HAYUN'S POV :
the following Monday
We still hadn't talked, he sent me 4 messages yesterday but I still haven't read the one from Thursday night that he sent previously
Eunji and Yoon have been helping me get my mind off things. Yoon was able to go straight to Eunji's house with us on Friday, she doesn't have the best relationship with her parents so she just sent them a quick message and assumed they would say yes.
Thankfully, I always have a spare uniform in Eunji's room. Just by chance, how come?
Last year, we used to have sleepovers on Fridays and I would just keep my uniform at Eunji's house. Now it's just a spare.
She lives 2 roads away from school, so we can leave a lot later than I usually do with Jungwon. But Yoon had to get something from her house so we left a little early.
We arrived at school 7:47am, usually me and Jungwon arrive at 7:55. Only Sunoo and Jay were in their usual places, while the rest were yet to arrive.
The three of us quietly said good morning and sat down. We agreed that I would sit next to Eunji today and Yoon would sit next to Ni-ki like usual. Then tomorrow Yoon will sit next to me and Eunji will sit with Jake like usual. Depending on how long it takes me to.. make up with Jungwon they'll continue to alternate
While my two friends chatted for a little bit, I put in my AirPods and listened to some music. I laid my head onto my arms for a.. doable pillow for now and closed my eyes. Just to rest.
The door slid open and three people approached us from behind
"Did you guys catch up on your sleep over the weekend?" Ni-ki asked (presumably) Yoon
"Me and Hayun both stayed over a Eunji's, do you think we slept?" Yoon replied, rolling her eyes
"So that's where she was.." I heard someone mumble, Jungwon of course
I still need time to think it through.
"Anyways, please don't interact with us" Eunji plainly said, the three took their seats and did as she asked.
The first two classes were boring as always, Jungwon would usually pass notes with me or we would play games. But, I'm not next to him anymore.
He didn't try to talk to me during the passing periods. Not like I care. I don't care.
LUNCH :
Us seven girls got up from our seats and headed to the cafeteria, we sat back at our original table. Like we used to.
Everything was going smoothly today, we just caught up on what we did over the weekend and reminisced about last week.
When we headed back to our homeroom I noticed a cup on my desk, that's unusual. I don't remember leaving a drink here.
I soon noticed a post it note was on the lid of the cup
'Please talk to me - y.jw'
Seeing him enter the classroom, I scribbled down a 'no' before scrunching up the paper and dropping it on his desk when he got there
He bought me hot chocolate from the canteen, he knows it's my favourite. But I'm not willing to give in.
After much inner conflict with myself, I handed it over to Yoon. And she drank it practically all I one go, that's normal right?
During passing time, everyone had to go get their Science textbooks from their lockers so we all left. I walked with Chae, her locker was only a few down from mine thankfully.
While I was gathering my heavy textbooks, a familiar figure leaning against the one next to me
"Yun, please, I need to talk to you- stop ghosting me" he pleaded to me, and I froze
"You can't call me Yun when you know what you've done, I know we aren't dating but I'm sure by now you know I like you. Yang Jungwon, I just don't understand you. One day you're holding my hand and drinking my slushie and the next you're kissing some girl? you're driving me insane. You're all that I think about." I vented to him, once I was done I slammed my locker door shut and stormed off so he wouldn't follow me and try to talk to me
I feel like half of the things I just said didn't make sense, but I hope I got my point across to him.
It was the last class of the day, I was tired. I stacked up my textbooks and slept for a little bit, hoping this nightmare would just go away.
When we were dismissed from class, we took off immediately, with Jungwon, Ni-ki and Jake following behind us quickly.
"Hayun! Please just let me explain.." Jungwon held onto my shoulder and I snapped myself around
"I need time Jungwon, I need time to process everything, give me time." I cold heartedly replied to the boy, brushing his hand off me
I could tell he was hurt.
His eyes were even darker than they were on Friday, and he looked sort of lifeless. His eyes said it all. This boba eyes.
I wish I could hug him right now.
Before I bursted our into tears at that very moment, Eunji guided us out of school, back to her house.
