What does self-doubt look like?
what does love look like?
what is destruction?
I want to learn what it's like to have all the right words to say
and grow
It can be so painful here, and other times so cheerful.
One second I'm floating high on cloud nine and others I'm
alone in an eery silence forced to sit with my own thoughts.
I thought I was done feeling this way.
stuck
I'm on the cusp of depression and Mania in my head right now
trying to ignore, pretend and repeat.
I'm a bad picker sometimes,
relationships, love, and friends
I must be setting myself up for failure thinking I knew what love was supposed to look like.
How could I?
With a mom with three divorces and
a single-parent, run-a-way sibling
and a stepfather who hated me.
All I ever wanted was to be loved and feel like I was enough for someone else.
when I need to focus on what makes me love myself.
I do love myself, and now what I want is to be in God's favor.
I want to be secure and optimistic because I know that God is in control.