CHAPTER EIGHT- PART TWO/TWO
People strive to make it seem if a mistake never occurred after one has been made. They attempt to excuse the incorrect condition in an effort to cover it up, which results in more errors. Sometimes, they look for someone to validate their opinion even if it is wrong. And there are people who become one sided because they think that's what really happened.
The behaviors made after the initial error frequently create more harm to relationships whether they be with a romantic partner or a family member and may produce a lack of trust and honesty. I want to emphasize once more that this holds true for both intimate and professional relationships. The more you hold on to the things that make you suffer, the more you will be hurt. Maybe one day, I'll suddenly explode because of my emotions and I won't be able to control myself.
The majority of the time, people are charged not for the original offense but for trying to cover it up by lying or having a total denial of what happened and the errors that were made. Naturally, when a mistake is made, there is an option. . . Admitting the error, taking the necessary corrective action, and offering an apology to individuals who were negatively impacted make more sense. If one has the fortitude to recognize their mistakes, mistakes are always pardonable. That is, there is strength in appropriately owning up to a mistake.
Accepting personal responsibility and taking ownership of your own actions, mistakes, and consequences can prevent a great deal of stress and pain, and you won't be able to gain others' or even your own respect until you accept responsibility for your failures and mistakes. There can be several benefits for both the individual and the organization when a mistake is appropriately admitted, as opposed to trying to hide it.
We all make mistakes in life, I mean afterall, we are human beings and not one of us are perfect, but when you can't own the mistakes you've made that's when you have issues that you will have to work through. . . all I'm saying is just own the mistakes you have made and strive to be a better version of you. Kailangan tayo magising sa katotoohanan. No one's perfect except god. Kailangan rin na'tin tignan ang mga tao na nasa nakapaligid sa atin kung totoo bang kilala mo na silang lubos? Kung alam mo ang tunay na ugali nila? Tinuturing ka ba talaga nilang kaibigan o kilala lang. . .
Ikaw lang makakaalam because we have different perspectives our lives.
"Catherine. Catherine." I heard his soft voice while still closing my eyes.
Kerson was shaking me to wake me up."Cath. We're here."
"Wake up. Wake up na po."
slowly opened my eyes but I saw a man in front of me who was very fragrant and handsome. When I finally opened my eyes, I saw Kerson above me smiling. His smile was so sweet that it looked like chocolate.
"Hi." Kerson greeted me. He also waved his hands.
"Hi?" I replied.
Tinanggal niya ang pagka-seatbelt ng kaniyang upuan at sumunod naman ito lumapit sa akin upang tanggalin niya rin ngunit pinipigilan ko ito.
"Ako na. I can handle this." I smiled.
He smiled at me too. Lumayo naman ito kaunti sa akin.
"How's your sleep poo?" He asked with soft monotone.
"Okay lang naman. I guess, napasarap ang tulog ko." I explained. "I'm sorry."
"It's okay. At least you rested well. I'm okay there." He sincerely smiled.
How many hours did I sleep? Aren't I ugly when I sleep? I wish I was beautiful. Shame on Kerson if such a scene happens.
"Catherine, fix yourself na."
Pagkatapos niyang sabihin iyon ay dali dali ako tumayo sa pagkakahiga. Kumuha akong hairbrush upang suklayan ang buhok ngunit may isang kamay na tila bang pinipigilan ako.
"Turn your back, I will brush it. I'll take care of it."
I just smiled at him. Before Kerson started fixing my hair, I first took my bag that was in the backseat to fix it and got some hair ties. I took the mirror inside the pounch to look at my whole face.
"Habang inaayos mo ang buhok 'ko, magaayos na ako ng mukha." Ani ko habang nakatingin ako sa salamin.
"Copy po." He said. "I'm focusing here to make your hair ponytail look good."
I frowned with a sweet smile. Hindi ko maiwasan hindi matuwa dahil sa pinanggagawa niya. He's trying his best para maganda ang outcome ng pagkatali ko.
