(written from Bucks perspective)
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Bobby added Buck
Bobby added Eddie
Bobby added Hen
Bobby added Chim
Bobby added Ravi
Bobby added Albert
Bobby added Capt. Strand
Capt. Strand added Marjan
Capt. Strand added Paul
Capt. Strand added Mateo
Capt. Strand added TK.
Capt. Strand added Judd.
Buck:
wtf is this Bobby..
Bobby:
What does it look like kid.
And watch your language!
Buck:
harsh
Eddie:
was it though?
Capt. Strand:
Kids, we thought it was time for you all to get in touch!
Have fun!
Don't do anything stupid, looking at you TK and Buck.
TK:
Dad!
Buck:
Captain Strand!
Capt. Strand is now offline.
Bobby is now offline.
Buck:
do u reckon im allowed to change my name?
TK:
probably?
marjan is now online.
paul is now online.
Paul:
do it. i dare u.
Buck:
y am i scared..
Paul:
be scared.
pussy.
Marjan:
PAUL!
what did bucky do to u?
Buck:
bucky?
Marjan:
get used to it.
Eddie:
that's what u should change ur name to buck!!
Paul:
do it.
bucky.
Marjan:
seriously paul calm down.
buck changed name to bucky🤷🏼♀️
bucky🤷🏼♀️:
happy?
Marjan:
very.
Eddie:
love it buck :)
TK:
y the emoji tho?
Paul:
shut ur cock sucking mouth.
TK.
Bucky🤷🏼♀️:
who hurt u?
Paul:
some girl at the grocery store..
me n her were 'hitting it off' n the when i told her i was trans she flipped out.
called me a bunch of names.
Bucky🤷🏼♀️:
need me to punch her?
Paul:
u would do that?
Bucky🤷🏼♀️:
u managed to scare me
it's respect 🫡
Eddie:
everything scares u buck..
Paul:
thanks anyways buck
Bucky🤷🏼♀️:
first not everything scares me
second ur welcome paul
Eddie:
the moth??
TK:
what ab a moth?
Bucky🤷🏼♀️:
don't even diaz.
Eddie:
me n buck were in the shower the other day n a moth flew in buck got scared screamed like a girl and fell over in the tub.
:)
Marjan:
u guys were in the shower together?!
Bucky🤷🏼♀️:
that's the part u focus on!?
TK:
u owe me 10 dollars paul, marjan, @judd, @mateo.
Eddie:
u guys bet on us?
TK:
stfu <3
Mateo is now online.
Judd is now online.
Eddie is now offline.
Mateo:
hey?
Bucky🤷🏼♀️:
hey!
our dads set this up.
TK:
bobbys ur dad?
Bucky🤷🏼♀️:
he might as well be
Judd:
hey dumbass
Bucky🤷🏼♀️:
hey judd :)
TK:
seriously tho r u ok paul?
Paul:
not rlly.
ill see u guys later
paul is now offline
Mateo:
i hope he's ok..
Bucky🤷🏼♀️:
ill come down there myself to beat that girl up if he isnt
Judd:
why do you care so much dumbass?
Bucky🤷🏼♀️:
the way he was treated was the way my parents treated me when i came out
trust me
it's not fun to be by urself when that happens
Marjan:
shit bucky..
ru ok?
TK:
yh man ru ok?
Bucky🤷🏼♀️:
honestly?
Judd:
honestly.
Marjan:
ru ab to reveal that ur ab to jump off a building or smthing?
Judd:
be quiet Marjan.
Marjan:
sorry buck.
ru ok?
Bucky🤷🏼♀️:
i have no idea
TK:
text me.
now.
private messages
TK - Buck
TK:
right come on then.
spill.
Buck:
jst lonely ig
i dont even know anymore
TK:
u know i care ab u right?
dont do anything stupid.
i mean it.
Buck:
yh man ik
i wont dont anything stupid
promise
TK:
i refuse to loose u..
Buck:
ur not gonna loose me
TK:
i better not
dumbass
Buck:
love u too
Buck is now offline.
I sent before shutting off my phone and placing it on my chest, looking up at my ceiling. I really didn't know if I was gonna be ok or not, just wanted to worry about Paul for the moment. I could feel and see my phone blowing up with messages from different people.
Judd:
hey dumbass
seriously
dont do anything stupid
TK:
buck?
pls be safe.
ill text u later man
Eddie🫶🏼:
TK texted me.
need me to come over for a bit?
No, I want to be alone. Is what I wanted to say but instead I just ignored it, not having much energy to respond anyways. I would see Eddie at work tomorrow and I could always text TK later if I needed too or wanted too.
I don't know what was going on with me lately, I was always tired and never had much energy for anything, my razor was becoming more appealing in different ways, my anxiety levels and sadness levels were always up a height and my body was starting to fail me as well. My eye bags sagging and my back hunched and never feeling hungry no more.
I spent a lot of time in bed and barely showered, the other day Eddie had to practically force me into the shower.
I don't deserve him.
He washed my hair and shaved my beard for me without complaining once, him and Chris were great but I still felt empty, like I was numb and couldn't stop the pain from intruding.
My therapist says that I'm going through something called 'a depressive episode', like I was having one of them. She likes to say that my personal feelings are like a rollercoaster, heightened by my ADHD which wasn't nice. I didn't like feeling like this and I wish I had something to stop these feeling but I don't and I can't stop them, it's natures course I guess.
I forced myself out of bed, chucking my phone behind me as I walked down the stairs and grabbed my shoes, heading straight for the living room. I put my converse on, stood up straight and grabbed my phone again, heading out the door to go grocery shopping even though I wasn't going to eat much of it.
~~time skip~~
30 minutes later and a whole hell of a lot of shopping I was back home, feeling a lot more tired and stressed out then I was before I went out. I practically kicked my door down and put the bags of the kitchen counter, not bothering to unpack them just yet because something caught my eye.
Eddie and Christopher.
"I texted you know." Eddie said, keeping his gaze on the tv.
"Didn't see it, sorry." I mumble, heading over to couch and sitting beside them both. Eddie grabbed my hand, giving it a quick squeeze before he let it go.
My phone continued buzzing and I couldn't deal with it anymore.
Bucky🤷🏼♀️:
guys for once in ur lives
stfu
pls n thank u
Marjan:
what's up w u?
Bucky🤷🏼♀️:
nothing
i'm having a quiet nice night in w my family.
Marjan:
awwweeee
u acc have feelings
TK:
who r u w
Bucky🤷🏼♀️:
eddie n chris
so im gonna go
see u guys later
bucky🤷🏼♀️ is now offline.