I want to teach you how forever feels like - TS
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Maaga akong nag-ayos ng gagamitin para sa magiging set up namin. Dahil susunduin ko pa siya mamaya sa kaniyang office. Sana lang ay hindi siya bad trip dahil feeling ko makaka-apekto ang mood niya sa magiging dinner mamaya. Sana naman ay malakas pa ako kay Lord.
Tipong mga dasal na lang ang alalay ko at pabor ng langit kung bakit pumapayag siyang ligawan ko. I know that she is now beginning to feel comfortable with me. Pero paano kung nasasanay na lang siya sa‘kin?
Na kaya lang siya kumportable ay dahil wala naman siyang choice?
Pero ayokong pangunahan ako ng mga ganitong kaisipan lalo't plano kong i-treat siya dahil lately alam kong mas madami ang naging work loads niya. Since after this week ay finals na namin.
Wala namang bumagsak sa block namin sa kaniya. Yung mga Accountancy Students lang ang naka-tangggap ng hagupit ng kaniyang kalupitan. HAHAHAHAHA
Pero naawa din naman ako sa mga may bagsak at kailangan mag-comply sa kaniya. Kasalanan din naman kasi nila, lagi silang absent. Sa galing mag-turo ni Attorney kahit hindi mo maintindihan yung lesson kapag naituro niya na magiging malinaw pa kaysa sa future mo.
Hindi ko siya ni-compliment kasi gusto ko ng plus points. It is the truth though. She is always regarded as one of the most important part of the faculty. She is brilliant and super professional.
At parang kinulang ata ang dasal natin. Dahil nag-text si boss na sa office niya na lang daw ko siya intayin. And here she is...
In her usual authoritative aura. wearing beautifully her designer brown slacks, white button down long- sleeve and her classic blazer.
Yes, kinaganda niya yung blazer.
The blazer is just sitting on top of her shoulder while wearing her RBF today. Well, sanay na naman ako sa RBF niya pero parang matamlay na version 'to? Did something happen?
Agad naman nitong ibinaba ang gamit sa kaniyang table at bumaling sa akin.
“Need a hug?” Biro ko dito noong tumayo na ako sa pagkaka-upo matapos niyang bumaling sa'kin.
Nagulat naman ako noong pumasok ito sa naka-bukas kong mga braso at agad na lumapit.
“Badly,” She whispered. And I melted. She rarely have this melt down or vulnerable moments. And I am happy that she is allowing me to see her like this.
Hinayaan ko lang siyang naka-yakap habang marahan kong hinahagod ang likod nito. Hindi naman ako nag-lakas loob na kintalan siya ng halik sa ulo dahil wala naman akong consent at baka isipin niya pang way ko lang ito para i-take advantage ang sitwasyon.
“Do you feel better now?” I asked softly when she tilted her head to meet my gaze. Tumango lang siya at umalis sa pagkaka-yakap.
“Thank you.” She said softly.
“Always, Attorney.” I smiled at her at nag-iwas lang siya ng tingin sa'kin. Gagi, nahiya na din ako.
Tumikhim ito upang basagin ang awkward na katahimikan.
“Let's go?” Aya ko dito. Tumango lang ito bago nag-ayos ng kaniyang gamit. Nag-presinta naman akong ako na ang magdadala. Hindi na naman siya nakipagtalo pa tungkol sa kaniyang mga gamit.
Nauna itong lumabas ng kaniyang opisina habang kasunod naman ako nito na bitbit ang kaniyang gamit. Lahat ata nang nakakita sa kaniya sa hallway ay humanga at hinabol pa siya nang malagkit na tingin noong makalagpas siya. Goddess problems.
Kahit ako lilingon din sa kaniya kung ako yung madadaanan. Ang ilan naman ay mga nahihiya at halatang crush na crush siya ngunit nagawang bumati. Kung noon ay lumalampas lang ito ngayon ay natuto na ang kampon ni Lucifer na tumango.
Kahit na nanliligaw na ako, hindi pa rin mawawala yung nickname niyang 'yon. Kahit mga seniors at mga alumni kilala siyang anak ni satanas dahil ang higpit daw at laging feeling nila nasa huling paghuhukom palagi tuwing klase niya. Pero wala tayong magagawa, maganda at matalino e.
Full package, malala.
Minsan iniisip ko talaga na baka tayo talaga ang trial and error ni Lord.
Gumawa ba naman nang ganiyan kaganda tapos nag-iisa lang?
Minsan nakakatampo na talaga si Lord.
Mabilis lang din namin narating ang parking lot. I opened the door of the shotgun seat for her. She murmured her quick thanks while I just gave her a warm smile.
