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Y/N's POV:
I bet Wanda found a boyfriend.
Yeah.
Boyfriend.
She wanted someone who is caring, kindhearted, loving, sweet, gentle, romantic, passionate, warm-hearted.
But you know...
I wish I was a man.
So I can be her man.
But-
I can be that person she desires.
Even though I'm a woman, I can be a boyfriend material.
Even better than a boyfriend.
*Chuckles*
What the fuck am I talking about?
I should probably go to sleep.
It's late.
Wait-
What time is it?
I then check my phone.
Oh great.
12:00 am already?
Ughhh-
Fine I'll go to fucking sleep.
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Few hours later or maybe seven hours, who cares...
Oh god.
What time is it?
I then search the bed for my phone and gladly I found it.
It's-
Oh crap.
It's already 7:00 am.
Shit.
I have to go to Shuri.
We're building something...
But before that, I'll go freshen up.
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Meanwhile in the Avengers compound...
Yelena's POV:
"Yelena let's talk." Natasha tells me but I ignore her
"Lena-" She states but I cut her off
"Don't you dare call me that. Only Y/N is allowed to call me that." I tell her
"Move!" I state then I went to the kitchen where the others are talking
"Goodmorning Yelena!" Kate states
"Shut up." I tell her
"There's no good in the morning if a stranger keeps following you." I add
"I am not a stranger! I'm your sister! Can you just listen to me? Let's talk." Natasha scolds me
"Are you really my sister? Hmm?" I ask her then she kept silent
That's what I'm talking about.
I don't get it why she's always angry.
"Can we talk outside?" She states with her cold tone
"There is nothing to talk about. Just pretend that we've never met. There, problem solved! And will you just fucking leave me alone?" I tell her with anger running in my blood
"If you talk to me one more time, you will never see me again." I add
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Pietro's POV:
Damn.
Sibling problems.
"Pietro can we talk." Wanda states as she walks closer to me
"And here comes the witch." I mumble under my breath
"Pietro let's talk outside-" She states but I cut her off
"Hey Yelena? Wanna go outside? I feel suffocated and I need air." I tell Yelena
"Sure, let's go. I also need air. I just can't handle this suffocating void here." Yelena states as she walks towards me but her sister stopped her by holding her arm
Correction...
Ex sister.
They're not biologically sisters but yeah.
"Let me go Miss Romanoff." Yelena states angrily as nudges her arm off from Natasha's grasp
I then carry her and I ran outside.
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Literally Nobody's POV:
"Thanks." She tells Pietro as she sits down on the grass under a big tree
"No worries." Pietro replies as he sits down next to her
The fact that these two are bestfriends...
You know...
Same problems...
And stuff...
But yeah.
Anyways...
"I hate her." Yelena mumbles
"I hate her too. I mean my sister." Pietro states
"I miss Y/N." Pietro adds
"Me too. Do you think she'll come visit us?" Yelena asks as she picks one grass one by one and Pietro does the same
"I'm sure she will. You don't think that she's really dead... Do you?" Pietro asks
"I don't and she's not. The day Bucky mentioned her being the soul stone makes me believe that she's alive." Yelena replies
"You're right. I may not have a knowledge about the soul stone but I think the user who possesses the stone becomes immortal." Pietro states
"Let's not lose hope. She's not dead. There's no body on the scene so meaning... she's alive..." Yelena states
"I won't lose hope. Don't worry." Pietro informs Yelena
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Bucky's POV:
"Hey Bucky." Steve greets
"Hey." I greet back
"Still no sign of her?" Steve asks and I shake my head
"Did you know that I used to babysit her when she was still young? I think she was five years old back then." Steve asks as he sits next to me
"You met her?" I ask him
"Yeah, she's the one who gave me my nickname." Steve replies
"What nickname?" I ask him
"Capsicle." Steve replies and I chuckle
"I didn't know that." I mumble
"What did you call her?" I ask him
"Princess. She always beams me a cute smile when I call her that." Steve replies and I smile
"How about you?" He asks
"I call her doll. She loves it when I call her that." I tell him
"I wouldn't have able to escape Hydra if she didn't help me." I state
"I wouldn't have been reunited with my bestfriend, which is you if she didn't stay behind and if she didn't sacrifice her life for me." I add
"She's lucky to have you in her life." Steve tells me
"What do you mean?" I ask him
"She always wanted to have an older brother when she was a kid." He replies
"She did?" I ask him
"She did. In fact, I asked her if I could be her brother but she said I was too old." He replies and we both laugh
"She doesn't know how old I am yet." I reply
"It's okay, she'll understand. You're her brother now." He replies as he pats my shoulder
"I guess I am her brother." I reply with a chuckle
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Literally Nobody's POV:
They're both
"What should we do?" Wanda asks Natasha
"I don't know what to do. I already lost a loved one, I can't afford to lose another one." Natasha replies
"I'm sorry." Wanda tells her
"For what?" Natasha asks
"Let's talk about it next time." Wanda replies
Awe...
