(still) Hailey's POV
shawn is still avoiding me.
"please answer my phone shawn,.."
"shaw-"
'sorry i'm busy, call me later if you want, or leave a message after this beep'
"please call me back shawn, i really need to talk to you.. i just want to say i'm sorry for what i did.. please forgive me.. seeing you avoiding me all this time hurt me so damm much you know.. good bye i love you"
i turn on th tv,
well oh well..
he's on a interview now.
he's so happy.. i can see it in his eyes.
seeing him happy when i'm sad like this is hurt,
and he doesnt even know it.
i take the pillow and scream on it.
i need to see him. right now, but i know i cant bish wut.
"yo homie, come to our party tonight at taylor's" cam said on the phone
"okay then, but can you take me there?"
"sureee i will pick you at 6"
jajajaja
what am i gonna wear?
this crop? nahhhh.
how about this skirt? nope
ahhh this dress.
finally it fits on me.
*ding dong*
"whatz uppppp"
"hi cameron"
"ready to go?" he asked and smiled
"oh yes i am" we both laugh as we went to the car.
"how was shawn?"
please dont ask about him..
"not good, he was mad at me, and until now he didnt contact me at all, and i'm afraid he doesnt love me anymore, and and- he will move on from me then leave me all alone, i-i dont want th-"
"sshhhh dont say like that hailey."
"i'm just afraid cam" i let my tears fall from my eyes, i know i'm not perfect for shawn, but i'm really in love with him.
"maybe he's busy"
"i saw him today on tv, he looks so happy and cheerful while i'm right here.. missing him so badly"
"i'm gonna talk to him"
"NO- uhm you dont have to cam.."
"if like that, okayy.."
i smiled again
"there is that smile" 😁
i enter the room, and i can smell alchohol, and teenage hormone. they are flirting, drinking, dancing.
"is this kind of a stuff with horny guys here? eww they look gross, LOOK at thay girl who made out with a shirtless guy at the couch, i cant see it"
"calm hahaha, this is a party for single guy and girls lol"
"i knew it"
"hey hailey, enjoy the party" taylor said and then go to the DJ table.
oh that's LOX!
"LOX i miss you so much, why didnt you call me?"
"i'm sorry hail, lets rock this party!!"
i took some drink, then i saw one guy who's maybe stare at me for w long time..
"hey there"
"hii"
"i'm Andrew, may i know your name beautiful?"
"uhm sorry i have boyfriend"
"awe, i'm so disappointed" he turn around and looking for another girl. lmao.
"ew,, gett off!!" i said grossly to a guy who hug me from the back
"hi hottie, lets do something fun here" he pushed me against the wall.
"CAMERONNNNNN" cam look at me and shocked. he ran to me and punch thay guy right in his face.
"gosh thank you! he almost rapped me what the hell"
"any better stuff in here? or nah?"
"try this, this is absolutely greate" without thinking i drink it, woah it burns my throath.
"cam what is this?"
"vodka"
"shit, if shawn knows i'm drink this stuff, he will mad at me"
"c'mon you just drink a little glass, but nope i dont want you to get drunk"
"but its delicious tho, give me more"
"here you are miss stewart"
i drink it again..
i feel... FREEEEEEEE.
i go to the dance floor and start dancing with a random people..
cameron laugh at me and continue chatting with his friends
i feel dizzy.. i cant handle myself for falling down.
"are you okay hail?"
"oh yeahh, i'm fineeee" i moaned.
"lets go back to your house, its getting late"
"ahhh i dont want, is still want to drink that vodka"
"you cantttt"
he grabbed my hand, and all the stuff on my stomach losing control, i throw up.
"jeez, here put my jacket on"
he take the tissues from his care and give it to me.
i'm still drunk so he wipe it for me.
"carry meeee, i'm tireddd"
"you're definetly drunk hail" he carry me to the car
"do u think shawn will mad at me??" i ask half awake half asleep.
"maybe no, now you have to sleep to get normal again"
"i'm normallll now"
he laughs then turn off the light, i can hear him slam the door.
☁️☁️☁️
ouch, my head...
shit shawn calling me now,,
pick that fucking phone call hailey!
"h-hello?"
"Hailey? i'm sorry babe, i'm really really sorry. this is my fault, not your fault, please forgive me. not talking to you in a week make me feel so bad, i miss you"
"its okay shawn i forgave you, i never mad at you.. i miss you too btw"
"i cant wait to see you omygod"
"me too... when will the tour over?"
"4 months and half"
"i'll wait for you. always"
"i love you so much hailey trish stewart"
"i love you more shawn peter raul mendes"
"no i love you more and more"
"do u want to fight with me?" we both laugh.
aw his laugh, i miss it so much
eh i just remember about the beer, who is that again, madison?
"babe,,"
"yeahh,"
"do you know a girl names madison beer?"
"oh that whore, why??"
"i met her at the beach, and she said i didnt deserve you and also she said our relationship will not last forever"
"she said that!? dont ever listen to that whore okay?"
"okayyyyyy"
"i gtg now, call you later babe"
"bye byeee"
finally!!
we're not in that argument again.
4 months and half
pretty long
but i can wait of course
i will wait for him,