"Manik" I whisper seeing him coming out of the bathroom
"Yes love?" He asks
"Can we go out for ice cream? My finger hurts" he chuckles hearing my excuse
"of course, come on" he says
I giggle jumping up and walking to him
"You know you could have just asked for ice cream, I would take you anyways"
"Yes but it's true my finger does hurt"
"Maybe ice cream can make it a little better, what do you think?" He asks
I nod jumping in his arms, he picks me up and carried me to his car.
"No I don't wanna sit there, I want to sit in your arms" I tell him
"Only if you don't pull on the belt" he says making me pout
This one time in Goa, I was sitting in his arms driving back from a restaurant and I pulled on the belt which got him upset because he didn't want me to remove the belt
"That was one time"
"Sweetheart, it's for your safety"
"I know"
He nods sitting with me in his arms, he buckles up and neither one of us said anything all the way tot he ice cream parlour.
"Stop" I whisper when he was about to open the door
"What's wrong?" He asks
"Manik please don't do this, I know I messed up and I promise you it won't happen again but please don't behave like this"
"Like what?"
"Like I am this fragile glass you can't voice anything out to. Yes I was raped multiple times, yes I was abused and yes I got therapy but the way you are behaving with me makes me feel broken"
He sighs leaning completely back in he seat
"I don't know how not to be angry Nandini, I am trying really hard not to find that fucker and kill him"
"It's over, I am right here in your arms, who cares where he is or what he is doing. I am in your arms, I am happy, I feel lighter, I feel at peace manik"
"I know baby, I cannot get that image out of my head, I don't ever wanna walk into something like that ever again"
"You won't"
he nods smiling at me
"I don't want you to think that now that I have told you all this, you can't kiss me or we can't fool around like we always do because we can and I am going to be very honest with you, every touch of yours makes my body light up wiht a shit ton of feelings and all good ones"
"You never felt uncomfortable right?" He asks
"No, are you crazy, I wanted to jump your bones, but you mr shy boyfriend won't even walk around shirtless as if I would you know"
he laughs throwing his head back making me smile, even in the dark, I could see how beautiful his smile is
"Yeah?"
"Yes sir" I whisper kissing his lips
"Oh that sounds kinky" he comments
"Right? Maybe It's time I tie you up and you know"
"Oh la la, do it. You don't even need permission little mouse, do it" he says making me giggle
"I saw it in a movie, she ties him up and and he breaks the bed but he was a vampire you know"
"I won't break the bed but I might"
"Break my back yessss" I laugh at my own words which made him laugh louder
"I need to filter these tv channels for ya" he says kissing my lips
"Mhm to all the sexy ones" I say nodding
"To all the cartoon shows love" he says
"Shut up bad human, come on don't' be cheap and get me some ice cream" he chuckles a bit
"You are the one who wanted to stay in here and makeout with me"
"Oh my gosh you are a shameless human" I say
"You should see me naked and hard" he says making my eyes widen
"Ahhhh I am being kidnapped" I yell banging on the window
I swear not even a second later, a couple people start gathering making me giggle
"Nandini"
I open the door and peaked my head out
"Call the police" one of the man out there said
"Chill people, I was joking. This is my boyfriend, say no manik" I mumble
"She is fine you guys"
'Shameless these people" the men mumble to themselves
"We aren't naked, we have clothes on" I yell
"Nandini stop it" manik says shutting the door
"My ice cream" I whisper
"No ice cream for you" he say
"Please" I whisper
"No, don't pout at me okay. what if they called the cops?"
"then we run away, zoom zoom. How fast does your car go manik?" I ask
"Fast" he replies
"You wanna race me sometime?" I asked him
"No baby, I wanna race others with you by my side" I smile widely hearing him
"Home, we go home" I whisepr
"Yes we are going home, there is some ice cream in the freezer" I hum leaning my head on his shoulder
"Manik do you think our sex life in the future would be different?" I ask him when we were back home
I had a bowl of strawberry ice cream in my hands as I sat on the kitchen counter, manik standing in front of me kissing my face every few minutes
"Different how?" He asks kissing my head
"I am healed, yes I am but I mhm I"
"Nandini, communication is the best way to resolve things, to work things through, to heal and to grow from. Don't feel embarrassed or shy about telling me anything"
"I haven't been able to feel anything" I whisper
"That's okay"
"I had to go to a lot of therapy sessions and I mhm I tried what they taught me but I lied to them about feeling things again" I ramble on
He doesn't stop me, nor does he interrupt
"It's like I could be watching anything but I don't feel anything, I tired to touch myself but every time I did, his his touch ruined it, it was so bad, but you know what manik?"
"What love?" He asks kissing my cheeks
"I remember that night when I told you id mhm that I would kill you, you said you wanted my lips on yours and you wanted to hold me so tight that our bodies were pressed against each others, I felt tingles all over my body. I feel things when you touch me, I feel like I have a heart beat down there" I chuckle at my own words causing him to chuckle as well
He pecks my lips making me smile
"When I was in your arms sitting in your lap in the office this morning or I guess yesterday" I say peaking at the time to see it was the next morning
"Yes"
"I felt so much, i felt it all, it was like a raging feeling, a feeling of need, I wanted you and I needed you. Manik you make me feel things, a whole lot of things, all of it I suppose"
"Yeah?"
"Yes" I whisper looking in his eyes as I nod
"Nandini my love, you and I are going to work through everything together, this feeling, I swear it will only get intensified. The touches only get more burning and in all the good ways. We are so new to us and it's only up form here my little firefly" I giggle hearing him
"Ice cream?" I ask
"No bbay im okay"
"Bad bad, please" I whisper
He smiles taking a bite.
I hope off the counter and wash my dishes cleaning up a bit as well.
"come on we need to brush and off to bed" he says
"Piggy back ride please" I say
He chuckles leaning down picking me up on his back, I wrap my arms around him and my arms around his shoulders. We both brushed together and then were laying in bed, manik on the right side and I was on the left
"Does it hurt?" He asks caressing my finger with the bandaid
"Not too much, it's okay right now"
"Come here princess, lets sleep. Its been a very long day" he says opening his arms for me
I turn rolling into his arms, on his chest.
his lips looked so so plump and I couldn't help myself so I lean kissing his lips, his arms wrap around my back as he leans into the kiss as well. I love how his kisses make me feel.
"Goodnight my little star" he whispers pulling back placing a kiss n my head
"Goodnight handsome"
My eyes close being exhausted the whole day, I am so happy that even at the end of the day manik and I communicated and worked through everything, I love that and I love him.
When my eyes fluttered open the next morning, manik was snuggled in my neck, his arms wrapped around my waist as he lays on his stomach. Ahh it's such a beautiful sight to wake up to, I wish him and I could live together and wake up together every day.
I watch as his back rises and falls, the way he handled me last night was amazing, it was perfect. He made me believe in myself and he took all those insecurities and threw them far away, he took every single fear and crushed it in his hands
"You are an angel, a blessing in disguise manik malhotra" I whisper kissing his lips
He leans closer making me smile fully.