These two...
Whatever...
Let's check on Y/N, shall we?
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Y/N's POV:
Few days had passed... And I still don't remember everything...
"You ready?" Shuri asks
"Hell yeah!" I state confidently
"Who's this guy?" Shuri asks
"Steve Rogers, also known as Captain America or Captain Rogers. I've met him." I state and she claps
"Next picture... Who's this lady?" Shuri asks as she shows me a blonde haired woman on screen
Blonde?
Blonde...
I've met a blonde haired woman before...
But I can't remember where-
"THE RED ROOM! THE RED FUCKING ROOM!" I yell
"What?" She asks a bit confused
"She was with me in the Red Room. I trained her..." I reply sheepishly
"Keep going... What's her name?" Shuri asks
Hmmm...
I swear it starts With Y...
Ya- no.
Ye-
Yes!
Yel-
It's weird.
"Y/N?" Shuri asks
"Yeah?" I reply
"You got something?" She asks
"I do but it sounds funny." I reply with a chuckle
"Tell me." She tells me
"Yelena Belova... It's weird but I think that's her name. She's the only blonde woman I met before I met Sharon Carter." I tell her
"AMAZING!" Shuri compliments
"So you know that she has a sister?" Shuri asks
"Sister? Yelena? Pfft. She's an only child." I reply then she changed the picture onscreen
A ginger head?
"Who the fuck is that?" I ask
"Yelena's non biological sister." She replies
"They're both adopted." Shuri adds
Huh.
Ginger head...
"Do you have other pictures of her?" I ask and she nods and shuffles her pictures on screen slowly
Ginger head?
Hmmm...
"She was with you in the Red Room." She states
Her?
Why would-
Core memory loading...
"Excuse me but, who are you? No offense." I ask her
"Natasha, Just Natasha." She replies
"You?" She asks
"Uhh- Y/N... Y/N Stark." I reply
Natasha?
Y/N?
Stark?
What the-
"My name is Y/N Stark?" I ask Shuri
"You remember?" She asks
"Yeah the night Natasha and I met for the first time." I reply
"Thank goodness! You remembered your name!" She states enthusiastically
"I did?" I ask her
"You just did bitch!" She replies
"So before we proceed to who you really are, we should stick with Natasha first." She states and I nod
I remembered my name?
Oh my god.
For how many days!
Okay.
Uhh- chill.
"Do you remember her last name?" Shuri asks
Hmm...
"Give me a minute." I tell her and she nods
Core memory loading...
"How old are you?" I ask her
"16 years old." She replies
"You?" She asks
"13, I just turned 13 a while ago." I reply
"Happy birthday then, Y/N." She greets
"Thank you Tasha, you're the first one and only one who greeted me a happy birthday on my birthday." I reply
"Oh my god, I am so sorry. I meant thank you Natasha. I'm sorry, I'm just stupid. I just love giving people nicknames." I state embarrassed
"Tasha? I kinda like that nickname. They all call me Nat, but I prefer the one you just gave me." She states and I smile
Tasha?
