encouraged delusions

By OliviaJWrites

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encouraged delusions
the world has a chokehold on me
another poem about drake again
protecting myself
the echoes in my brain
it was just a child for a magic show
i see right through me, i see right through me
unexpected monotony
i knew everything when i was young
there's oreos on the counter
i made a severe mistake today
its been a long week
empty words and empty promises
the whole world still moves on
the gold collecting dust
one day they'll figure me out
chance and wishful thinking
a prayer
i hate these omens
late night anxieties at a friend's house
a drawing she had made
suddenly there are roly polys beneath my feet
the view from here
a half attempt at healing
it's a vacation instead of home base
it was a low blow
my pride is the only reason
i'm far away from everything
long distance is weird
i feel like a child again
i want to go home
the plane to kansas city
i love you
he means everything
his sleepy voice on the darkest nights
i busted my chin this morning
keeping mental clocks
in anticipation of a green sky
i was a writer then
i spend my sunday nights in the study room
i don't know what to do when i'm sad
i pray this doesn't change
i'm running out of time to make things right
the monsters underneath my bed
the mirror in my pocket
adequacy
lost in frantic halfhearted translation
cottage with a lighthouse in its roof
i'm held together by a single lullabye
a fine line between courage and fear
a grace
is it called the butterfly effect?
avoiding people's invitations
do our loves measure up?
a choice in the bar
trying to avoid the southward descent
i see my mom's reflection in the mirror
cookie dough butter at 3am
my failed attempt at prevention
anti social battery
let's make plans for friday
the orange in the fireplace
a metaphor with a bonfire
what if i was a castle?
i play marco polo with ghosts in my room
headstands agains the wall
she asked me why i stayed
an appointment on the phone
the guise of yoga and birds
waiting and waiting and waiting
till the mushrooms eat my bones
legs hanging off of the deck
a pool of mascara on the cheap wood stairs
a studded rock upon your hand
all coming back to you
comparing myself to the series
to peel myself from the ground
am fever dreaming
this town isn't big enough for the both of us
a doomsday prepper
sick of myself
and the walls start crumbling down
the venomous prize
forever held me as his equal
spiders in your brain
let's get through the last forest fire
hey kid
he wasn't supposed to be there
you're nothing more anymore
the act can be of grieving
i am saturated in my sickness
the war machines
the pen and paper have never left
maybe i am the vessel
lines of self loathing
jealousy, jealousy

cookie cake, football games

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By OliviaJWrites

all the words seem to be about him lately
maybe i can't hear the world caving in
over the sound of his gentle voice
over coffee and breakfast and cookie cake
and sunday football games
maybe i can't hear the voices of the
ones who used to haunt me
over the sound of his love
before the movie
his words linger with me
as i drift off to sleep
the comfort i've prayed for
since i was fifteen

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