FRIDAY :
Everyday, this boy has never failed to try to talk to me. He's given me chocolate milks every day (after hearing me complain it's too hot for hot chocolates now) at my desk and he even tried to talk to me at training
We were about to leave our classroom to head to the cafeteria but Heeseung and Sunghoon stopped us
"Hayun, please just let me explain to you what happened last Friday.." Jungwon called out to me as he approached me
"I think I know what happened last Friday." I bluntly replied, trying to push past Heeseung. But he wouldn't let me.
"No- you don't"
"I think I know damn well what happened. You told Bareum about my dad, knowing I didn't want it to get out. And then you fell in love with her and kissed her at the dance"
"What? That's not true!" He argued, in a slightly angry tone
"I need air" I mumbled, shoving Heeseung onto the desk next to the door and running out of the classroom
Why can't everyone just go away? It's like a nightmare come true.
DURING THE NIGHT :
I sat up from my bed, resting my head on my hand. Another headache.
Eunji has two pull out beds from her own, where me and Yoon are sleeping.
I looked over to Eunji who was fast asleep, when I looked over at Yoon I saw her silently sleeping with her airpods in, I could faintly hear the music that was playing.
I checked my phone and it was 2:54am
Lately I've just been getting no sleep, and no, it's not the fact that Eunji's bed is uncomfortable because it's actually really comfy. But it's rather that, he's been on my mind
That moment has been replaying in my head still
The way they locked lips, they looked so passionate even though I was so far away.
I can't believe he would do this
After- god. Everything?
I told him everything, things I haven't even told Eunji and Yoon.
I need paracetamol or something, just to get rid of this pain in my head.
I creeped downstairs into Eunji's kitchen, and saw the island light was on and a figure sat on one of the chairs. Her brother was sat there with a small packet and some kind of herbal tea?
"You alright Hayun?" He asked me as I poured myself some water into a glass
"Yeah- I just can't sleep that's all, I have this really bad headache" I replied
"Here have these, they're insomnia tablets" Mingyu slid the packet over to me, I quickly examined the contents and opened the bag
"Thanks Mingyu, how's University?" I asked him after taking the tablet
"It's my last year already, crazy isn't it?" He chuckled to himself, "aren't you and Eunji in your last year of high school?"
"Yeah, we are" I replied, sitting on the chair next to him
"Have you applied to any universities yet?" He asked me and I nodded slightly
"I applied to a few but I don't think I'll go"
"What do you mean by that?" He raised an eyebrow at me
"I kind of.. wanna be a k-pop idol— god that's so embarrassing to say, or I want to be a professional figure skater with my friend Sunghoon"
"Oh yeah I remember seeing you guys perform on TV a couple months ago, it was amazing" Mingyu recalled
"Oh- thank you.."
"Is something wrong? You seem to be anxious or stressed about something"
"It's- nothing." I mumbled a reply
"Boy troubles?"
"How did you know"
"I can read people like a book, plus back in high school there's always something going on with someone isn't there"
"There's this boy-.."
"I knew it"
"And I like him, and I thought he liked me back, until I saw him kissing another girl at the dance that was held during our residential trip last week" I explained and he listened intently
"Well.. who's the girl he was kissing?"
"The girl that found out my dad died and told people about it without me knowing"
"Girls at your school are ruthless these days- ouch" Mingyu commented and I nodded in agreement
"I think what throws me off the most is that.. we were about to kiss until she pulled him away 'to talk' and when I went outside I saw them" Mingyu gasped at what I just added
"Do you know if she kissed him.. or if he kissed her?" Mingyu interrogated me
"I have no idea, I saw them kissing and then I couldn't really see much as my eyes were blurry from the tears in my eyes"
"Has he tried to talk to you?"
"The day after he tried to get me to talk to him in the cafeteria but instead he managed to spill my cereal all over me"
"That made it worse didnt it"
"Of course it did"
"Then at school he's tried talking to me and he leaves me stuff at my desk but I just ignore it. He's messaged me loads but I haven't opened that either"
"Maybe you should just talk it out with him"
"Maybe I should but, I don't know I'm scared.."
Me and Mingyu continued to talk for a little while, he gives great advice fyi, until I started to feel sleepy and I went back to my bed in Eunji's room