ELEVEN
Lana Del Rey | video games
Words can't fathom all the emotions I'm feeling. First, I'm having to unwillingly depend on a man for probably the rest of my life—I may be pregnant. After so long we made our destination. A mansion that my mom is supposedly living in.
I wish Stassie was here, I need a friends support but I've come all this way with no friends to start, so why change the story now right?
"Ami I have to go settle somethings, but later we will have dinner. I'll see you beautiful. " That's when the car came to a full stop in front of this huge house. I nodded still feeling on edge about our previous conversation.
Reign rubbed my bottom lip with his thumb then giving me a passionate kiss. The door on my side opened on its own, so I began to make my way up to the front door. I took in a deep breath before ringing the bell. I can't help but feel terrified.
The door opened, and there was my mothers head poke out from behind the door, "Amina?" A shocked look masked her face with surprise in her face. A wide smile appeared on my face, as she quickly came from around the door to pull me in for a hug.
"I've missed you so much mom." She cupped my face in her hands kissing both my cheeks in response. As soon I was familiar in her hug I just began to quiet cry. Her face softened with concern changing her expression, she used her thumbs to swipe away my tears.
"Come come," she pulled me in shutting the door behind her, I got to take a look at her place. I heard music playing with low conversations coming from the room on the right, I furrowed my brows looking at my mother. I didn't realise until now that she's dressed in a elegant pearly white gown.
"Mom are you having a party?"
"Uh- honey, you take me in uh surprise. We chat upstairs—," My mother's first language is Portuguese, so hearing her speak so much English is surprising, it has improved so much. I agreed to go upstairs still confused and curious.
We made it upstairs to a open balcony, mom took hold of the railing taking in a deep breathe before facing me with wide closed lip smile. But even that faded once she saw my stoic like face.
"Princesa, are you okay?" Each word came across slow and thorough.
A tear slipped it's way out but my hand followed to clear it, "Y-yes why are you asking?" I fake chuckled.
Mother didn't say anything she just looked me in the eye. This was her way of reading people, she always did it to dad, every time she would just stare at him knowing he breaks. A glare so little but holds so much.
"Seriously I'm okay I'm happy, I have a good job, I have a boy-boyfriend." She gasped at boyfriend giving me a small smile.
"Is that who came to bring you here?"
"Yes, his name is Reign." I looked down playing with my fingers.
"Better than other boy what's the-the name .. Archie." She shook her head with a disapproving look.
"I thought I lost my baby to him, very bad boy." She shook her finger at me while giving me that gentle smile, I sent her one back without saying another word I started to feel ashamed.
"Princesa." She called out, so I looked up at her. She reached out to fix the tiny straps on my dress. "I know when someone is lying to me especially my daughter, you may be going through a lot but when ready you talk to mommy yes?"
Well thanks a lot, instant water works but I nodded anyway as she let me cry on her shoulder.
"Não desejo nada além do melhor para você, Amina." She whispered before kissing me on the forehead.
"Gabriela, I've been looking all over for you." My
Mom flinched at the sudden interruption, and it's my uncle Renaldo. My fathers eldest brother. "Uncle Renaldo? What's going on here?"
I looked over at my mom, she has this look of devastation without saying a word. "Mom?" I started to feel desperate for an answer.
"Anima uh please let me explain for you .. I was lonely going through rough time—,"
"What the fuck! Mom you can't be this stupid." I whispered and it lead into a yell.
Mom looked as if she taken back by my sudden choice of words,"Now Ami—," Renaldo started.
"Only my father called me Ami, and I'm speaking to my mother." They were both silent, my mom nodded off for him to leave us alone on the balcony.
"Amina, no need to act out— this looks bad I know. você sabe que seu pai não era santo.I was unhappy for uh long time princesa we talked about this. It's hard to share this with you. After what happened with Archie, you shut me out no?"
I rolled my eyes, looking off to side. My mother was right, I did shut her out with what was going on with me and my father was far from a saint.
"What is all this, a party?"
She was silent looking at me with a guilty look on her face. She's engaged? So my mother has created a whole life away from me after my father passed away.
I nodded speaking clearly in the language she can properly understand, "Eu tenho muito respeito por você mãe, você merece toda a felicidade do mundo, mas isso é muito para mim agora. tenho que ir, não posso estar aqui, posso voltar em breve. eu te amo."
(I have a lot of respect for you mom, you deserve all the happiness in the world but this is too much. I must go i love you.)
I gave her a hug kissing her cheek, letting myself out before she could pull me back. I slammed the front door shut standing before it, catching myself before my tears of frustration became ugly.
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The sun is beginning to set, I was walking alone with my thoughts. Party people dancing, food and drink vendors selling on the street, music blasting. This is what I remember, the carefree people living young lives no matter the age.
I ended up taking a short cut through an alley way when I over head a couple arguing. I turned another corner and saw the lady with her back against the wall and the man very close to her face. I stopped in my spot to peak around the wall. What he was yelling at her you could tell he was trafficking her.
The girl was shaky and very scared, her arms and legs were badly bruised, she only looks about 18 nevertheless beautiful.
The strange man sent a strong back hand to her face. The poor lady fell hitting the floor holding her cheek, if you saw her efforts trying to get up it would break your heart.
She held her head up and saw me with those wet eyes. Just that quick he dragged her up pulling her into the opposite direction, but not before slightly turning around to glance at me once more.
Not a single tear when the maniac hit her, she definitely has a long story. I gripped at my chest walking back where I came from but that instantly stopped when I ran into a hard chest.
I looked up seeing none other than Reign, how did he find me? The flames that light in his blue eyes, made me cower not knowing what he's thinking. The darkness he carried with him so sinister it's intimidating.
"You like to wonder alone Amina?"
"I-I just went for a walk." I whispered terrified.
"Come, let's go for a drive." He held out his hand for me to take, I was hesitating something I forgot he hates. He inwardly smirked.
"P-please don't hurt me Reign." He ignored me as I shakily put my hand in his. He lead me to a black sleek sports car, he opened my door letting me in before sitting in the drivers seat pulling off.
A tear made it's way down my cheek, "R-Reign you don't understand," he put his finger on his lips silencing me without making the sound. He places his hand on my upper thigh gripping it. I looked ahead afraid as he raced through these Rio streets.
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