Isabella's pov:
I feel sick
I feel lost
I feel confused
I hate this, my family! That's bad enough but finding out they are friends of my kidnapper and also the English mafia
I'm kinda... Scared
I've not felt like this since skye...
Nevermind you get the point
It's been awhile
I'm laying on the bed that does not belong to me but instead belongs too the devil aka killian
I just wanna scream
Don't get me wrong, I want a family
But not this, not this family, not at this time, not in this prison, I wanted a healthy normal family
Not my kidnappers besties
Aghh
They're gonna call me down for dinner soon, I'm going too have to eat
I don't want to i feel as if I eat I'd just throw it all back up
As that thought invades my mind a light knock at the door reaches my ears, I don't say anything so they just walk in
It's summer
"i don't know what to do" is the first thing she says
"how do we react? Am I meant to be happy?" i ask her knowing she can't answer them herself
"i don't know" she mumbles laying next too me and for a moment it feels as if we were back home
The most home we ever got
They took it from us
The two men that claim to love us
The men that we just found out to be our brothers
They took it from us, ironic I know, our family
Our father
We just sit there in silence, just sitting together with her is enough too calm me down a good bit
I want too burn them down
I want too hug them aswell
That's messed up, isn't it?
A knock plays at the door, we both ignore it, savering the moment, then he walks in, Alexander
I've not cried since.. she died but I've built up everything too the point I want too cry, I want too scream, I want too sob my heart out
Everythings gotten too much
"Innamorati, dinners ready" he mumble not daring too look up
"hmm" i hum too let him know i heard it and we'll be down there, he waits
Motherfucker
I give up waiting for him too leave and get up followed by summer, keeping a straight face on.
Determination
That's what I feel
Determination too keep going strong, too show them all what they missed and what they messed with
Too make them regret
We walk down in silence, complete silence, awkward too
We soon reach the dining table, again silence, complete utter silence as we walk in,all stares directed at us, fear and regret lay in most
"what are we waiting for, let's eat guys" i say coldly too break the silence, it just got tense
"my daughters" we all look up hearing Vincent say that as he stares deeply at us
"Your so closed off" he adds in a trance
Speaking his mind
"that what happens when life actually hits you in the face" summer grumbles
She angry
I'm angry
They left us
We wouldn't have gone through all this if they would of just loved us like they loved the boys
"it can't have been that bad!!" lorenzo growls "i lost my mother and my sisters in the space of 3 years!" he continues as everyone goes tense
"i never got too feel the love of a mother at all or a father, i had a family that abandoned me, what do you think 8 year old me thought, she thought she was a fucking disappointment, she was told he family hated her, she hated herself, SHE WAS 8! I'm sorry you lost your mother, that's some horrible shit but do not forget she was my mother too, you had the support of a father and brothers when you struggled, I didn't, summer didn't! We had eachother that's it" i go on in rage
I snapped
"we were told our whole lives our family didn't want us, at the age of 5 I cried myself too sleep for the first time because I realised that" summer yells at him letting her anger go
They all stare at the floor disappointed in themselves
"isabella and summer, you do not know the whole story, do not yell nor blame them" luca shouts at us
"it's life get used to it!" i say
"isabella just eat!" killian demands me, rolling his eyes "you do not get too talk killian or luca, your kidnappers, killers bad people, the world fears you because you wanted them too, you have firends, you were not kidnapped from your life, you have a house, you may struggle but do not tell me to jsut eat, fuck you I am leaving " i say as I get up, out of my chair
" i will be jioning her, fuck off and go get a life because you need one, one where you do not kidnap people and ruin there lives even more, you guys are the reason this world is fucked up " summer says as she gets up out her chair too follow me out the door too
" SIT YOUR ASS BACK DOWN, YOU ARE NOT LEAVING! "killian and luca both yell
" fuck off" summer says walking out the door her wirst getting caught by Lucas hand mine getting caught by killian's hand
"get off me killian"
"you're staying, no matter what I will find you!" he growls, little wolf fucker
