2 years later
Nanon's pov-
Nanon please check the customer outside my cafe manger said to me I nodded and went outside to take orders from the customer your order mam? I asked the middle aged lady she smiled and told me her black coffee it will be placed in few minutes I said and went inside the cafe one black coffee I said to the manger and he nodded and went inside to prepare the order
I removed the cap from my head as I sighed I left Bangkok and came to Phuket because I was sure ohm will try to talk to me and I was right Lucas told me that ohm daily visit Lucas's apartment thinking I'm might be there Lucas prepared the divorce papers I already sign on them but I don't know if ohm sign it but Lucas said he will tell milk so ohm will sign the papers staying away from ohm I realized I was falling in love with him but I never realized or I never wanted to admit
It will be lie if I say I don't miss my monster yes my monster ohm I miss him but I can't be with him since I hate mafia and even if I asked ohm to not work as mafia he would have never listend me and by chance he accepted my request but his old enemies would have never let him live in peace and we both would be in trouble we would have living life scared we wouldn't able to live like a normal couples.
I don't know if my decision hurt ohm but I can't help it Nanon Nanon I came out from my thoughts when my manager wait his name is Felix y-yeah I said blinking my eyes are you OK bro? I have been calling you he said and I shook my head sorry I was lost Little bit I said and he nodded it's OK if you don't feel OK then you can go home he said and I nodded because I'm feeling weak nowadays I decided to go back home OK I will place the coffee then leave I said and take the order and went outside placing the coffee on table here you go mam I said thanks young man she said making me smile
I went towards another table to clean it but then I heard the couple conversations I gave side eyes to those couple but then saw they both are boys one looks tiny and another looks real man the tiny one trying to console another boy that people will never gonna accept same gender couple in real life but the another man is refusing I melted how the another boy is trying to convince the tiny one it's illegal to listen peoples conversation Nanon I heard the voice the voice I was craving to listen the persons voice I wanted to hear I snapped my head back and saw my monster ohm standing away from me but looking at me with a sweet smile
I couldn't help but the tear left from my eyes ohm shook his head I'm seeing him after 2 years but this ohm doesn't looks like before he is thinner, his eyes have dark circles, he looks like he wasn't caring about himself I scanned him and finally my eyes landed on his face but suddenly ohm stopped smiling I can see him looking at me with his fierce eyes which sends me chill Through my body why you left me? He asked me but what can I say o-ohm I- I try to speak but ohm shook his head you said you will give us a chance where's that chance? He said making me feel bad but then he started to walk backwards but there is an road and the cars bikes are running ohm stop what you're doing? I said but he just weakly smiled
You left me knowing when I needed you the most that time he said and keep walking backwards but making my heart beats fast ohm please stop I said and try to went towards him I'm madly in love with you Nanon why you left me he said and the tears left from his eyes this is first time I saw tears in ohm's eyes but that thing ached in my heart ohm please I'm sorry please let's talk I try to console him but he just looking at me and walking backwards remember what I said? My eyes get wide when a bike about to hit ohm but that biker stopped his bike immediately OHM STOP BEING INSANE I yelled remember when I said if you want to leave Me makes sure you will kill me but.....you left me to suffer
Because you can't kill me I will take my own life Nanon because I can't live without you ohm said but I tear up badly again I love you Nanon with that a big truck hit ohm sending ohm in air OHM I yelled ohm's name when he fell down badly making my heart stop I ran towards him and saw his head bleeding
I fell down on my knees beside him I take his head on my lap holding on his face OHM PLEASE WAKE UP I called him but he wasn't moving SOMEBODY PLEASE CALL THE AMBULANCE I yelled telling people to help who just gather here to watch scene I'm being crying mess I keep shaking ohm but then after few minutes the ambulance showed up as Felix also come besides me the male nurse ran towards our direction and take ohm in ambulance
At hospital
Nanon who is him? Felix asked me he was the one who called ambulance and the way I'm reacting Felix must be confused I will tell you later Felix I said and Felix nodded it's an long story even if I try to explain him he won't understand I didn't stop taking God's name since ohm went inside the emergency room this confirm how madly ohm loves me and here I was running away from him I swear to God once he woke up I will never gonna leave him even if I will have trouble life I will stay with him I can't run away more because.. I love him and I won't deny my feelings towards ohm.
