" I can't stop my tears if I want to because you are the reason of the tears "
Going to her own house she went to the roof again smoking but this time she was also drinking...
The pain she was bearing grew more after she saw him today.
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Sunghoon was devastated.
Watching her totally broken made him slap himself... This should not be called love ..
Jimin: I am not able to see her condition
Jennie: Sunghoon! Was it really necessary to hurt her?!! WHY DID U HURT HER???DO U CALL THIS LOVE??? YOU KNOW WHAT SHE IS SICK NOW... TOTALLY BROKEN.... drinking, smoking, suicidal attempts nothing is left .... U made her try everything...
Sunghoon's eyes was already wet , the tears were disgusting for Jennie to look at
Jennie: She cried in her shower for hours .... Fainting in her office, car , house, road, meetings where not....but she still has her smile on just for people to know that she is happy in her married life... With u ..
Jimin: Jennie? Do u know where can we find her now?
Jennie laughed.
Jennie: Like always fainted somewhere on the road...
Sunghoon looked at Jennie, her words looked impossible
Jennie: Shocked?! Many things are left to know still....
Jimin took Jennie's hand asking " R u sure? We can find her ?"
Jennie said "yes" pushing his hands...
Turning to Sunghoon...
Jennie: Won't u find her? I think u don't need her anymore...
Sunghoon shaked his head as a no saying " W-where is she?"
Driving all the places but y/n was nowhere to be seen....
Fate can be really selfish at times...
Other than Jimin , both of them were crying badly...
Finally Sunghoon came up with a place where y/n can be found ....." Maybe she is at her house?"
Jimin made a sharp turn , gearing up the car on the way to y/n 's house..
There was no light visible inside the house....they were disappointed with that...but sometimes our guts feel different..
Jennie requested " Can we try to open this?"
Jimin: We don't know the password, damn.
Sunghoon: I t-think I know the password....
Maybe because he has been visiting her house before, he knew the password.
Yes, they were thankful that he remembered the password....y/n's dad's birthday were the numbers.
Running here and there finally Sunghoon found her at the terrace...
Totally shattered by the view ....
Y/n lying down looking at the sky , the tear drops shining in the moonlight, the dress she was wearing is wet due to the drinks and a cigarette lying beside.
Love, I am sorry..... Sorry for my mistake, sorry for hurting u , sorry for breaking ur heart , sorry for Fallin in love with u .... If i hadn't fallen in love with you that day maybe we weren't meant to be like this....
Running towards her , he cupped her face .... Trying to kiss her lips .....
But why would she let him kiss her when those lips touched some other girl?!
" stay away from me" , pushing his hands she pulled out another cigarette lighting it up.
Sunghoon wiped his tears , " i can't bear to see u like this love"
"Love? Is this what you call love?! You don't know the meaning of love .... For sure... It's really painful looking at you ... Just go away from my sight "
Sunghoon begged," Please y/n, i can't stay away from u anymore" .
Y/n: How many lies will u say now?
Sunghoon: Not a lie y/n
Y/n: I am sick of this
Sunghoon: S-Sorry*tears rolling down *
Y/n: I am basically dead , but u know what I will still be smiling just for you.
Sunghoon nodded crying hard.
Sunghoon: Please please y/n forgive me
Y/n: You loved me first and then I fell for you ... And even if I hate u now .... I can't hurt u like u have hurt me ... U KNOW WHY??! BECAUSE I FUCKING LOVED U!!!! I JUST CAN'T HELP MYSELF!!! GET OUT OF MY EYES ... p-please I beg you...
Love ?
I can be a dumb , just for u
I can be dead , just for u
I can be found, just for u
But when u ask me who r u ?
That is when the world breaks into pieces...
I can't imagine myself without u but here u have already found someone else in my position...
Will I ever be able to recover?
I guess no , never.
Y/n got up rushing towards the edge of the roof and jumping off ... Mouthing " I loved u " to Sunghoon.....
Within a blink of eye , everything blanked for him...
The world stopped rotating and the noises went silent....the trees and birds went quiet... His brain was only shouting save her or else ....
Sunghoon shouted "Y/NNNNNNNNN.... "
AT THE HOSPITAL
"PLEASE SAVE HER , DOCTOR!!!!" Sunghoon shouted to the doctor taking her into the ICU.
Jimin holding him back to not let him go near her body ...
Doctor: This is serious, we might not be able to save her .... Sorry
Sunghoon: How can u fucking say that?! When u haven't seen her ?!
Doctor: There was heavy blood losses and she used to smoke a lot .... Plus her head is kind off damaged.. i don't know if everything will be fine or not ....
Jimin: Please doctor save her .... Will she be alive at least?
Doctor: Even if she will be alive, she might not remember many things.... Let's see ...
Sunghoon sat down on the floor, sweating heavily, hiccups because of continuous tears with blood of y/n all over his shirt ... He was not in a condition to lose y/n....
His father and mother was in a vacation together but y/n was the reason of him to marry so early...
His first love and last love...
He could not even think a life without her .... Then why did he betray her?! He also didn't know the answer....
I don't know why I did kiss that girl
I can't believe that it was me
I am sick of myself
I can't afford to lose my love...
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A week later
Opening her eyes , y/n looked around her... A hospital... Shouldn't I be dead ???
Being frustrated at herself and those people who saved her .... She burst out crying and shouting loudly" Why do u have to save me??!"
Everyone ran towards her room , Jennie hugging her tightly.
Jennie was crying and smiling....
Sunghoon couldn't watch y/n in such conditions....so he was sitting outside... A stone beating very loudly in his heart.
Y/n pulled away from the hug , " Was it necessary? Was it too necessary to save me ? "
Jennie: ask it to Sunghoon* Wiping her cheeks full of tears *
Y/n removed everything that was connected to her , straight out of her room ... Pulling Sunghoon by his collars ... " Why did u save me?! Was it necessary to see me suffer ?! Not me , I can't live like this anymore please...it won't be easy for me ... Please..kill me ..."
That was her last words before she faints into Sunghoon 's hands...
She was not fully recovered as it was just 7 days after the incident..
Nobody knows her condition, her memories, and her feelings if something left .... Y/n looked dead outside.... A lifeless person....
Doctor: She is not at all recovered.... More than being physically hurt , she is mentally hurt so much to the point she doesn't want to be alive..
Jimin: What can we do then?
Jennie: What is her physical condition?
Doctor: Some cracks were there in many parts of her skeleton...but I am still shocked how she walked straight outside till here...
Sunghoon: Will she be ok?
Doctor: Yes it will take time but only if she wants to be alive .... She fainted because of over mental pressure... Please take proper care of ur loved ones...
Sunghoon nodded feeling extremely sorry.
Jimin: When will she wake up?
Doctor: Depends ... And slowly she will realise that she is forgetting things because her brain is tired of holding her worries..
Jennie: W-what will she forget?
Sunghoon: I won't be able to bear if she forgets me
Jennie: It will be better if she forgets u..
Jimin: I hope mom and dad doesn't know about this ..
Sunghoon nodded.
Doctor: Let's just pray for her...
Won't it be better if she forgets about the incident?
Or what if she forgets about her sweet relation with Sunghoon that she had?
What if she remembers everything?
What if she asks for a devorce?
Continue reading the story to find out what happens.