"I'm tired." I said after I finished putting oil on Samir's scalp
"Aight." He said picking up his phone
I cleared my throat. "I'm tired." I repeated just in case he ain't hear me right the first time
"I heard you, go lay down." He said making me scrunch my face up
"Maybe that coma fucked wit yo memory but when I'm tired, you tired." I said
"Bruh, come on." He said pushing me out the bathroom
We laid down and he pulled me on top of him, when I'm tired and he not he don't go to sleep he just lay there
Good doggy
"I love you." I said kissing his neck and trying not to apply pressure on his wounds
"Love you mo, baby." He said rubbing my back and waist
"I'm not even tired no more." I groaned
"It's whatever." He said
"I'm kinda hungry tho." I stated
"You can eat me up." He quoted Blueface
"Don't you piss me off." I shook my head before Mila and Hassan came running in
"What y'all running fa? And why you look tired? And why you took that bow out yo head?" I questioned them
"Y'all mommy do too much, get in the bed." Samir said making me side eye him
"Acting like they in an interrogation room." He said to me
"I just got questions, that's all." I mugged him
"Too much." Hassan said under his breath
"What you said, lil boy?" I questioned
"Nothing." He giggled and Samir started to laugh making Mila laugh too
"Ion find nothing funny..." I said
"You funny, Mommy." Hassan said still laughing
"You gon laugh yo butt into a whooping." I side eyed him
They all ganging up on me and Ion like that
"Chillll." Samir laughed
"Chilll." Hassan repeated
"Dada." Mila giggled before grabbing his hair making him tickle her
"Bump y'all." I said and carefully got off Samir going to the kitchen
I got the family size of Doritos and a pack of cookies and went back in my room
"Scuse me." I said to Samir making him scoot over
"Can I get some?" Hassan asked pointing at the chips
"No, go get some of your own." I said eating my chips faithfully
"Hmph." He pouted crossing his arms
"Take that up wit ya fatha." I said
Samir snatched my bag of chips and they started eating my shit
"Play like y'all crazy." I said before popping the both of they heads then snatching my shit back
"Ow, Mommy." Hassan said rubbing his head
—♥—
"Mommy, when your birthday?" Hassan asked jumping around
"November 11th." I said
"That like my birthday." He said
"Yeah because yours is August 11th." I said
"Mhm." He nodded grabbing his iPad
"Can you turn on cars?" He asked then handed the iPad to me
"Which cars?" I asked
"The one that's on the dirt." He said and I nodded
"Them are dirt bikes, say dirt bike." I said
"Dirt bike." He said
"This is a car, usually on the road or street. This is a dirt bike, usually in some type of dirt." I said showing him the difference
"Okay." He nodded then I turned it on and gave it back to him
He started to watch it so I went to my room to see if Samir and Mila were still sleep
They was still sleep and Samir phone was on his chest, it was steadily going off so I picked it up and unlocked it
Ramiyah
i beard you were in a coma
heard*
you're okay now tho righ???
i miss you so much
we never even talk any more🥹
can we talk and stuff?
i seem so crazy sending all these texts😭😂
hmu when u can lol
I thought to myself wether or not to be mad but I just ended up putting it back on his chest
"Who was texting me?" He asked me still sounding sleep with his eyes closed
"Ramiyah." I said
"Mmm, delete the number." He said rubbing his forehead
"Huh?" I asked pretending like I ain't hear him
"Delete the number or block it." He said about to get irritated because he tryna sleep
"Can we talk when you're up?" I asked even though I wasn't asking
"You asking or we got to?" He asked
"It's not like there's a problem with nun, I just have a couple questions." I said
"Ion wanna give you time to sit and think but I'm tired." He said making me mug him
"Sit and think?" I asked
"Like you overthink stuff and we end up having a problem when it don't gotta be one." He said with eyes closed then I understood more of what he was tryna say
"Okay, go to sleep." I said then got up and went to the living room
"You wanna go do something?" I asked Hassan so I could keep my mind busy
"Like what?" He asked looking up from his iPad
"Anything, anything you wanna do." I said
"Mmm." He tapped his chin thinking
"The park!" He said enthusiastically
"Come on, let's go." I said enthusiastically as well
"Daddy gon go?" He asked
"Daddy really tired and he always takes you so it's my turn." I said
"Okayyy." He said
"Go put on your jacket then we can go, it's cold." I said
—♥—
"Why?" I asked Samir
"Why? Why what?" He questioned
"Why did you cheat on me?" I asked making him frown
"The same reason you cheated on me." He said then bust out laughing
I doubt that's why...
