I know ive been abent for a lot of time some of you missed me some of you did not but that is okay cuz im here back again.
i have seen all the nice comments and I really apricciate your support i've never had an audience like you i also made a few friends on here!
although theres a few things i still didnt tell you...
so all this writing, posting, interacting and making online friends was NOT allowed!! thats right, I never asked for permission to post on Social media (except instagram) and this has all been a little secret between you and me. thats why I asked you not to interact on the announcement i posted recently on SrpskiSneshko bc thats my father's device now and he still has access to anything ive written or posted and any of my accounts, since I needed to log back in to be able to post it at the first place.
I shouldnt have come here at the first place. now I have to end everything maybe leaving some people without what they came here for. I have been very irresponsible and I have been a bad person all this time. Forgive me, please, as I will never be able to forgive MYself.
I still have mixed feelings of every time I posted something, wether it would be on twitter, wattpad, tiktok, youtube and even snapchat because it still made alot of nice memories of friends and the community i built over the time. Yes, as I said i once had an audience of 4500+ followers on twitter. tho it wasnt very great, specificly because of the way i acted, the things i liked at the time, the amount of personal information i leaked. It was so bad it was leaked in dangerous amounts such as almost sharing my adress, names of my family members and the school i go to, the city i live in....
but its the best to start from the very beggining.
March, 2022. when i started an account on twitter. i decided to start posting. Soon i had around 25 followers. i was so happy i decided that I will be leaking my VOICE on 40 FOLLOWS. Thats when a stranger posted a reply on my tweet saying ,, Im so proud of you. Im your mother now" and thats when I met my 1st online friend. Lets call her Jess. soon jess and I started an online family. I dont want to talk much about it but you know how bad it can get. I met more unfamilliar people and became friends who just came and left friom time to time.
soon my popularity grew and It was just getting to my head more and more. it was also more dangerous since anyone of those people could have been a spy, a pedophile or much worse.
I didnt know for religion. As a child i was tought that being homosexual was a sin. i didnt think much about it at the time. I was also told not to talk to strangers on the internet and not to post. I broke all the rules. I was influenced by the wrong people, at the wrong time. But by time as I gained expirience i got closer to my roots, religion and I regreted it all.
I decided to make a big desision. by end of the summer, thats when I quit. life was starting to be better. i was alot happier without even noticing that I wasnt as happy before. It was all great. All that until the 13th of January, somewhere around Serbian orthodox new year, when I opened an account on wattpad. The next thing you know I was posting regularly. Sharing the same amounts of personal info as I did back then. and you know the rest.
thats why I quit. its hard to get rid of some of the people you met, the memories you made and the things you like doing. But it was a bad thing for me. it is better this way. soon after i quit wattpad i broke the contact with Jess - who ive been with for more than a year. ive seen her grow up with me. but it was wrong.
I knew i would come back to it later or sooner. but now that ive let this off my chest i can live peacefully.
now that you know my story containing so much more detail, you wouldnt keep searching for me anymore, no matter how much we have become close. I still need to leave. If you want say the final goodbye, to tell me something you never had the chance to ot just interact with me in any way, leave a reply.
im scared that I might come back before im allowed to. i will make sure that doesnt happen. if it does, you wont know it is me.
i will still be active on wattpad, for some time.
this hits hard but hey, if thats what I must do let it be like that.
my final message to you is youre enough. You are worth or life. of beautiful things. of happines. dont let anything get to you. as a person who has been in a low point in life, we all will be too. sooner or later. it must be that way. Just dont give up on yourself. please stay strong.
Greetings with much love,
Tasha.
September 27th, 2023.