Nagulat naman siya nang makita niya ang favorite arrangement niya ng bulaklak.
She fancy blue roses kaya ganun ang pinaayos kong bulaklak.
Bagay sa kaniya yung bouquet. Parehas silang maganda. Lord, ibalato mo na 'to sa'kin. I promise, I will treat her right. I will make her the happiest and loved woman to ever exist.
“And you still wrote a card huh?” She said with amusement lacing her tone. Natawa na lang din ako dahil bigla akong nahiya sa isinulat ko sa card.
Atty,
You are one of the reasons why I kept hustling harder to deserve you. I hope you know that whatever I am working on, I will make sure it is leading towards you. Thank you for giving me a chance to offer my sincerest affection.
With Love, Ruelle.
Nakita ko naman ang pagsilay ng ngiti nito. Ang ganda niya palagi.
“You are such a cheesy potato. But thanks!” Aniya bago ako balingan at bigyan nang maliit na ngiti.
And I love seeing her smile. Her happiness is always a good sight. Kahit hindi pa ako ang dahilan. I will always make a way even if it means allowing her to be happy with someone else. I already oath it to heaven that I will let her be.
“Where are we going?” She asked while rolling down the window. Allowing the air to blow her hair.
Feeling ko bayad din yung hangin. Kasi kapag iba sabog na sabog ang buhok bakit sa kaniya magandang messy? Nasaan ang hustisya dito?
“Secret nga, Attorney. Later na lang, okay?” Sagot ko naman dito.
I saw how she just rolled her eyes in annoyance. Oo nga pala she is really impatient when she is asking something.
Napa-iling na lang ako at nagpigil ng aking ngiti. She is just so adorable without doing anything.
Mabilis naman kaming nakarating ng airport. At yung magandang Attorney ayun nakatulog na dahil ang traffic. Pero sakto lang naman ang dating namin sa reservation.
Inayos ko pa ang pagkakahiga niya sa shotgun seat saka tinabingan ng blanket para hindi maabala ang kaniyang tulog.
Ang ganda e.
Her soft features from the shape of her face. She is such a baby. Her cupid voluptuous lips, the long lashes that frame her drowning eyes, Her defined cheeks bones. Creating a fierce but soft highlights for her face. And her chin that harmonize in her features.
Talagang perfect na gawa ng Diyos.
I decided to remove her seatbelt before tapping her arm to wake her up. She looks so soft right now.
“Hey, Gorgeous!” I whispered while gently tapping her cheeks.
“Hmm?” She hummed while slowly opening her eyes. Kainis, ang ganda.
“We are here,” While she closed her eyes again and stretch like cute kitten before opening her eyes again.
“Let's go, Dummy.” Aya naman nito at back to kasungitan default mode.
Napa-iling na lang ako habang inilalayan siya makababa.
“Ready na Young Miss!” Bati sa'kin ni Manong Arvin.
“Thank you, Kuya!” Bati ko naman. Nakita ko din ang pagtulala ni Kuya Arvin sa kasama ko. Gayundin ang ibang staff dito.
I mean, nagulat ata sila kung bakit may kasama akong diwata dito.
“S-siya po ba ang kasama ni Young Miss?” Tanong ni Kuya Arvin. Tumango lang ako.
“Hi, Ma'am! Good Evening po! Welcome to Constantine's Dome.”
“Good Evening din po and Thank you.” Bati naman ni Attorney na bahagyang ngumiti kay Manong Arvin. Ayun natulala ulit. I mean, understandable talaga. Bigla ka ba namang ngitian ng diwata. Kahit sino malulutang don.
“Enjoy kayo, Rue. Ingat! Sasabihinan ko ang Ate Louise mo na nandito kayo.” Ani ni Manong at nag-paalam na.
“Anong ginagawa natin dito?” Tanong nito na ngayon ay tapos na luminga-linga sa paligid.
“Sasakay tayo sa Private Plane tapos itatapon kita sa ere. Tapos palalabasin kong aksidente lang lahat para hindi kana nila makita.” Gagong sagot ko dito. Nawala naman ang kulay sa mukha nito at nakita ko ang pag-urong. Natakot talaga ang baby na 'yan.
Kumawala na talaga ang tawa kong kanina ko pa pinipigilan. At doon niya nakita na pinag-ttripan ko siya kaya inulan ako ng hampas at batok.
“Nakaka-inis ka talaga!” Angil nito.
“Oh, tama na. Tara na, Miss!” Akay ko dito habang inaalo. Iginaya ko siya sa Private Plane na gagamitin namin.
Agad ko namang inaya siya na sumakay.
“Tayo lang ba talaga?” Tanong nito na ngayon ay parang batang tinitignan ang pindutan ng eroplano.
