Spencer knocked three times on the door.
"Can I help you?" the woman asked, she assumed it was Mrs. Dursley.
"Good morning ma'am, I'm here for Mr. Potter" she raised her fake glasses higher.
"And you are?"
"I'm Rachel Longview ma'am," Spencer reached over to shake her hand, "I'm with the Hogwarts summer school program. Mr. Potter needs more discipline, his behavior at Hogwarts is abysmal. Subsequently he got enrolled in extra courses this summer, the date of his return will depend on his behavior."
"Well I am glad you people are taking action in this" she shook her head. "That boy does not show any type or respect to his elders."
Spencer nodded, "I'll wait out here until he's done packing."
Mrs. Dursley shut the door, "Harry pack your bags!" she yelled.
After a few minutes Harry came out, surprised to see Spencer but weirded out by her new look.
She has changed the color of her hair, made it straight, added a few moles to her face, and made her nose bigger.
"Thank you Ms. Longview" she said before shutting the door.
"Ms. Longview" Harry repeated.
"You've been a bad boy Mr. Potter" Spencer stared to walk to the end of the street.
"Where are we going?" he followed her.
"The airport" she answered, getting rid of the modifications she made on herself.
"The Airport? I don't have my passport, Spence!"
Spencer took a booklet out of her pocket and handed it to him.
"How did you get this?" he chuckled, admiring the passport.
She turned his luggage into a book bag and placed a feather light charm on it.
"Hold on to my arm" Spencer said.
Harry quickly reached out, she apparated to the airport.
"Why aren't we using a portkey?"
"Muggle transportation is easier," she shrugged, "plus they don't know you there."
"Makes sense" he nodded as he followed her.
She walked to a stand that read United Airlines, Harry tried to look at everything around him as it was his first time in an airport.
"Hi, we're here for a flight to Mexico City" Spencer told the worker.
"Can I have your forms of identification" he replied.
Spencer handed her passport, Harry did as well.
He asked their relation, noting the difference in last names.
"He's my brother" Spencer answered.
"My parents died" Harry added.
The officers eyes widened before he printed out their boarding pass and told them where the security checkpoint could be found.
"I can't believe Mrs. Dursley actually let me come with you" he said excitedly.
"Confundus charm" she winked.
"What about our wands?" he said worried.
"I put a notice-me-not, Harry, don't worry" she chuckled.
Once they passed the metal detectors they walked to their gate.
"I'm so excited!" he jumped.
Spencer laughed, "me too."
"Wait- how did you pay for this? Can we call Hagrid he has-"
"Don't worry about money Harry" she shook her head. "We're on vacation."
"But-"
She shook her head, "nope."
They found their gate and sat down.
"I'm going to use the bathroom before we leave" Harry said.
"Okay" she nodded.
As he walked away Spencer took out the envelope Snape gave her.
She stared at it for a few moments before opening it.
Spencer, you once said that you're not a good person... that you deserve to hurt.
I know I can't make you believe it, but maybe if you look back on these words you'll change your mind.
I promise you that there are people out there who will understand the language of your heart and what you have been through. They will show you so much patience and understanding while you heal.
I promise you that your feelings, your anxiety, and your trauma are not a burden to the ones who love vou and I promise you that you are capable of giving and receiving love despite it all.
I wish you could see just how worthy you are of good things, of genuine love, of deep connections, of happiness. I wish you could escape your mind for just one moment and see everything you deserve, because once you see it, once you feel it, you can't deny that it's real.
You are worth so much more than the way you've been made to feel in the past, and your past experiences do not define your future or your ability to be loved.
I hope you find it in yourself to open up your heart again, just a little more each day, and let a little bit of love back in. I hope that in doing so you begin to see all the things that are meant for you finding their way to you, and I hope you acknowledge that you are worthy of it all.
I need you to forgive yourself.
Forgive yourself for the ways you've hurt yourself, and the ways you've let others hurt you too.
Forgive yourself for letting people who were wrong stay too long and take too much (this is not about Lupin, so don't take it that way.)
Forgive yourself for not knowing how much love you deserved, how strong you can be, and what splendor you are.
Forgive yourself for judging your tears, your pain, your grief.
Forgive yourself for putting everyone else above you and putting yourself last.
Forgive yourself for not celebrating every form of yourself that was a stepping stone to who you are today.
Attached is a letter I made you write to your future self back when you were 15.
I love you, always,
Severus Snape
Spencer wiped the tears that flooded down her face.
She didn't know what she was expecting, but it certainly wasn't that.
She took a deep breath and tried to stop crying as she brought the second piece of paper to the front.
An Incomplete List Of Reasons To Stay
• you have so much left to learn
• you deserve to heal
• you deserve your own love
• you deserve to be here
• you can step on a crunchy leaf in autumn
• you haven't written a book yet
• museums !!!
• you can get a cat when you're older
• the Weasley's and Harry and Hermione and Snape and Andrew And Melissa (Severus scratched out her name)
• you haven't been to big cities in the United States
• books !!!!