Nat?
Natasha who?
"Romanoff, take her to bed." Dreykov commands Tasha
What the-
Dig deeper Y/N!
"Kill Natalia Alianovna Romanova also known as Natasha Romanoff. Now!" Dreykov yells
Who the fuck is Dreykov-
Holy mother-
No fucking way.
"Holy shit." I curse
"What? What's wrong?" Shuri asks
"She's Natasha Romanoff also known as Natalia Alianovna Romanova. Her nickname is Nat, but I call her Tasha." I tell her as tears run down my cheeks
"Very good- Why are you crying?" She asks
"She- she was- I - forget about it." I tell her then she hands me a tissue box
"Tell me. We're bestfriends now. You can tell me everything, I'll listen." She tells me
"Tasha was the first person I fell in love with." I tell her
"But she never felt the same. Let's just move on, I don't want to talk about it." I tell her as I wipe my tears and she nods
"Next picture. The man who brought you here. Who is he?" She asks as my attention is still stuck on my lap
"Nicholas Joseph Fury also known as Nick Fury. I call him uncle Fury when I was a child." I reply instinctively
"Oh my god. No way." Shuri states
"Hmm?" I ask her a bit confused as I raise my head
"Oh sorry, I was zoning out." I tell her
"No you weren't, you just told me this guys name." She states pointing at one eyed man's picture
"One eyed man? I swear he had two eyes when he was babysitting me before." I tell her
"You're head?" She asks
"All fine, no pain. Keep going." I tell her and she beams me a smile
"How about these four?" Shuri asks
"Uhh- I've never met those people." I tell her
"How about these people?" She asks me as she puts four children pictures on screen
Those faces...
They're familiar...
"Do you know them?" She asks
"Wait- oh! The cute guy, his name is Edward Leeds and his nickname is Ned. The curly haired girl is Michelle Jones, her nickname is MJ. The short guy is Peter Parker but I call him Pete. The tall girl is Kate Bishop but I call her Katy." I reply and she looked at me with an amused state
"What?" I ask her
"Next picture! How about him?" She asks
Hmm...
I know this man...
"Happy! His name is Happy. He never told me his last name. He used to drive me anywhere I wanted to go when I was young." I reply
"No way! Last picture!" She stated enthusiastically
"A couple?" I ask her
"Mhmm." She hums
"I swear I've met those people before." I tell her as I stroke my index finger and my thumb on my chin (🤔)
I then snap my fingers.
"I KNOW THEM! THEY'RE-" I state but got cut off by my thoughts
My parents?
Tony Stark-
Pepper Potts-
My parents?
I remember everything?
My birthday, my bestfriends, my past...
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Impossible.
I-
The graduation day-
Everything was ruined because of that stupid Russian asshole.
I then start to cry.
"Y/N-" Shuri states but I cut her off
"Tony Stark, iron man slash my father and slash son of Howard Stark. Pepper Potts, her wife slash ex assistant slash my mother." I reply with a shaky breath
My chest then starts to ache.
My heart.
I can't breathe...
"You remember everything?" She asks
"Everything, every detail." I reply
"Excuse me." I tell her as I run to my room
I then quickly locked my bedroom door with my back as I sit down.
My back still leaning on the door.
Something like this:
What the-
Why am I so stupid?
Why!
I hate myself!
If-
I've been gone for twelve years?
My teenage life...
I never got to enjoy my teenage years...
I've never seen my bestfriends for twelve years...
My parents...
How are my parents?
Are they okay?
Do they still remember me?
T-
Tasha-
Where is Tasha...
Tasha...
I miss you Tasha...
Where are you?
I'm sorry for not coming back...
