.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。
❀ i love you but you make me so sad ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━
Riki had never run so fast in his life.
The hospital was far away and they had to get there as quickly as possible. Hana still hadn't woken up during the journey and she was on his back.
Hana,
are you OK ?
Please wake up.
Come on, just open your eyes,
just a little.
He quickly entered the hospital and the lady at reception recognised him quite easily. She had never seen him so distraught.
She quickly left her counter to go and help the young man. Several nurses rushed to the young man's side and two of them picked Hana up and put her on a bed to carry her to her bedroom.
Still empty for her.
Just for her.
"Young man, you must stay outside !" said one of the nurses.
Riki had been through this before and Hana had coped very well. She'd fought her way out of it.
She was going to pull through today too. He was sure she could do it.
So he sat down in a chair and waited.
The corridor was empty and dark. The same spot of mould was still there on the ceiling, perhaps even bigger than before.
♡
Riki couldn't take his eyes off Hana's bedroom door. He couldn't wait for it to open so he could finally go and give her a hug. He wanted to tell her again that everything was fine, that she only had two weeks left to fulfil all her dreams and finish her list.
The door finally opened and the nurse ran a hand over his forehead to wipe away the fine drops of sweat.
Riki's eyes opened wide but the nurse quickly sat down beside him. He put his hands on his knees and took a deep breath.
"Were you close to her ?" he asked.
Riki felt the worst coming on. Why was he asking him that ?
He simply nodded.
"We've put her in an induced coma. Her lice are slow and she's breathing slowly. Everything is slowed down because of the coma."
Riki wasn't sure if this was good news or not. Hana was alive but asleep. There was nothing she could do now.
"When someone's in a coma, she can still hear what's being said to her, can't she ?"
The nurse nodded and said, rising from his chair, "You can stay with her as long as you like, little boy."
Riki rushed into Hana's room and saw a girl lying on a bed with wires connected to her whole body.
Her eyes were closed and her chest was slowly rising.
He sat down next to her on the bed and, without stopping to look at her, completely terrified, took her hand.
It was cold, very cold.
"Since you can hear me, my Hana, I'm going to stay here as long as I can. I don't know if I could help you, but if I get the chance, I will. I can't wait for you to wake up, my flower girl. I miss you already."
Then Riki lay down beside her and kissed her on the forehead.
She could feel it too.
Riki was going to stay there as long as it took, he was going to spend all his free time here, in this little room.
A few minutes later, Hana's doctor entered the room and Riki quickly got up from the bed.
When he entered, he stopped for a second to look at the young girl, lying on her bed, and the pale face she now had.
He slowly moved closer to the boy, without managing to take his eyes off the girl.
"I was told you were here, Nishimura Riki. The hostess told me that you were very close to Hana. I wanted to show you the latest X-rays that she took some time ago. It was the one she was coming to see tomorrow."
The doctor took out the X-rays and showed them to Riki, then turned on the girl's bedside table to see the contents of the X-rays through.
For the first time, Riki could see the heart of the girl he loved. He could see it, but it was surrounded by circles.
Of blood.
These balls were now enclosing his heart and squeezing it tighter and tighter, until there was no more space.
Then the doctor brought out the X-rays of his lungs. Small and thin lungs.
So much so that they were barely visible.
Riki glanced at Hana, so that was what was going on inside her. Her heart was about to be encircled and her lungs too thin to hold a single molecule of air.
The doctor left, saying, "She doesn't need me any more. Enjoy it, young man. Her face, her hands and everything you'll remember about her. Never forget the girl she was !"
Riki nodded, too tired to reply.
The doctor left the room without saying anything more. He just wanted to show him this. What was happening to Hana.
He took her hand again and inhaled deeply.
Riki felt tears rolling down his cheeks. He wiped them away quickly and squeezed her hand even tighter, knowing she could feel everything.
I'll be waiting for you forever,
my Hana.
He held her close and tried to fall asleep. But after a long hour, Riki was still awake.
He couldn't stop thinking.
Starting with what had happened just over two hours ago. That kiss he'd been waiting for so long. He would have liked the evening to end like that, with a happy memory.
They could have gone back and taken photos together with their cameras. Riki could have drawn her again under a starry sky, or surrounded her with colourful flowers.
They could have gone back to the funfair and ridden all the rides they could just to please her. He could have continued to kiss her and watch her smile with him.
But there Hana was, lying in a hospital bed, sleeping peacefully without pain or anything to disturb her.
Riki stood up and took a page from the girl's notebook. He quickly left Hana's room, whispering as if she were about to wake up, "I'll be right back."
Riki dashed off to a children's area and stole some paints and brushes.
He returns quickly and whispers to Hana, "I'm back !"
He wanted to tell her everything, as if she could talk back or smile at him. He wanted her to know everything he was doing.
So, as he drew facing the window, he described everything he was doing as best he could, describing the colours and shapes he was drawing.
He wanted Hana to see this drawing without having to wake up, because he knew she loved watching him draw.
It took him two and a half hours to finish the painting because he couldn't stop crying. Nothing could stop him. Even as he was drawing, he was thinking about it all.
When will you wake up ?
Before you were 17 ?
In one year ?
or maybe two ?
Of course not,
my Hana,
promise me you'll wake up soon.
please...
Riki asked himself a lot of questions, but it was already late. And yet, he wasn't tired.
He placed the painting on Hana's bedside table and wrote a little phrase on it, which he said aloud so that the girl next to him could hear it, "Nothing will stop my love, not even a deep sleep."
He began to describe the picture so that Hana could imagine it correctly.
Then he lay down beside her again and took out Hana's wish list. He saw the last box waiting to be ticked.
There was only one left.
I'll wait for you as long as it takes.
I'll wait for hours or years.
I'll always be here Hana.
Riki took a deep breath before drifting off to sleep for a short night.
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