"Wait lang, magreretouch na ako." I said. Tinignan ko si Kerson mula sa salamin upang tignan kung ano na ang nagagawa niya.
"Go retouch. Eventhough you doesn't look like you need it becauae you're fucking gorgeous naman."
But he seems like he can do it well. Kerson bites his lip whenever he doesn't get what he wants. I just laughed because he was really very passionate.
Ilan minuto rin ang tinagal na 'min rito sa loob ng van para makapagayos lang ako. Nang matapos na ako, bigla ito sumigaw na may halong kasiyahan.
"Yes! I'm done!" Sabi nito habang tuwang tuwa ito. "I made it! Turns out the ponytail hair style I arranged is perfect for you. you look so beautiful today, woman."
"Ngayon lang?"
He chuckled. "I mean. . . You look so gorgeous not just today, not just yesterday, not even last night, you look beautiful every day, hour by hour, and minute by minute. Why you so fucking beautiful, ah?!"
"Nakakagigil ang ganda mo!" He added. "Come here, let me kiss you as a reward."
"Gago! Nambola ka pa." Nahihiyang tawa ko. Lalapit na sana siya para halikan ako pero itinaas ko kaagad ang kanan kamao ko.
"Anong kiss ka d'yan! Suntok want mo? Libre lang."
He winked at me. Nagulat ako sa ginawa niya kaya napasuntok ako braso. Napangiwi si Kerson kaya tumawa na lang ako.
"Let's go?"
Tinaas ko ang isang kilay ko sa kaniya. "Let's g!"
We got out of the van and started walking towards their door. Actually, it only takes a short walk to get to the house it refers to. The house is not small and big but this house is very beautiful. Simple but beautiful. It was very clean all around, it seemed like they hired a helper to clean, but they didn't have a helper. They are the only ones living there.
Kerson knocked several times but after a few moments, someone opened the door with a towel ready to take a bath. My eyes widen because of the body I see. Kerson quickly looked at me and then he covered both of my eyes and turned me back so that I could not see.
Nanlaki ang mga mata ko dahil sa gulat. "Kerson, ano ba! Alisin mo ang kamay mo, wala ako nakikita, tangina mo!"
"Fuck. . . I just want to talk to someone." It was a cold response.
"And you really want to remove my hand covering your eyes?! What, so you can see his body?" His voice was tinged with annoyance. "No way! I can't agree. How lucky you are. I can be naked in front of you but your eyes should only be looking at my body."
"Nakita ko na lahat 'yan, Kerson." I whispered.
"Fuck. Mamaya ka sa akin, woman."
"Lima!" He only called one more time but Kerson's voice was serious. Seems angry. "Go to your room and get dressed! I might not be able to tell you, I will really break you. Umayos ka!"
"Okay, boss. Sorry naman. Galit agad." Natatawang sabi ng kaibigan niya.
Pilit ko inaalis ang kamay nito ngunit sobrang lakas niya kaya ang tanging nagawa ko ay hayaan na lang siya. Unti unti na niya ito niluluwagan ang kamay nito mula sa pagkakatakpan nito sa mata ko.
"Come in, Cath." Pinauna niya akong pinapasok sa bahay nila.
Pinaikot ang paningin ko rito sa bahay. Their equipment is very well organized. There are paintings hanging on the wall and vases placed on the dividers. These houses are very refreshing to look at. When I looked to my left, someone came out from outside without clothes but wearing a brown apron. He was still carrying a bowl of food. It looks like he cooked it.
"Oh. . ." Gulat na gulat ang lalaking naka-apron. "Mga pars, may dinala si Zack-ina!"
"Fuck." Napatampal na lang sa noo si Kerson.
Unti-unti nagsisilabasan ang mga kaibigan ni Kerson. Ang nakatapis na tuwalya kanina ay nakabihis na ito. Someone came out of the room on the right side, one of them was still carrying his cell phone, looking like he was playing. The other one is still carrying a broom and is only wearing boxer shorts.
Wala naman bakat. Hayst.
