isaiah
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i woke up to sanyiah giggling at tiktoks and amira playing with her toys. it makes me wonder how life would be if we actually did have a kid.. but anyways, i kissed sanyiah while getting out of the bed, getting ready to go downstairs when i hear amira in the background trying to run to catch up to me. i told her to go back in the room and that i'll be up in a few minutes. she pouted but she complied and ran back to my room. when i went downstairs, i saw reggie and my mom and i greeted them both. i texted ny asking if she wanted me to bring any food up.
me
hey, you want sum to eat?
my baby ❤️
just some bacon and toast
me
okay, can you ask mira what she wants?
my baby ❤️
she said she wants unicorn pancakes?
me
smh😂
alr, ima be up in like 10 minutes
my baby❤️
okay thank you baby
me
of course
i started making breakfast for me and ny while making conversation with my mom. she asked if i told ny about what's been going on with me. i told her the truth, that i didn't get a chance.
i started working on the eggs when i heard amira giggling loudly and sanyiah's faint voice. i smiled at the sound. i finished up with me and sanyiah's breakfast when i started working on amira's. it was some frozen pancakes with some bacon and fruit. i started making my way upstairs, bringing in amira's table from her room so she can sit and eat. me and sanyiah sat on my bed. i turned on some cartoons for amira to watch while she ate since her ipad was downstairs. after we were all done, amira went downstairs to go bother mom and reggie so me and sanyiah finally had alone time. she helped me clean up amira's toys and such then i decided it was time to tell her.
sanyiah
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after me and isaiah finished cleaning up amira's toys, he sat me down and told me we needed to talk. i was getting scared because i didn't know if this meant break up or what. then he started speaking.
so i haven't been feeling okay.. and i'm not sure what this feeling is but it is really familiar. a few years ago, i had overdosed on oxycontin in an attempt to kill myself. this happened after my dad got deployed again. i wasn't okay, didn't know how to handle it. my mom put me in NA and i got clean but i was still depressed. saw a psychiatrist and got diagnosed with depression. i was on antidepressants for a while and i became groggy and unstable. once i felt like i was okay, i stopped taking them. my mom helped me ween off the pills so my body didn't go through withdrawal and i kept it a secret. i been feeling that feeling again, not that i wanna yk, kill myself but i just been falling into a deep depressive state and it's been fucking me up. last night i cried for the first time in 5 years and my mom asked if i wanted to start taking my meds again and i told her no. not until the season is over. i didn't tell you because i didn't want you to worry. kaiser and jaiden don't know either. im sorry.
i had to take a minute to process what i just heard because like .. wow..
isaiah.. why didn't you tell me.. i've known you since we were 4 years old.
i just couldn't .. i didn't know how
i'm sorry
i could see his eyes starting to water and it broke me.
isaiah
come here
he just broke down in my lap and i just held him. not saying a word. just holding him, playing with his ears. i heard his mom knock on the door and she came in to see him on my lap crying. she had some water for him since he texted her asking her to bring him some before he started the conversation. then she spoke
i think it's time we start the meds again sweetie.
i know you don't want to but you're not okay.
i agreed and he started crying harder saying he didn't wanna take his meds because they make him feel funny. i felt so bad.
isaiah, baby stop crying it's okay.
look at me i'm right here.
i'm right here isaiah.
look at me isaiah.
hey, look at me baby.
he slowly looked at me with his glossy eyes and i wiped his tears and kissed him.
we're getting through this together.
he nodded his head and climbed into his bed, laying down. his mom went and got some ibuprofen and gave it to him. i laid there with him and he got on my chest like i was on his last night. i just played in his hair and his ears as i watched him drift off into a deep sleep.
i watched tiktoks while he slept because i wasn't tired, i even made a few with his big ass head in the frame. amira came in his room and got on his bed staring at him then leaving his room. she never bothered him while he slept. i texted jaiden and kaiser letting them know i was with isaiah and that he's not okay but not to bring it up. i then heard his phone ding and looked to see who texted so i can make a mental note to tell him to text them back. once i read the text, my blood started boiling.
773-245-2101
zayyy i know you miss me
text me back
i'm sorry
please
i didn't mean to snap on you
the fuck? who is this... i deceived to text kai to see if he knew
me
kaiser armani.
kaii 🤎
yo wassup with the government😂
what i do?
me
who the fuck is this texting isaiah's phone and don't you DARE lie to me.
kaii🤎
number end in 2101?
me
yes
kaii🤎
na'lia
me
the fuck? they fucking around?
kaii🤎
no she on some weirdo shit tryna like take him from u or sum
he blocked her
check and see if she's blocked
me
she is.. so how is she..
kaii🤎
🤦🏽♂️
bitch weird
me
should i text back?
kaii🤎
shii go ahead but text her off ur phone cuz she gon start blowing isaiah up
me
alr thanks
kaii🤎
fs, how's he doing?
me
he's sleep, been sleep for like 2 hours
kaii🤎
good
i knew sum was off with him
me
me too but like .. wow
kaii🤎
alr well tell him to text me when he wakes up
me
will do
so i texted the number because what in theee fuck is wrong with this girl.
me
na'lia. i don't appreciate you playing on my nigga phone like this shit a fucking game or sum. you got yo ass beat bout him once & i'll do it again. leave isaiah the fuck alone or im not stopping until you take your last breath.
