself internally. my social anxiety crept up and blurted out the words before i could process the thought.
"oh! sorry for keeping you! have a good day!" i hugged them all once again and got into my car, sitting at the wheel, hot tears filling my eyes
"why am i crying what the fuck" i cursed, fanning myself so i wouldn't ruin my makeup
"god why does this always happen? i'm not even sad!" i told myself— trying to stop the tears from coming out, but my frustration only made it worse
i blinked them away as i started the engine. the music starting as i pulled out of the parking lot and merged into the street
i laughed softly as i realized what song played— of course it was this song, my song.
favorite crime.
Know that I loved you so bad
I let you treat me like that
I was your willing accomplice, honey
somehow, hearing my own song made my eyes dry. calming me down as i continued to drive home.
the song helped snap me back— we are friends. if chris and i were meant for each other then we would have been together.
right person wrong time doesn't exist.
And I watched as you fled the scene
Doe-eyed as you buried me
One heart broke, four hands bloody
Those things I did
Just so I could call you mine
The things you did
Well, I hope I was your favorite crime
it couldn't exist. not here, not in any timeline. i was stupid before to think that we were in love in another universe
i had to stop loving him— he had to understand if i did, i can lie. say that i did stop loving him
my heart began to hurt, even thinking about forgetting chris and erasing him from my mind put me in pain.
You used me as an alibi
I crossed my heart as you crossed the line
And I defended you to all my friends
And now, every time a siren sounds
I wonder if you're around
'Cause you know that I'd do it all again
All the things I did
Just so I could call you mine
The things you did
Well, I hope I was your favorite crime
my hands gripped the steering wheel harder as i kept driving,
"i need a fucking cigarette" i sighed, looking at the car in front of me. everything reminded me of him, of them. nick, matt, chris, sometimes my mom. and i hated it.
thinking about the pain he put me through reminded me of the pain that i went through with everything else that's happened, my mom, the albums, everyone.
It's bittersweet to think about the damage that we do Cause I was going down, but I was doing it with you Yeah, everything we broke, and all the trouble that we made But I say that I hate you with a smile on my face
Oh, look what we became
All the things I did
Just so I could call you mine
All the things you did
Well, I hope I was your favorite crime
Your favorite crime
Your favorite crime
'Cause baby, you were mine
i decided right then and there that i would forget about him. i won't allow myself to be hurt again, not by that magnitude.
i can be friends with chris, but we can't be together.. not again. so i did the same thing i did when me and chris first broke up
i started stalking cee again.