Russian will be used in this chapter but I'm not Russian, I don't speak any languages other than English so google translate is used so when Juliette speaks in Russian the translation will be in brackets beside the Russian sentence.
And their is a mention of suicide it won't be anything too graphic but I thought I should give you a warning.
I also want you to know that I don't know anything about boxing or wrestling which are two of Juliette's hobbies so I'm sorry if things are wrong.
Juliette had never been one to sit around and wait for clues or witnesses, she was always trying to solve cases at work, it's probably why she was one of the best detectives in the city of Chicago. Juliette hated being on the sideline, especially when she began a case; she has to finish it once she has started. Today was a surprisingly quite day at the 21st district, Juliette was working on some paperwork, she hadn't slept well that night so she was actually glad it was quite.
"Jay fancy coming mollys for a few drinks tonight? I need my wingman" Juliette said propping her head up on her elbows while she was sat at her desk.
"In other words you need me to help you get laid" Jay smirks towards the black haired woman.
"I said nothing about getting laid" Juliette laughed.
"Juliette, this is the third time this week you've wanted me to be your wingman and it's only Wednesday. You can't keep having one night stands! Your not a" Jay said pausing before he got to finish the sentence.
"I'm not a what Jay! Go on... say it" Juliette said angrily, she knew what Jay was implying
"Nothing" Jay said shaking his head
"ты должен быть моим другом! а ты намекаешь что я шлюха (your meant to be my friend! and your implying i'm a whore)" Juliette raised her voice speaking in Russian which was something she did when she's angry, she doesn't intend to
"Julie' English please! You know I don't understand when you speak Russian" Jay says calmly trying to talk his best friend down from the line she was on, she was angry, she didn't expect her best friend to imply that she's a whore. She's just trying to take her mind off her best friends death
"Нет Джей! Я не хочу это слышать! (No Jay! I don't want to hear it!)" Juliette said forcefully standing up grabbing her cigarettes and lighter before heading out of the bullpen, through the metal gates and out side. She pulled a cigarette from the packet and put it between her lips so she could light it. Juliette didn't smoke much, she often had one with her morning coffee and before bed, they were two times you could count on Juliette having a cigarette.
"Breath Juliette, breath" Juliette mumbled to herself taking a drag from her cigarette which she held between her middle and forefinger.
The rest of intelligence looked towards Jay after Juliette had left, they all knew that Juliette only really spoke her native language when angry and when she wants to talk to Otis about something she doesn't want anyone to know about and not to forget when she's with family.
"What did you say to her?" Adam asked Jay glancing between where Juliette's desk stood empty.
"She wanted me to be her wingman, I don't have a problem with it but I said that it's the third time this week and it a only Wednesday. I think she assumed I was trying to call her something" Jay said rolling his eyes at his friends behaviour.
"You know she's been struggling since Shay' died" Adam reminded Jay.
"That doesn't mean she can have one night stand every single night. It's been a month and now she starts sleeping about" Jay said like it's no big deal he brought it up.
"You need to apologise to her, you know Ivy or Mira will have your head for treating Juliette like that. And your meant to be one of her best friends." Erin joined into the conversation. Ivy and Mira were both one of Juliette's best friends and Hope Bishop was also one of Juliette's good friends but that's through her older brother.
"I will, it's not like I meant it like that. I just don't want her getting hurt" Jay adds, he also knew that nobody should talk to Juliette when she's so angry so he decided to leave it for a short while so she can cool off before he goes and talk to her.
Juliette leant against her car smoking a second cigarette, she was not exactly angry now but she was struggling. She missed Leslie, she had been since the funeral. It was only just recently that Juliette has been wanting to go out in the evenings, hence the reason she wanted Jay to be her wingman. Ivy had came to see her friend at work, she had the day off and she hadn't been answering her brothers texts so Ivy offered to go see how she is.
"That'll kill you" the voice of Juliette's best friend Ivy came as she flicked the ass off the cigarette after taking a drag
"That's the point" Juliette said simply while resting her head on the car and just looking at the sky, the sky was blue today with some white fluffy clouds, it was rather warm too.
"Hey, I thought we stopped with that attitude" Ivy said worried that the black haired woman in front of her was heading down the dark tunnel again and she hoped she wasn't thinking of suicide again.