"Okay for real though, you already know what happened and I explained everything." He said referring to the thing with the bitch Ramiyah
"No, Jonnae." I said
"Who that is?" He squinted his eyes like a librarian
"I'm not gon play with you." I said
"Ohhhh." He snapped his fingers in realization
"Because I ain't know where we stood, you was doing yo thing wit another niggas so I thought I could do my thing. I ain't think you cared about what we had going on, that shit lowkey pissed me off and I ain't know how to express it. I was just doing what I wanted because you was and Ian think you would care about it or the shit we had going." He said
"I ain't think it was cheating, even though I loved you, you wasn't reciprocating nun of the energy I was putting out. And you was fucking wit other niggas." He shrugged
"I feel you because what you said was the truth but why you ain't think I cared when I told you I loved you?" I questioned
"Because you was telling me you love me after getting caught up. I ain't believe that shit." He said
"You think I would lie to you about loving you? I always kept it hunnid, I feel like." I expressed
"My guard always been up but with you, you made me feel like I could put it down but when I seen that nigga texting you I just was like." He shrugged
"I felt played." He said
"I know and I'm sorry, I completely manipulated that situation from what the real problem was and the real problem was me entertaining and giving another nigga my phone number." I said
"I accept yo apology, I love you." He said kissing me
"I feel like and know you the only thing I want, when bitches try throwing they ass on me I beat they ass." He joked making me laugh
"I'm serious." He said
"Wait, what you mean?" I furrowed my eyebrows
"That girl Mariyah that lied and said I was her babydaddy I called her when you went to the guest bedroom, I was tryna get some shit straightened out because I ain't want you to be mad at me but she kept lying so I said I had sum fa ha. I went to ha house tryna straighten it out again but she was like "Aires must not be treating you right" so I just punched her and even after that she kept lying so I pistol whipped her and she was crying." He explained making my mouth drop
"You need help, genuinely." I laughed
"What happened after that?" I asked
"You see she left you alone." He shrugged putting his hands behind his head
"Oh my gosh." I shook my head
"You a whole mess." I laughed
"I got you and that's all I need, I feel like if it's ever a moment where I feel like we not for each other or drifting apart then I'll be straight up wit you and instead of cheating." He expressed
"If we end up coming to where we ain't good for each other or don't want each other, why would I cheat when in the long run we could slowly come back to each other but youn wanna be wit me because yo trust fucked up when it come to me." He explained
"Just being mature about shit." He shrugged
"I agree wit you. I think we came too far and grew with each other so much to just be out here cheating on each other. Our relationship when we was younger was some weird shit." I expressed
"I think you was the problem." He said making me smack my teeth laughing
"Why you think that?" I asked
"You was dubbing me, cheating, and I feel like you couldn't own up to yo shi." He explained
"You was only 17 but still, you used to like to flip shit or change the real problem into something about me." He continued
"And you used to do crazy shit." He added
"I agree with you on everything else because it's the truth and I've changed but what crazy shit I did?" I asked
"You used to hit on me fa lil shit and throw fucking food at me." He shook his head
"Should've beat my ass." I shrugged
"I did." He laughed and I rolled my eyes
"Lie again." I said
"So youn remember when I beat yo ass when you wanted to grid bout some lemonade at yo shop." He said
"Ohhhh." I bust out laughing
"Boy, fuck you." I said
"What happened to "Ian built to be a mother"? He asked
"Ion like abortions, if I did we wouldn't have no kids right now." I said
"Girl, fuck you." He said
"You think you got PTSD?" He asked making me frown
"PTSD from what?" I asked
"Getting shot." He said
"I try not to think about it, I just let it be another moment in my life instead of something that constantly comes up." I said
"I never really went through anything major that affect me now besides one thing, well it doesn't really affect me right now." I explained
"What happen?" He asked
"My dad was in jail from when I was 8 to when I was 14. Out of all my siblings it hurt me the most because naturally I was always at my dad's hip. Even though my siblings are all close with him, I just was closer with him." I shrugged
"I never ever spoke on how it hurt me, especially to him. Well, I kinda did when I told him I was pregnant with Hassan. He tried to judge me because I was pregnant and you were in jail, so I said what I said but you know we moved past that." I said
"You ain't deserve that." He said
"I know, he apologized but I was really mad and hurt. I felt like betrayed by my best friend." I said making him pull me into a hug
"You okay, mama?" He asked rubbing my back and kissing my head
"I'm okay, I just wanna express how I feel." I said hugging him back
"You make me feel safe." I said after we pulled from the hug
"What you mean by safe?" He asked
"You know it's hella meanings." He added
"Like every meaning, I can go to you about any and everything. And I know when it come to anything, you got me." I said
"You'll kill fa me." I added
"I already did." He mumbled thinking I ain't hear him making my head shoot up
"Um, who you killed?" I asked
"What you mean?" He asked cluelessly making me stale face him
"The nigga that shot you." He said
"We burned him to death and threw the bones in the beach." He said
"Ewww, you didn't have to say allat." I said
"But you did that for me, bae?" I smiled putting my hand under my chin
"Mhm." He slightly chuckled before pecking my lips 3 times
"Boy, if youn-" I said before pulling his face and tongue kissing him