"killian would you just fuck off out my life! I don't want to be here with you!" i scream at him looking in the opposite direction of him with anger filling my face
"Your staying and i will not be leaving your life ever!" killian yells back at me as luca and everyone just watch
"for fuck sake I don't want to be with you, I don't want to be forced into living next door to my so called brothers and i do not want you to know anything else about me!" i scream as i turn around all i see is flashbacks of carter
You've been through this before izzy you can do this again
It's not him
"Your just like the rest of them" summer shouts as she grabs my wirst dragging me too sit next too her
I'm just in a trance
My breathings closing in
The walls closing in
Everythings getting closer
And closer
I'm having a panic attack
No no no, not now
I can't hear anything going on around me, I try too breath but that never works
Just breath you damn idiot
"izzy you told me too think of something thay distracts me and make me happy, take your own advice for once, you dont have too be there for everyone" summer speak, her voice echos
I feel myself fall into arms
Their rough arms
That hold me Gently
I feel summer trying too take me from them
I see again, I hear again but I can't move, I can't breath, I can't feel
"why didn't we kill him?" i ask summer "who?" i hear lorenzos voice ask softly "carter" is all I say
"let me hug her" summer says as she gets taken into the arms of Alexander
Ace walks over too me
"she's having a panic attack, does she suffer from these normally?" he asks summer "their common for her" she reply annoyed
"why am I in arms?!" i shriek but don't move I can't "because I wanted too hug you" elliot whispers in my eat
Elliot?
"you don't care" i laugh
"we all care" killian says coming closer, the panic attack subsiding I feel my voice come back and my breathing begin to calm
"feeling better?" luca asks
I nod
"why'd you panic like that?" killian asks concerned, I feel elliot hug me closer I tense abit
I'm not use too this from anyone but summer
"she had a flashback and you all caused it" summer says looking at them all in disgust and annoyance
"we did?" Vincent asks sad
"i'm so sorry girls we will explain, everything, we didn't abandon you, you were kidnapped, we're sorry you've been kidnapped again but I'm glad you both were because that was the reason we found you" ace says as his eyes water at the sight of us
I glance up at him curious
Of course we were kidnapped
To be fair I could of guessed that
They act like they care
But everyone did at first, I don't trust it, I just look at him confused and quiet
" we care, we love you both, we've been looking for you for years!" elliot adds as he pulls me closer
"what?" summer says confused, we're not used to this
I don't trust it either
"we love you both so much, and we know you don't trust us and you won't for awhile maybe ever but we're sorry truly" Alexander says from behind summer
"i don't believe it" i say coldly
"we know you don't but you should" lorenzos quietly adds not so mean, are we anymore lorenzo?
"i'm sorry, I'm so sorry" is what Vincent says he just apologises I don't know for what part but he does
"oh" is all me and summer say in shock they want us too trust them? , they love us?
I yawn not rudely but genuinely really tired "i-I'm gonna go bed" i say in a still confused sort of tone
"okay Amore mio, è stata una lunga giornata per te, lo sappiamo" killian says admiring me, I think he forgot I can understand
(My love, it's been a long day for you we know)
I see him smirk at my face when he remembers we understand
"goodnight.." summer says in a slow voice
"goodnight summer, I will see you later tonight" luca smirks as she rolls her eyes
"night guys" i say hesitantly
"night Hermana" ace says half in Spanish, calling us sister, it feels werid being called that
(sister)
With that we both head out the room, going upstairs, the moment I leave the room I let out a deep breath I did not know i was holding
I look at summer and sigh
We make it too the rooms in silent
Wishing eachother goodnight giving eachother a hug, we both go into the rooms
Getting ready for bed into some shorts and a baggy t-shirt, the best kinda pj's
Alot happened tonight
I drift right too sleep as i do i hear killian enter the room, pretending to be fully asleep
"i can not get you out my mind isabella, your the most amazing girl I've ever seen, I know you hide alot I will find it all out and one day you'll accept me, I hope" he says with hope and adore
With that i dirft completely into darkness and peace
The only peace I ever get
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