773-245-2101
is that a threat?
me
it's a promise bitch. leave him AND me alone.
you weird as fuck
you was only friends with me because you thought you was gon get a chance to fuck on him? goofy ass bitch😂😂
773-245-2101
i did fuck him tho😂..
me
no girl you raped him, you ain't fuck him
he never gave consent and if he did, it don't even matter cs he was drunk & you knew that. you're sick
773-245-2101
aww ☹️
guess what?
still fucked him tho
me
your point being??
i been fucking on him since i was 14, i was his first body, first kiss and first girlfriend 😂
it's nothing to beat your ass again na'lia, keep fucking playin with me
773-245-2101
i'm not scared of you luvbug
i know who u REALLY are
i don't fear u 😂
me
bitch please, stop texting isaiah and stop being a fucking weirdo
goodbye.
i blocked that ass and she got to texting isaiah phone again and i was irritated as fuck and i just screamed real loud in his pillow accidentally waking him up.
isaiah
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i woke up to sanyiah screaming in one of my pillows and asked her if she was okay
you good baby?
yes
no
i don't know
what's going on?
you got a text so i texted kaiser asking who it was because the number isn't saved and he said it was na'lia so i texted her and she was just annoying the fuck outta me like i'm so irritated isaiah. why won't she leave us alone.
i don't know baby
also kaiser said text him when you got up
will do
are you okay?
sanyiah let's have a baby.
she looked at me dumbfounded when i said that but seeing how good she is with amira made me want a kid of my own.. so fuck it why not?
what?
let's have a baby
isaiah
sanyiah
isaiah did you hear what you just said to me?
yes
no, we're not having no damn baby
not now
you're the one that said let's wait til after graduation.
i want one now though
i see how you look at amira, i see how you treat her
you're so amazing with her
you would be a great mom.
isaiah it's not about being a "great mom" we're still in school
graduation is in a few months.
we cant afford a baby right now
sanyiahhhhh
no isaiah, that's final
i just sucked my teeth and turned my back on her then she started spooning me so i turned around because i do not like being little spoon. we were face to face and i stared at her deep in her eyes
gimme kiss
she kissed me
gimme another one
another one
another one
this one was slow, i took the opportunity and put my hand around her neck slipping my tongue in her mouth. humming in her mouth, missing this feeling. i started nibbling on her lips as she kept kissing me. i broke the kiss
go lock the door
she got up and i followed behind her, pinning her against my wall, our lips crashing into each other. i picked her up and placed her on my bed, taking her panties off and just staring at her beautiful pussy. she started covering her face in embarrassment.
nah don't be embarrassed now, as many times as we done this
you know you perfect
i started kissing her thighs, leaving little hickeys on them and i worked my way up to her pussy. swirling my tongue around it and gliding my fingers across her hole, watching her body shiver and hearing her moan.
stop teasinggg
i did just that and i started sucking her clit, thrusting my fingers in and out of her hole, pushing down on her stomach. she grabbed my face and started fucking it, wanting to chase her own pleasure. shit was making my dick twitch, she came all over my sheets and i kept going. she started crying begging me to stop, legs twitching. she came again and again and again. i still wasn't done. she was legit crying because it was so much pleasure.
so i stopped and gave her a rest. giving her some water. she refused and got on her knees. they were weak but she still did what she wanted to do. she pulled my shorts down and wrapped her lips around my tip, i moaned at the sensation. she started making her way all the way down my shaft playing with my balls.
fuuuckkk ny
it had been so long since we actually touch eachother like this, she started deepthroating my shit, spit was going everywhere and her eyes were watering bad. she then reached down with her free hand and started playing with herself then started moaning on my dick which made me start moaning like a little bitch.
sanyiah..
i said her name real low because i was about to but it was so much going on for me to process, my body was going into an sensory overload and my ass started crying too, she was doing a lot and it felt too good,
s-sanyiah i'm bouta n-nu
fuck bro
i nutted in her mouth and she swallowed it and then kept going. i pulled her head off me and she kept tryna keep going
ny chillll i cant take it
she ain't care tho, she kept going until i nutted again then she stopped, wiping her mouth then kissing me again. i broke the kiss because i knew if we kept going, we were gonna end up fucking and i WAS NOT pulling out. after we finished up, i started running a bath for sanyiah, changing my sheets. we got in the tub together and we just talked, mostly about the baby thing.
you really want a baby?
yes
but i can wait
isaiah, i want one too
you don't think we're ready
that's all
exactly but i'll consider
fr?