“Yes, Miss. Ako ang Driver mo.” Saad ko naman dito. Rumehistro ang takot sa kaniya, malamang dinibdib niya ang biro ko kanina.
I immediately hold her hand.
“I was just messing earlier. I never plan anything that will cause a harm or harm you in any way possible. You are my biggest concern here. Whatever I do is for you. And I am a licensed pilot. If you don't believe me, I have my wallet here. Nandito yung I.D ko.” I said gently while caressing the back of her hand.
Agad ko naman kinuha ang wallet ko at iniabot sa kaniya.
“So, you are really a pilot and an engineer. What else I should know about you?” She said lightly. At mukhang okay na at hindi na natatakot.
“That I am your father's favorite playmate. And your mother's favorite shopping buddy?” I replied while giving her a grin. Nakita ko naman ang pagkawala nang mahinang tawa nito.
Gosh, I really love seeing her laugh like that. Ang ganda sobra.
“Edi ikaw na ang favorite!” Ani naman nito na tila nagseselos dahil only child siya. At lumaki siyang walang kahati sa atensyon ng kaniyang magulang.
“Pero alam mo ikaw lang ang gusto ko na maging favorite ako. I don't care if I am not someone's favorite. But I yearn to be your favorite. I will always yearn for your favor. Ikaw na 'yan e.” Saad ko dito at nakita ko naman ang pag-iwas nito ng tingin.
“And you are really chessy, you know that?” Pag-iiba nito ng topic.
“Ikaw may kasalanan nito. Ang angas-angas ko. Hindi ko na nga kailangan manligaw dahil sila na ang nag-aapply. Boyfriend or Girlfriend you name it, sila ang napila.” Reklamo ko.
“Then just choose whoever is applying. I don't care. You can stop this bullshit, no one forced you anyway.” Masungit na sagot naman nito.
“Edi mag-apply kana.” Sagot ko naman nito na nagpalingon sa gawi ko. Nakita ko ang inis niya. Gosh, the baby is really annoyed.
“Who do you think you are huh? You are full of yourself. God! I don't even know why I came here.” Frustrated na ani nito.
“Biro lang, Attorney. But I really want to be yours.” I said before finally opening the engine.
“Attorney. Please secure your headphone. And seatbelt. I am going to operate now.” I instructed. At mabilis naman siyang sumunod.
“This Captain Illyich Ruelle Constantine flying Aircraft 112703. We are flying from Manila to Korea. We are expected to travel approximately 3hrs and 35 minutes and land safely to Incheon International Airport.” I said professionally while moving the yoke.
Habang abala naman ang kasama ko na tignan ang pag-take off namin.
“You really know how to fly a plane.” Manghang wika nito. Na ayaw pa talagang maniwala sa nakita niyang lisensya sa wallet ko.
“I got it two years ago. It was one the things I love. I usually fly a plane wherever I want to escape from everything. And it brings you immense pleasure being up here.” I replied while smiling at the thought.. I love music at all. I love composing and playing. But sometimes, you need some sweet escape and that's how I find flying a plane.
I don't have any interest with as a kid. I know we have a private airport and aircrafts. But I pay no mind to those. Because I love music. And sharing my escape to her is like giving a vulnerable part of me. Revealing an Achilles part that she could slash any time or anywhere she wants.
“What about you, Attorney?” Tanong ko naman dito habang hindi pa rin iniaalis ang tingin sa una.
“I love music too and arts.. If I wasn't an Attorney. I would be an Art Teacher.” She shared warmly while showing her sweet smile. I mean, I know she would be a great teacher. Ngayon pa nga lang ang galing niya na as a Professor. Art Teacher pa kaya.
“That's why you decided to took some units in able to teach?” Tanong ko dito.
“Nope. It wasn't planned that way. I wanna teach toddlers not grown-ups." She replied with slight furrowed in her brows.
“Are you happy teaching tho?” Tanong ko naman.
“Yep. But I still want to teach Law in Prestigious University like Massachusetts or Harvard.” She whispered with hopeful smile.
I really love her smile. It's feels like home. Seeing her smile makes you feel like you are home.
Nakalipas ang ilang oras at nakatulog na rin si Sungit. She is wrapped in blanky and pillow.
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Narating namin nang maayos ang Incheon International Airport. Agad naman akobg nag-ayos na ng gamit sa cockpit bago siya gisingin.
“We are here, Attorney.” Tawag ko dito habang marahan na hinaplos ang pisngi nito.
“Hmm, Korea?” Groggy na tanong nito
“Yes, love.” I replied while looking at her angelic features.
“Hmm okay, love." Antok pa na sagot nito.