"What's the point Ivy! Shay's gone! Jay thinks I'm a whore and you and Brian are both busy with Kelly and Hope. Their doesn't seem to be a point in going on without Shay' she understood me. She was the first person I every liked, I mean like liked and now she's gone" Juliette admitted to her best friend, her eyes were welling up with tears
"Halstead called you a whore?" Ivy questioned Juliette who looked back down so she was now looking towards the blonde in front of her.
"He didn't exactly say it but he was implying I was one so I kinda got angry which you know resulted in Russian and I just left the bullpen so I didn't do something that I'd probably regret" Juliette said and Ivy sighed
"придурок (dickhead)" Ivy said with the language Juliette had taught her. Juliette and Ivy have been friends since kindergarten and during that long time Ivy has learnt the language her best friend speaks, not only through Juliette's anger and her random outbursts which sometimes happened but through pure dedication in learning how to communicate when her best friend is angry and her Russian comes into full effect rather than English.
"придурок (Dickhead)" Juliette repeated after her friend letting out a little laugh.
"Do you think you might need to talk to someone? You sound like your going into your dark place" Ivy asked Juliette
"Maybe I just need a night out with my girls?" Juliette grinned hopefully, she wanted to have a night out with Ivy, Mira and Hope, they could possibly invite Erin and Kim too but she didn't mind them not coming, as long as Ivy, Mira and Hope were their she was happy, Ivy was her childhood best friend, Mira was her high school best friend and Hope, she was a great friend she met through her older brother, who one day she hoped would become her sister-in-law
"Let's organise a girls night then" Ivy said deciding she'd do anything to stop her best friend from going down the dark path and end up almost taking her own life like she had done when she found out that Leslie Shay had died. Juliette put her cigarette out and let out a sigh.
"Well I best get back up their before everyone thinks the worst but make a group chat with Hope and Mira and we can discuss the night out their" Juliette said simply.
"Sounds good, but don't get into trouble, Jay will see sense and apologise" Ivy points out with a shrug.
"I won't." Juliette grinned innocently
"You coming Mollys tonight? First round on me" Ivy said to Juliette smiling.
"Sure, I was already going to come; you didn't have to say you'd buy the first round" Juliette said laughing a little as she answered the blonde stood beside her.
"Is it to late to take that back" Ivy joked with Juliette who laughed again.
"You wish Ivy, you wish" Juliette said nudgeing Ivy who laughed at her best friend.
"See you later Ivy" Juliette said giving Ivy a hug, she had cooled off and was now ready to go on with her shift. She had to focus on her paperwork so everything was perfect.
"See you later Jules" Ivy said giving Juliette a hug back. Juliette shoved her cigarette packet into her pocket with her lighter and began heading back inside.
Juliette leant against the lockers at around 3pm, she was almost finished with her paperwork but she needed to take a break. She wasn't doing very well, mentally she felt like she was already in the dark place she was just over a month ago. She felt so stupid for letting it get bad again. It wasn't like she was Leslie's girlfriend when she died, yeah she still had feelings for her, she always was going to have feelings for her but they were better off just being friends. They both agreed that and that worked for them.
"Juliette, are you okay?" Erin asked findings Juliette staring at the wall in front of her. Juliette could only hear muffled speech, she couldn't exactly focus on what Erin was saying.
"Juliette" Erin then said placing a hand on her shoulder.
"Sorry, what did you say?" Juliette asked unsure what had happened or why she previously only heard Erin's voice in muffles
"I was asking if you were okay, you have been in here for a while" Erin said and Juliette frowned.
"Yeah, no, yeah... umm... I don't know" Juliette said unsure how she really felt or maybe she did know how she felt but she didn't want to admit how she felt.
"Come on, let's talk about it" Erin said sitting down on the little bench in the locker room.
"Erin, you know after Leslie died I got into the dark place?" Juliette began biting her lip gently as she glanced up to Erin who now looked worried.
"Yeah, you wouldn't leave your bed for days, you wouldn't take to anyone eitber. I can tell you aren't that bad but you might be getting their now" Erin remembered how bad Juliette was
"I may not be bad right now but I'm making decisions which aren't exactly the best decisions but I'm not that bad. I just want to try and take my mind off everything. That's why I'm going out, having one night stands because I know that if I don't keep myself active I will end up really bad" Juliette explained to Erin who looked extremely worried about Juliette especially after hearing what she had just said.