• music
• tattoos
• sunsets
• flowers
• stargazing
• rainy days
• ok I ran out of ideas but you get the point !
Severus added his own at the bottom.
• you are someone's proof, my proof, that goodness still exists in people
• you matter
• you are loved
• you are needed
• most importantly, it's not time to go
"Hey, what happened?" Harry asked as he walked up to her.
"Nothing" she let out a teary chuckled. "I'm okay"
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah" she nodded.
"I've been meaning to ask," he sat down, "we're going to Mexico City?"
"We're staying for a day" she nodded, cleaning her face.
"Wait so you're not from the city?"
"I always say Mexico because- well most people don't know where I'm actually from."
"So where are you from?"
"Well my dad is from the city but we're not staying there, my mother is from Orizaba, Veracruz."
"And that's where we're going?"
"Yes, we're going to Orizaba" she nodded.
"When's the last time you went?"
"I can't remember" she answered. "But now I get to go with you" she lightly punched his shoulder.
"So where's Nox?"
"He's currently enjoying the spacious bag" she pointed at her carry on.
"Woah" his eyes widened.
"Maybe when you're older I'll show you how I did it."
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"Hey," Spencer poked Harry, "wake up."
"We landed?"
"Yeah" she nodded. "You slept like a baby" she chuckled.
Harry rubbed his eyes before realizing that people were getting their luggage out of the overhead bins.
"Isn't it weird how everyone here flew to Mexico at the exact same time" he noted.
She laughed as she nodded, "yeah."
"Like... their schedules lined up with ours at the exact same time from the exact same place. Who knew all the Brits love Mexico."
Spencer laughed, "it's summer Harry, people want to be tourists."
He nodded as the got up and walked out of the plane.
As they walked out of the airport, Spencer saw a man in a suit with her last name on a paper waiting.
She stood still.
"Is that for us?" Harry asked as he saw the limousine.
"Yep."
"That's huge" Harry noted. "Did you get that?"
"No," she started to walk toward the car, "my grandpa is overcompensating" she smiled to the man as they got closer.
He opened the door and let them in.
"Oh" Harry nodded. "What does overcompensating mean?"
Spencer chuckled as lowered her window.
"In short, he said something mean and he knew he shouldn't have said it so he's going out of his way to apologize."
"Did he say I'm sorry?"
"No, he's a man" she answered.
"I'm a man and I say I'm sorry" he shrugged.
"You're a boy" she shook her head. "But maybe, when you are a man, you're a man that says sorry" she smiled.
"I hope so, this looks expensive" he looked around.
Spencer laughed.
The driver took them to a house she assumed her grandfather rented for them.
It had big black gates and a water fountain in the entrance. There were also many flowers that surrounded the property.
"Definitely overcompensating" Harry said wide eyed.
The driver opened the door, Harry got out first.
"Gracias" Spencer thanked him.
"Estaré aquí hasta que se vayan, si necesitan ir a algún lado."
(I'll be here until you leave, if you need to go anywhere.)
She nodded before walking to the house, following Harry as he explored around.
"Buenos días" a woman spoke from behind them.
(Good morning)
Harry jumped slightly, scared from the sudden noise.
"Hola" Spencer smiled.
(Hello)
"Would you prefer to speak in English or Spanish?" she asked.
"English, he doesn't know any Spanish" Spencer answered.
Harry look to the floor, embarrassed.
"Well, the master bedroom is on the second floor, there is another room at the end of the hall and two more in the first floor. There are board games in the basement and an art studio in the attic. There are also tables and couches outside for lounging. The whole house is left for you two, I will be here during the mornings and dinner time to prepare food. Any questions?"
This was a lot for just two days, Spencer felt bad they wouldn't be able to enjoy it all.
"What's your name?" Spencer asked.
"Amanda" she answered.
"Thank you Amanda, I just wanted to make sure you know we're only here for a couple days?"
"Yes" she nodded. "Mr. Espinoza told every staff member."
"There are more than two?"
"Oh, yes. I thought you were aware?"
"... donde están?"
(Where are they?)
"La seguridad está localizada en el techo y en la casa al otro lado de la calle. También estarán en frente de la casa y patrullarán los terrenos por la noche."
(Security is located on the roof and in the house across the street. They will also be in front of the house and will patrol the grounds at night.)
Spencer's anger was seen clearly.
"Cuantos años tienes?"
(How old are you)
"Tengo 18."
(I'm 18)
She nodded sadly, "es por tu bien."
(It's for your own good.)
Spencer smiled tightly.
"Lunch is on the table if you're hungry" she smiled at Harry.
"Thank you" he replied.
Spencer led him inside, she found bowls of fruit at the table. Harry quickly went up and ate a piece of mango.
"So what are we doing today?" he asked.
She shrugged, "what do you want to do?"
"I get to pick?" he asked wide eyed.
"Yeah" she smiled. "Anything you want."
"Anything?"
"Anything" she nodded.