May biglang dumaan na kinagulat ko nang papunta na sana ito sa kusina ngunit napatigil ito sa paglalakad nang tumingin ito sa gawi ko.
Lumapit ito sa gawi namin at ngumiti ito na napakalapad. Ang angas niya. She was the only girl I saw here. She quickly hugged me even though we didn't know each other.
"Hi!" Bati nang babae.
Nang kumawala na ito sa yakap ay siya naman ang nagpakilala sa sarili nito.
"I'm Samantha Charm Perez." Inilahad niya ang kamay nito.
Tumingin ako sa paligid pero sobrang gulat na gulat sila sa nakikita nila.
I smiled at her. "Ly- Catherine."
"Excuse me, that's my guest, maybe you guys want to introduce yourself?" He frowned at them.
Pagkasabi na pagkasabi ni Kerson ay nagsiunahan silang pumunta sa harapan ko.
"My name is Christian Paolo Salazar, I'm the one who played Electric Guitar." Pagpapakilala naman na may dalang cellphone. Ito ang sinasabi kong mukhang naglalaro kanina.
"Gago, parang highschool lang, ah, Salsal!" Natutuwang ani Samantha sa kaniya.
Halos magkasabay lumabas ang nakatapis na tuwalya kanina at nakaboxer, sa pareha na kwarto pa lumabas.
"I'm Liam Marco Ocampo. Naggi-gitara ako. Baka gusto mo magpagitara sa akin?" He smirked playfully. Siya naman ang nakatapis kanina. 'Yung nagbukas nang pinto kanina.
"Nakita mo na bang nabasag ang gitara mo? Baka gusto mo rin mabasag ang mukha mo." He said with a slang tone.
"Boom! Tanga ka, Lima. Wala ka pala, pre!" Ani naman nang nakaboxer short kanina. "By the way, I'm Nick Jefferson Gonzales, I am drummer in this group."
"Nick nga ang palangan, pero mukha siyang dick." Ganti naman ni Liam Marco.
"I'm Catherine. Nice to meet you, guys!" Nahihiyang bati ko.
Nick was about to extend his hand to shake hands but Kerson hit Nick's hand.
See, napakadamot!
"Just shake hands with me." Kerson sacrastic said.
"Where is tukmol? Why isn't he here?" Tanong naman ni Kerson sa mga kaibigan niya.
"Nasa CR ang bobo!" Ani ni Samantha. Si samantha ay napakaboyish type niya. Napakinis rin ang balat nito. Napa-genuinely niya ring tao.
"Sa sobrang takaw, nakapa-Jebs si tanga." Ani naman ni Liam Marco. Liam is taller than him. Its skin is moreno. It has thick lashes and eyebrows. He has a good smile.
"Pupunta rin iyon dito. Siya pa. Angas nga niya. Umiiyak kagabi si gago." Natatawang ani ni Christian Paolo. Siya naman hindi kaputihan at di-moreno, kumbaga sakto lang. Its skin and eyes are also beautiful. The way he smiles, his eyes seem to shine.
"Si sad boy, 'di pa nakapagmove-on." He jokingly said. Nick Jefferson ay napakaputi niyang tao. Siya ang masasabing kong tisoy kanilang lahat pwera kay Kerson.
Nagsitawanan silang lahat dahil sa sinabi ni Nick Jefferson. Ako naman ay tumawa lang ako mahina. Tinignan ko naman si Kerson sa tabi pero nagulat ako dahil nakatingin na pala ito sa akin at nakangiti ito sa akin.
"Are you okay?" He whispered.
Mas lumapit pa ito sa tabi ko at bigla ko na lang naramdaman ang kamay nito na pumulupot sa bawang ko.
I nooded at him. 'Yun lang ang tanging ginawa ko upang maibsa ang pagiisip niya sa akin.
Kerson made me sit in the living room so that I could be comfortable here. Another friend of theirs also came out. It's said that he hasn't moved on yet. It's just sad because he still loves the girl.
"Bro, tagal mo?" Tanong ni Liam Marco.
"Gago, sakit ng tiyan ko. Naligo na rin ako."
