Izzys pov:
As i walk up too my bedroom, I feel killian's presence behind me still
I roll my eyes at his presence
I go inside the room and ignore him completely while going too get dressed for bed
I go to the closet choosing out a pair of pajamas, I choose some silk short ones in light pink
Combing through my hair and removing my makeup
All of it.
Scars on display for everyone to see
I take a deep breath before exiting the closet too the main part of the bedroom
I see killian sitting on chair with his phone in hand in a man spread position
I am so turned on
I roll my eyes at myself and my stupid thought
He sees me and groans at the sight I just stand there staring for some reason
I slowly make my way onto the bed.
Sitting to under the covers
He sees the scars and frowns
He think their ugly
I'm disgusting
"Your so gorgeous" he said as he crawls closer too me and ends up right infront of me
"oh" i gasp
He gets closer and closer his lips hovering above mine
"why won't you just be mine" he muttered in a grunt
"it doesn't feel right" i mutter back at him as his lips connect with mine in a slow motion
Which soon turns into a fast, passionate and strong motion
I don't stop him, in fact I after a moment kiss back
Why? I don't know but I do it
"i crave you, I will protect you, why don't you want me back?" he grumbles into the kiss.
"this side of life scares me" i whisper into the kiss and then turn away from him
He groans as he climb on top of me straddling me, I try too move away even if I like it but he doesn't let me
His hand goes up my side, then my collar bone and then my cheek, my bottom lip and then it leaves my face
I shiver at his touch
"you don't realise how much all the men in this house care about you and summer" he says still straddling me
"i can't realise it if I can't believe it every man I've ever had an interaction with has hurt me" i say look down he grabs my chin in a tight grip forcing me too look at him
"we don't hurt innocents and no matter what you are innocent" he says and i then move too get him off but this time it makes him groan
"killian!" i scowl at him
He chuckles
"you isabella, you are gonna be my life, my oxygen, my everything" he says as he gets off me and goes too get ready for bed
Leaving me in denial
They say they love me
So did leo
They say they won't hurt me
So did carter
He says he cares
Summer and skye are the only ones that ever stuck to that
Are his words lies? Should I trust him? I really do not know, he acts kind to me like no other but he can also get extremely angry
Anger only leads too violence
Violence only leads too hurt
I feel like I'm finally going insane
The voices I have started too hear make me feel insane.
I look up seeing killian shirtless in some joggars staring at me, leaving me breathless
"like it,huh?" he says smugly in pride
I ignore him laying down staring at the celling and i feel him soon get in the bed beside me
He grabs my waist pulling me close too him and his arms wrap themselves around my waist
No one ever hugged me like that
Held me like this.
I don't even move I just tense up, stiff as fuck
"you can relax, I'm not going too hurt or touch you, just hold you, it'll help you sleep and it'll help me too, for your protection" he reassures me pulling me closer my head now lay against his chest as i turn too look at him having to lift my head slightly
Dang tall guy
His chest warm and smooth as i place my hand beside my head he smirks as i look up.
"La mia bella ragazza" he says in Italian (my beautiful girl)
"you seem too forget i understand Italian, Sig. Bianchi" i say with a laugh (mr Bianchi)
"no sweetheart, Voglio che tu capisca" he says back half in Italian aswell again (i want you too understand)
"hmm" i hum in amusement
His girl
I shouldn't like that
But i do.
Summer's pov:
Walking too the bedroom that belongs too luca after izzy had her moment
I am so worried
I need too sleep
I need to calm
Luca follows behind me, I don't react
I don't even have too get ready cause I got ready before all that
I sit on the bed as luca stares at me as if he's in a trance, what is his problem?!
"what else to you hide summer?" he asks but it's as if he thought it and wasn't meant too say it
"that's for me to know and you too discover" i mumble as he walks over too me
"let me discover it then" he says as he sits besides me and pulls me so I'm leaning against him my head against his chest
"what's the point, you know the worst of it" i mumble feeling numb as always
Difference is I think my body's telling me too feel instead of it's normal thoughts telling me too go numb
Strange
"so there is more" he says and i just stay silent not knowing how to reply
I don't even know
It's only another abuse story
I susvived it
It doesn't matter that much
I've been through worse
Carter and Leo were worse
They made Eric's and Tracy's abuse look like nothing, they made there place look like heaven
Or is that just what I've made myself believe
Eric and Tracy are the reason, I didn't socialise anymore because they ruined my last of hope for me
They really made me think they were different
They weren't
That broke me
So maybe they are important to my story
I don't know
I just sat there leaning in Lucas chest and eventually he pulls us down laying down together my top half lay on his body
I actually feel relax
"you can trust me, please trust me, I will protect you with my heart, soul and body" he desperately says
"they all said something like that but all seemed too turn out the same" i say too gin in low voice
"i'm different, we're different" he said as he hold me tighter and closer
"you are mine too protect and i will protect you from anything" he mutters "you might but who can protect me from my mind" i say alittle louder and stronger this time
"i can help with that too, I can ease your mind if you let me" he said with a hint of lo-
No no
Couldn't be
I'm imagining it
He doesn't love me
"i do" he says, did i say that out loud?
WAIT
HE DOES?
"what?" i say in pure utter shock, love? Love form someone who isn't izzy is new too me
People don't care about me
I'm a nobody
"i love you summer you may not accept that but I do, my every thought ever since we met had been about you" he explains further
"love?" i question in suprise
"yes love" he says I turn too him and he leans in giving me a peck on the lips, sweet but passionately
Love
Huh..
I'm sure there are so many pretty girls who would easily want him, why me?
I'm nothing special
Am i?
I just stare at him while he stares at me
"sleep Mi belleza" he half demands me in Spanish (my beauty)
His
His
His
Wait his??!
"night gorgeous" he says as he just keeps staring even if he's tired
"night luca" i say nervously
Nervous?
Strange
I close my eyes after a minute of that thought running through my head
What a long day it has been.
Lets see what happens tomorrow
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How do we like it?
Slightly shorter chapter as i wanna start the next on a new day or something yk
Anywho thought?
Love you all lots ❤️❤️