Is Tasha okay?
How about Yelena...
How is my Lena?
Are they both safe?
Even Wanda and Pietro...
Where are they?
Are they all okay?
I'm sorry.
"I- I'm s- sorry." I state as I stutter
I then curled up and I rest my forehead on my knees.
I hate myself.
I hate myself!
Imagine if Dreykov never came...
My life would be awesome right now if that asshole didn't appear...
My bestfriends...
Where are they?...
How are they?
They are so lucky...
They experienced highschool life...
They also experienced college life....
And me...
I experienced torture and murder.
I was a fucking lab rat.
My life is a fucking mess.
I-
I wish I just died.
I wish I never fought back.
I should've let them kill me.
Why am I so dumb?
Why did all of this happen to me?
What did I do?
I did nothing wrong!
Why did I go through traumatizing moments?
Of all things that could happen...
Trauma...
Traumatized-
I was fucking traumatized!
What's next?
Huh?
Another excruciating memory!?
Why!?
Why does it have to be the innocent one's who suffers!
Well-
I'm not innocent anymore...
Since I killed hundreds of people...
I've killed innocent people...
I'm a murderer...
I'm a criminal...
I'm evil...
I should've just killed myself when I had the chance...
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Natasha's POV:
Y/N...
I then wake up in the middle of the night.
I saw Y/N...
She was smiling at me wearing my favorite black jacket.
"Why are you up? Are you okay?" Wanda asks me
"I'm fine babe, I just need to go to the bathroom. Go back to sleep." I tell her then I kiss her forehead
Ok I lied.
About the bathroom thing.
I'm now currently outside, sitting on a bench with a cup of coffee.
Weird.
I've never dreamt about Y/N in such a long time, why did she suddenly appear in my dream?
In my head?
Does it mean something?
Dreams do have meanings...
But I don't know what my dream meant.
Y/N is gone...
I miss her...
I never got to tell her how I really felt.
I'm sorry Y/N.
For breaking my promise.
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Literally Nobody's POV:
"She remembers everything." Shuri tells her mother and her brother
"Really? That's good to hear. How is she?" Her mother asks
"She's in her room... Crying..." Shuri replies
"Why? What happened? Shouldn't she be happy about it?" Her brother asks
"Brother, she's traumatized." Shuri replies
"Still, pain only makes us stronger. She needs you. Go and talk to her." The king replies
"But give her space first. Give her time to function everything about her past." The queen replies and the princess nods
"I'll go to sleep then." The princess tells her mother and her brother
"Goodnight mother, goodnight brother." Shuri greets
"Goodnight, sleep well." The two reply in unison then Shuri leaves
"Tell Fury." The queen commands her son
"I will." The king replies
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Y/N's POV:
Fuck this life.
I'm tired of it.
I just wanna fucking die.
Just one line.
One cut.
I've been doing this for years.
It's a forced habit.
One...
Two...
"Ow, shit that hurts so good." I mumble
Where's the bandage...
Where -
Found it.
Wrap it around just like that...
And...
Done...
I'll wear a hoodie tomorrow...
I should probably go to sleep now...
But-
Tasha...
Wanda...
I miss them both...
All of them...
If you truly love someone, you have to let them go...
Fine.
Avoid them if you see them-
Wait-
No-
I'll just use my mask...
I'm still not ready to face them.
I don't know why...
It's just...
I'm sure I would get hurt just by seeing them.
It's better to just leave everything the way it is...
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Few hours later...
"Great. I hate waking up." I mumble to myself
I then got up and did my morning routine.
Which is take a bath, talk to the mirror after brushing my teeth, and then make breakfast.
I'm now in the kitchen making breakfast.
As I was setting the table, Shuri came in.
Smile.
Y/N! Smile!
"Hi Shuri, goodmorning!" I state with a warm smile
"Goodmorning Y/N! Thank god, I can finally call you by your real name." She states as she hugs me
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