Nanlaki ang mga mata ko dahil sa familiar ang boses nito. Suddenly my heart was pounding and at the same time, I was nervous, I don't know why. I'm thinking positively, I hope it's not him. Maybe he won't participate in this, eh. I know him. Nagdadasal ako sa isip ko na sana mali ang pagkakarinig ko. Sana magkaboses lang sila.
Sana hindi siya.
I let out a heavy breath. I feel like I'm not safe here now. I want to go out at least for a while. I feel burdened.
"Buti, nagdala si Kerson nang bisita." Ani ng lalaki na may halong pagaasar. "Nasaan ang bisita niya?"
"Sa sala, pre." Ani ni Nick. "Napakaganda niya gago!"
He laughed at him. Umiiling-iling lang ito.
Nang nakaramdaman na tunog na tsinelas biglang lumakas ang tibok ng puso ko. May narinig na akong kaluskos na hakbang na sensyales na papunta na ito sa gawi namin. Napayuko na lang ako dahil 'di ko alam ang gagawin. Napayuko ako and I bite my lower lip to ease my negative feelings. Nang may nakita na akong paa na nakatayo ay mas lalong dumuble ang kabog ng tibok nang puso ko.
"Hi!" Mayang bati nito.
I slowly looked up to see who he really was. When I saw him, my eyes widened suddenly. Hindi ko alam kung tatakbo ba ako o aalis na lang bigla? Bakit siya nandito? Bakit sumali siya sa ganito?
Halong-halo emosyon ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. Nagulat rin siya nang makita niya ako. I couldn't look him in the eye because I felt awkward right now. I have to strengthen my whole heart to see him.
"Titig na titig, Grayne?" Ani ni Kerson tila may halong meaning. "You know her?"
I can feel that he wants to hug me now but he is holding back. His eyes were also red because of the impending tears.
"Aly-" magsasalita na ito nang naunahan ko na siya.
"Hi! I'm Catherine." I smiled at him.
"Hi, Catherine!" Nawala bigla ang ngiti nito sa ginawa ko. "I'm Eleazar Grayne Marcelo. I'm the one who sub-vocalist."
I smiled at him. Napapapikit ako marahan dahil gustong gusto ko na umalis ngunit nakakahiya at baka makahalata sila.
"Can I hug you, Aly-, Catherine pala?"
Tatango na sana ako ngunit may nagsalita sa gilid ko.
"No. Bawal." Matigas na sabi ni Kerson.
Nagkatitigan silang dalawa. Feeling ko nakakahalata na si Kerson sa amin. Ang tingin nila tila may apoy sa pagitan nila.
"Itigil niyo na 'yan. Nasa gate na raw si babaeng tanga!" Sigaw ni Samantha. Hindi ko alam na may paparating pa pala.
Ang dami 'ata nila nandito. Kasali rin ba nila sa banda O kaibigan lang?
"Who is going here??" Kerson asked.
"Kissha mo!" She teased at Kerson.
Si ate? Pupunta rito? Kakilala niya ang mga nandito? Bakit niya kakilala? Anong gagawin niya dito?
Kerson left for a while, he went to the kitchen to get me some juice. I took my bag to leave. Wala na akong pakialam kung magmumukha akong bastos sa mata ni Kerson at sa mga kaibigan niya. Ang mahalaga ay hindi ako makita na nandito ako.
Namumutla na ako sa takot. Natatakot na ako sa posibleng mangyari ngayon. 'Di ko kakayanin 'to. Hindi p'wedeng mangyari ito dito. Hindi rin p'wedeng malaman ni Kerson ang totoo. Sobrang lakas ng kabog ng puso ko ngayon. I feel like I'm going to have a heart attack right now. My whole knees and hands are shaking because of fear.
I can't take this anymore.
I was about to open the door but I was about to hold the door when it suddenly came out and I was afraid. My whole body is shaking. I can't look her in the eye. She was surprised that I was here today. This is also why I am here.
"Alyzza, nandito ka?" She frowned.
"A-Ate Kissha. . . "
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