CW//might be disturbing to some
- Pathetic joke!
(Song by me)
Teacher, did I fail another test?
Teacher, am I the worst?
Teacher, it is too difficult
Teacher, your words are too articulate!
Watching my entire class
Check the weather forecast
They all go to a birthday party
Every time they exclude me!
How joyous would it be
If I took off my shoes
(We do not like you
We just feel deep pity)
Oh father, dear father
I wish to end my life!
(That is a wonderful suggestion!
I will even assist you)
Father, you are too honest!
(You embarrass your mother!
Of all strengths you are deprived)
I will fix it, no need to question
I am not pathetic, that is not true!
(Do not lie with an empty promise)
I may be a Hikikomori
But even I have an interesting story!
(We are not laughing with you
We are laughing at you, that is true)
Always alone at home
Watching videos on my phone
My life is so boring
That the audience is already snoring!
Online they also avoid me
I am not that unlikable, I disagree!
But every day is the same
If I do not draw, I play video games
Talking to myself in my room
My only social interaction
Why do I only earn mocking reactions?
When I talk about harming my womb?
Oh mother, dear mother
I wish to end my life!
(That is a wonderful suggestion!
I will even assist you)
Mother, you are too honest!
(You embarrass your father!
Of all strengths you are deprived)
I will fix it, no need to question
I am not pathetic, that is not true!
(Do not lie with an empty promise)
I may be a Hikikomori
But even I have an interesting story!
(We are not laughing with you
We are laughing at you, that is true)
Having struggles finding a job
Is no reason why I continue to sob!
Everyone struggles, I am not unqualified!
By technology, I am almost hypnotised
An idiot like me could be loved too
(Oh do you really have no clue?
You have no societal worth)
Stop saying that, I contribute to earth!
(Everyone always played tricks
While giggling in their cliques
Proclaiming their love as a lie
Just to laugh and make you cry)
I may be easy to bully
Yet even I can be happy!
(Go ahead then and seek for love
Do not complain when life gets tough)
Hardly I am alive
Perhaps self injury is right
(Do you still not realise?
We all laugh at your demise!)
I am not pathetic, I swear!
(We are only being fair
It is your choice to be a joke)
You are right, only laughter is evoked
Ticking emotional time bomb
It will tear me to pieces
As your laughter only increases
For me, it is a tragedy, for you a sitcom
Oh father, dear father
I wish to end my life!
(That is a wonderful suggestion!
I will even assist you)
Father, you are too honest!
(You embarrass your Mother!
Of all strengths you are deprived)
I will fix it, no need to question
I am not pathetic, that is not true!
(Do not lie with an empty promise)
I may be a Hikikomori
But even I have an interesting story!
(We are not laughing with you
We are laughing at you, that is true)
[Written in: 18/04/2023]