Although he hated the idea of getting help with Beomgyu, he couldn't do anything else. He finally mustered the courage to even meet eyes with Beomgyu.
A long but warm night of restlessness of thinking what to do, had too much affect on Soobin's appearance he still looked as angelic as ever. As for his eyes, it was no secret that he cried; he hated it. There were crystallites of ruby stuck on the surrounding skin of his eyes, stalactites of opalite travelling down those pillow cheeks. His eyes were caves of beauties, that now began to tremble and shake vigorously due to emotion. Soobin was quick to wipe them, lazily applying concealer in attempt to hide the previous cries. He practiced an unsympathetic face because he just knew if he let his guard down around Beomgyu he would SHATTER into smithereens.
He stepped out of his room with caution, wondering if Aera was still home. Tip toeing his way to the couch where the latter resided, it felt creepy just glaring down at the sleeping boy. Soobin could feel that de trop ache in his chest, a guilty feeling. He shouldn't have yelled knowing Beomgyu was extorted into assisting Aera, the sick mention of his childhood being used against him never left his mind. Soon, the staring woke up Beomgyu, from his perspective Soobin looked like a cat when they just pierce your soul with their eyes. Beomgyu's eyes had slightly opened, he didn't seem fully awake maybe he is still mildly in his dream. "Beo-" Soobin could feel the soft pair of lips touch his, the unexpected reaction from his best friend only drove Beomgyu to go further; Soobin let go with a panic. Beomgyu sat up, face absolutely red, he had just realised what he had done. "Hyung? Are you awake? A-Are you okay? I'm sorry for yesterday please forgive m-" Soobin once again ignored anything Beomgyu said, leaning in further whilst on his knees like an animal, their lips touched again but yet again Soobin pulled away after dripping his tears on Beomgyu. "I- what just happened?" Soobin had questioned, more tears of oxalate slipping out vaguely tracing his puffy pillow lips.
"I'm sorry, I think I was still in my dream.."
And he was right.
What he had wished of doing for weeks, seemed so believably realistic only for it to end up a fantasy. It was starry-eyed of him to think that he would kiss his bestfriend after completely breaking him down, to think that he would have forgiven him that easily. It was stupid. Beomgyu has had enough of being just friends, although he had never thought that the one for him was Soobin, that moment where he questioned himself whether as his feelings towards Soobin were guilt or love, he had realised it was both. You can't possibly feel one emotion there's always one hiding, constantly nudging at you and then concealing itself. That's until you attend to it and force it out of you. Beomgyu had felt it wasn't enough. Some days where that agitating feeling wasn't brutal and cruel, he'd imagine a future with Soobin, he'd get more touchy and provide service. He would spend all day and night making sure he was laughing and smiling. He made sure to take pictures in his brain. The days where this feeling wasn't so nice, it prevented sleep and the appetite to eat decreased just a little bit. At times, Beomgyu would inquire if he was good enough or ideal enough for Soobin. If Soobin was even gay or interested in boys at all? If he even had a chance.
Tell him.
Tell him now or never.
He loves you too.
He does.
He would have left already.
Tell him.
Kiss him.
Hug him.
Do everything as long as you're official.
For once he had listened to those voices, a confession could help the situation at hand. If this goes well he could consider himself as the luckiest man in the world. That bunny of a man will finally belong to him. Bunny and Bear. Cute. Beomgyu had prized Soobin's joy so much that he had named and created types of smiles Soobin has done.
FULL ^
• teeth are fully shown
• lips fully outstretched
DIMPLE ^
• lips folding in
• dimples on show
SHY ^
• used in awkard situations
• looks so pretty
• almost seems as an attempt to laugh at a lame joke
SQUEEZE ^
• eyes aren't open
• like full smile
• will usually laugh during it
So you can tell he is OBSESSED, but it's reasonable.
Beomgyu runs, and I mean RUNS. He speeds his way to Soobin's room, not even caring to knock incase he was getting changed or asleep. When the door goes flying, creating a BANG (chan) when it hits the wall, Beomgyu can see a flower. A fragile scarlet flower, petals deteriorating every second possible. It was hurtful to see. He hoped this would be a positive situation, but then he remembered what he had done. The fragile flower did look up for the sun, only to see the same thunder bolt that destroyed him. Beomgyu now realised, this was guilt. It was guilt all along. He began to turn to exit, a sigh being the only form of communication as Soobin transferred his tears through electrical signals. (cant lie i waffled a bit there) He looked back to see Soobin once more; he was restored with hope with what he has seen Soobin do with his trembling hands. He pushed them out, like a hug without the other person. "Ki- Kiss, me." The words that Beomgyu thought were impossible, finally flowed out in the cutest way ever. Before he could follow the demand, he let out a squeal accompanied with many tears. He ran into Soobin's arms. If you could talk to him right now and ask him how that felt, he probably would have fainted. They were hugging at the moment, but cheeky Beomgyu over here, tripped Soobin over to fall onto the bed with a bounce. The way his fluffy light ginger-brown hair jumped along like a patch of cotton. Beomgyu couldn't hold back anymore, immediately joining their lips together. It was warm, but good. There was that gut feeling budging both of them, saying that this was wrong but they had already connected, if they had let go what difference would it make anyways? If it wasn't for Soobin pushing Beomgyu off of him, they would end up doing something else. Soobin was a good indicator for when to stop.
"Sorry, did I make you uncomfortable?"
"No it's just, I couldn't breathe hah. Oh, and Darla is on her way back from..work."
"Hyung. Let's take action. Be mine whilst we report to the police. Date me behind her back just like she did to you. I'm sure retribution feels better than fuc-"
"YAH BEOMGYU!! I GET IT- OKAY? I'M YOURS."