My hands are joined keep praying as the emergency room door open I immediately stood up and saw the Dr smiled at me its OK young man it's just a head injury he is alright you can meet him Dr said and I sigh in relief thank you so much doctor I said as the Dr nodded and left I turn to Felix i-I will meet him I said as Felix gave me his smile and nodded I didn't wait long and went inside the patient room and saw ohm laying on bed I went towards him and about to touch no he is sleeping I should not disturb him I said and just stare at his face and went towards the sofa and sat down I sigh as I look out from window
Then again glanced at ohm I saw his eyes moment and finally he opens his eyes blinking many times
As he look besides and then saw me but his eyes still fierce one that makes me nervous ohm stood up from bed and walked towards me I just look at him confused and panic he came and sat beside me then laid down placing his head on my lap and then he smiled at me why did you save me? He asked but I shook my head cupping his cheeks I'm sorry ohm please let's talk I said but ohm held my hand firmly stop giving me hope Nanon I'm broke already ohm said with his sad eyes just tell me if you don't love me and I will never gonna bother you ohm said as I tear up same goes to ohm but he yanked my hand but gently and sat up he cupped my face and kissed my forehead if you don't want me I won't show my face to you he said looking deep into my eyes I'm going Nanon I love you and this is last time I'm saying this he said and sadly smile and stood up
He turn around showing his back he started to go out, no I can't let him go not when I realized my feelings for him I stood up and immediately went towards him wrapping my arms around him hugging his back
Ohm I'm really sorry for running away from you b-but I understand my feelings please don't leave me please stay with me I love you ohm I finally said it I can't take it anymore I need to tell him that I love him I didn't get any response from ohm he was still back facing me I removed my arms and went to face him and saw him crying I cupped his cheeks and wiped the tears I love you ohm please stay with me I said as he immediately hugged me and I hugged him back
I-I will stay with you Nanon ohm said with his shaky voice and now this is what I feel right this is what I was waiting for and finally this happened I want this journey to be good a beautiful relationship with ohm I want, we are same gender but I don't care I love him he loves me that's enough for me
As ohm broke the hug and cupped my face it's not a dream right? Ohm asked and I smiled and shook my head its not I said but ohm pulled me towards him wrapping his arms around my waist as he joined his temple with mine can I kiss you? He asked I chuckled and nodded as slowly he lean I close my eyes ready to feel his lips on me as we connected our lips to each others
We kissed each others softly ohm held my neck bringing me more close to himself I kissed him back we melted in that soft yet gently kiss uhummm I heard the voice and immediately pull back I saw Nani is standing my cheeks got red seeing Nani smiling at me I immediately buried my face in ohm's chest but I heard both Nani and ohm laughing I gripped on ohm's shirt as ohm wrapped his arms around me.
Ohm's pov-
I'm right now at Nanon's apartment I asked him that we should go back home but Nanon said I should take rest first and that's why he brings Nani and me at his apartment I'm in his bedroom laying down on his bed meanwhile Nani is on couch reading the newspaper like always Nanon went to cook something
The bed smells like Nanon because I held the pillow in my arms that's making me crazy honestly I was gone crazy when I woke up in hospital then got to know that Nanon left me I was feeling helpless
I cried that' day so hard I never cried like that but for Nanon I was crying like a baby later Nani took me home I always requested Nani to let me go and search for Nanon but I was not in situation to even walk around
I used to cry every night I thought to let myself die those whole years there is no any day left that I didn't miss Nanon I started to have mental problems it was nani who used to give me hope that I will meet Nanon one day I used to trust on him because I left no choice but have hope after that Lucas send me divorce papers that completely shattered my heart I saw Nanon already sign but I couldn't have urge to sign them I left them on nightstand and never dared to touch them. Everyday I used to go Lucas house thinking that Nanon might living with him at first Lucas was angry at me and he used to shout but that didn't bother me because I was going there regular Lucas finally told me that Nanon left Bangkok
I stopped going to Lucas place milk sometimes told me to stop searching for Nanon because I know everyone started to pity on me because the way I was being restless I didn't listen any of them and keep searching for Nanon and finally I got to know that Nanon left to Phuket that day I didn't wait and went to Phuket and then Nani told me that Nanon was working at cafe
We went to cafe and there I saw him looking at two couple I get relief when I saw him I was little upset with him I almost forgot that when I saw him standing in front of me.
OHM I heard the loud voice which makes me starless and I saw Nani's face too close to me I abruptly stood up and pushed him away wtf you was doing I said as I saw Nani fell on his butt you jerk I was calling you but you wasn't listening me I thought you went in coma he said while rubbing his butt I rolled my and stood up um sorry I said and went outside and saw a tiny figure in kitchen I smiled to myself and went towards Nanon and back hugged him placing my chin on his shoulder you already took nap? Nanon asked I wasn't taking nap I said kissing his neck ohoo ohm Nani is with us Nanon said but I gripped on his waist then let him see I said and Nanon shook his head
But I'm feeling most blessed person
Because the love of my life accepted me finally what I need more from life Nanon is with me and most amazing thing he confessed his own feelings too
I will keep my baby with Me I will protect him I will take care of him I love him and I'm gonna spend my whole life with him thanks to God that he send Nanon in my life I learned humanity I learned how to love, Nanon bring that soft side in my life and this is gonna be forever part of my life
To be continued