yup
i love you
i love you more
once we got out the tub, we went downstairs and my mom just stared at us and we stared at her
here's some food if you guys want it
thank you mama
you're welcome
kaiser and jaiden are coming by later
okay
so i asked ny if she was staying, she nodded and said only for a little
kaiser
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i was bored as fuck so me and jaiden was bouta gt to isaiah house but i had to ask liy if jaiden could go with me since i knew he got in trouble for going with me to reim house the other day. so i walked into her room and asked
liyyy
wassup kai?
can jai come with me to zay house?
no
aaliyah come on
i said no kaiser
you KNOW i told him that he couldn't go to caleb's house with you
i told him to stay home aaliyah, he wanted to come and i couldn't convince him otherwise
i don't give a FUCK KAISER. YOU SHOULD NOT HAVE WENT IF HE CONTINUED TO TAG ALONG.
I TOLD YOU I DONT WANT HIM ASSOCIATING WITH THAT BOY.
aaliyah.
NO KAISER. HE IS DANGEROUS. I DONT WANT YOU AROUND HIM EITHER BUT YOUU ARE NOT MY SON. MY SON DOESNT GET TO DEFY ME BECAUSE HIS UNCLE SAID IT WAS OKAY. NO.
liy i'm sorry. i told him not to come, i swear i did.
he's grounded kaiser, end of discussion.
how about you let him come with me then ground him when he gets back?
hm
fine.
thank you aaliyah.
i went into jaiden's room and told him to get dressed so we could go. he put some his shoes then his hoodie and we got ready to go. i stopped by liy's room and whispered "thank you" she shooed me away. i grabbed the weed out of my room then we got in the car and made our way to zay's house. once we got there, everyone was already in isaiah's room.
yooooo
isaiah
wassup kai
sanyiah
hey kaiser
isaiah
why jaiden not speaking?
jaiden
oh shit myb, wassup
isaiah
you good?
nah his ass grounded when we get back to the crib
sanyiah
damnnnn what you do jai?
jaiden
i went with kai to get some weed from reim even tho my mama said i couldn't
isaiah
dude
you're fucked
jaiden
oh trust me i know
me and sanyiah was rolling up because we the best rollers out the group. jaiden ass barely know how to roll and isaiah blunts be looking like a fucked up hairline. he opened his window and put a towel under his door so the smell didn't get in the rest of the house. i took the first hit and man was that shit striking. i passed it to isaiah then he passed it to sanyiah then jaiden and we started the rotation until the blunt roached. jaiden lightweight ass was already fucked up and we only passed the blunt to him 3 times. i told jaiden to lay down on the bed til we get ready to go because i know he gon green out if he try and smoke some more. me, isaiah and sanyiah faced another blunt then we decided to chill because that shit was starting to hit me. isaiah and sanyiah wanted to face another one and i tapped out.
yo zay
can you ask yo mama to bring us some snacks nigga
isaiah
yea where my phone at?
jaiden
here
he texted his mom to leave the snacks at the door and that he'll get them. she did just that, knocking to let us know that she was at the door. she never cared if we smoke at her house, just so long as reggie and amira don't get a contact. we all had the munchies and jaiden was knocked tf out. i knew we had to be home by a certain time so i woke jaiden up and told him to get ready. i knew i wasn't fucked up but i still wasn't driving so i asked isaiah's mom if she could drive us home. she said yes and i gave her my keys. once we got home, my mama was sitting at the table. i knew she was about to yell at me because she hated when i came home high.
kaiser.
yes mama
lemme see your eyes
mamaaaaa
kaiser i'm not playing with you
fine
i walked over to her and she smacked me upside the head
owww
what did i tell you about coming home high?
i'm sorry
i was at isaiah house
how'd you get home?
zay mama drove us and she took an uber back home
where's your nephew?
he went to his room
you know you're grounded, right?
yea i'm aware
you eat?
yes and no
what you want to eat?
some mcdonald's fr
okay, i'll bring it up to you when it gets here
thank you mama
i love you
mhm i love you too
about 20 minutes go by and i'm staring at my ceiling, my mom comes in with my food.
thank you ma
kaiser, you know i worry about you
i know mama
you were just a little boy, now you're out driving and smoking with your friends
i'm sorry mama, i know you didn't want me smoking..
i'm not mad that you smoke but i just get worried something will happen to you and you won't remember.
nothing will happen to me mama i promise.
ima always be on 10
what about when you're with jaiden, you gotta watch out for yourself and him.
and i do just that
we left as soon as i saw jai was fucked up
you know liy is gonna be pissed at you for letting him get that high
yeah i know
he ain't even make it to the second blunt before he tapped out.
she looked at me then started laughing and i joined her
get some rest after you eat kai
i know and i will
goodnight mama
goodnight kid
she left my room and i ate my food in the dark, placing my trash in the food bag then laying down. what a day. what. a. day.
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