"Okay, but promise me if you start to get any worse you will talk to someone" Erin said and Juliette agreed.
At 7pm that evening Juliette entered Mollys, it was busy and it was later she had planned to meet Ivy but she needed a drink.
"Hey Brian, can I get a beer please" Juliette asked her older brother.
"Coming right up July" Otis said to Juliette before getting her, her drink.
"Ivy said you were meeting her. She also said that you both called Jay a dickhead" Oris said in more of a question than a statement.
"Yeah, he kinda implied I was a whore so I was yelling at him, he obviously didn't understand me as you know when I'm angry I just speak Russian. I then left the bullpen because I knew I needed to cool off" Juliette explained to her brother knowing he would want to know what had gone on. Otis wasn't happy that Jay Halstead had implied his little sister was a whore, he was meant to be one of her best friends.
"But it's all fine now, he apologised and I cooled off after Ivy spoke with me. But trust me if I didn't leave to cool off I probably would have punched Jay" exclaimed Juliette running a hand through her hair.
"Nobody mess with the boxer in you" Otis laughed slightly, it was true she was girls lightweight boxing champion 3 years running as a teenager and she has happened to be woman's lightweight champion for 2 years running, only in Chicago though, she never went pro, she never saw herself being a professional boxer.
"With 5 championships under my belt and hopefully more in the future not even I should mess with me" Juliette joked.
"Not to forget your a detective and a incredible one. You never stop until you've solved the case" Otis said to his sister before going to serve other customers. Juliette sat drinking her beer as she listened to all the noise of the bar, it made her have something else to focus in rather than the dark tunnel she saw herself falling into
"Sorry I'm late Ettie' I was on the phone to my sister" Ivy apologised sitting on a bar stool beside Juliette, Juliette didn't even realise the time until she looked down to her phone where it said the time was 7:45pm, Ivy was only fifteen minutes late and that she want much, anyone could run late.
"It's fine Ivy, I was just talking to Brian, he said you told him all about what happened at work today" Juliette brought up what she had just spoken about with her brother
"Right... let's not think of earlier. Let's drink" Ivy grinned happily.
"I'll get us a table" Juliette said, Ivy nodded and waited for either Herrmann or Otis to become free.
"What can I get you Upton?" Herrmann asked Ivy, Ivy thought for a moment before deciding what shots to get
"Could I get two tequila shots and two beers please" Ivy answered as soon as she knew what drinks she was ordering.
"Coming right up. Do you need a hand taking them over?" Herrmann asked as he began pouring the shots.
"I'll manage, but thanks for the offer Herrmann" Ivy smiled after paying for the drinks.
The night was spent laughing and talking, Juliette was glad to have her mind taken off the whole dark tunnel she was heading down. Ivy had made it bee mission to keep an eye on Juliette, to make sure she doesn't end up bad enough that she wants to take her life nobody wants that especially not Juliette and not Ivy, she knew how much it would break the ones she loves and cares about, Otis wouldn't forgive himself for not noticing how bad Juliette is, he was protective over Juliette even if he knew that she could handle herself.
Ivy promised to check in on Juliette every single day and if she wouldn't or just doesn't answer then she would go straight round to her house to check on her. That's what best friends do and Juliette was practically Ivy's sister and Ivy would do anything for Juliette.
At around 10:30pm Juliette headed home, she chugged a few glasses of water in hopes it would stop her from being too hungover in the morning, she knew it worked as she had done the same thing for the last few nights, she also took a glass of water into her bedroom, she grabbed the paracetamol tablets from the medicine cabinet and put them beside her water on her bedside table before she changed into a oversized t-shirt which was Leslie's, when the were together she left it round Juliette's, and from the countless of times they ended up drunk watching tv or in bed together, Leslie Shay wore the t-shirt. She climbed into bed and glanced at the photo on her bedside table, it was her and Leslie, they were messing around and Otis took the photo which quickly became Juliette's favourite photo hence the reason it was framed and sat on her bedside table.
"I miss you Les' more than ever" Juliette whispered before she laid down and closed her eye in hopes sleep would come over her quicker than it had done in a while.
Note
I hope you like this chapter
If you have any ideas you would like to see.
Maybe that's between
Juliette and Brian/Otis
Juliette and Ivy
Juliette and Hope
Juliette and Mira
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