The sky was pitch-black, and huge clouds were heading in my direction. A tapping on the window was followed by a pitter-patter sound. As the clouds spat forth their water beads, people fled outside and opened their umbrellas. As the rain got stronger, puddles started to plink. This perfectly captured the storm raging inside my heart at the moment. Nothing can ever make me feel better, and there is no longer any hope for me. For Vivek bhaiya to reunite with his family, Sadhana didi has sacrificed her one true love. Ma needs to feel guilty for what she said the other day. Prem must be experiencing the same emotions as I am right now, I'm certain of it. He was still struggling to go beyond the anguish of Vivek not being his biological brother. Even before Vinod Chota was born, I can still picture how close those two used to be. They used to be the dearest of friends and trusted in one other all of their secrets. As they had agreed, when one of them was in danger or receiving criticism, the other would come to their defense and rescue. After Bhaiya left, Papa Ji became enraged with Mummy Ji and stopped speaking to her altogether. He no longer showed affection to anyone and was extremely upset due to his broken heart, which could not be mended. Since she went to America, my Sadhana di, who was the joy of my life, I lost her. I was staring at the photo of the three of us and reflecting back to the good old days. I had to sacrifice both my Prem and my life since it was officially ended. Prem abruptly went downstairs in sorrow. However, he had several bags and suitcases, and I knew right away he was about to say something. In disbelief, everyone gathered when Prem started moving toward the doorway. To stop him as quickly as possible, I ran after him. "PREM! Please return." As he grasped his son's wrist, Papa Ji had tears and rage in his eyes. "Papa, mujhe akela chhod do. Apane jeevan ke sabhi kashton ko bhulaane ke liye, main America kee yaatra kar raha hoon. Mujhe kaam par lautana chaahiye(Papa, leave me alone. To forget about all the suffering in my life, I'm traveling to America. I must return to work.)" "Aapako is ghar se nikalane kee anumati nahi hai! Is parivaar ke mukhiya ke roop mein, mujhe yah tay karana hai ki kaun rahata hai ya chhod deta hai.(You are not allowed to leave this house! As the head of this family, I get to decide who stays or leaves.)" When Prem heard what his mother was saying, he scowled angrily at her. "Main aise parivaar ka beta nahin banana chaahata jo alag-alag logon ke prati alag-alag star ka pyaar dikhaata ho aur apane priyajanon se jyaada apane bhaagy ko mahatv deta ho. Vivek bhaiya aur Sadhana didi ka hamaare khoon ya vansh se koee sambandh nahin hone ke kaaran aapane unhen ghar chhodane par majaboor kar diya. Aur bhale hi tum mujhe unake lie chunate ho, main tumhaare pyaar ko asveekaar karata hoon. Apane didi ko bhaiya se naata todane par majaboor kar unaka jeevan nark bana diya. Mere dil mein bas aapake lie napharat hai, Mummy ji(I do not want to be the son of a family that shows different levels of love toward various people and values their fortune more than their loved ones. Due to the fact that Vivek Bhaiya and Sadhana didi are not related to us by blood or ancestry, you forced them to leave the house. And even if you choose me for them, I reject your love. You made their lives hell by forcing didi to break all ties with bhaiya. I just have hatred for you, Mummy Ji, remaining in my heart.)" Papa Ji was weeping in silence as he saw his family crumble. Prem gives him a bear hug after noticing his reaction. "Mujhe vaastav mein khed hai, Papa, ki aapako isase gujarana pad raha hai. Bhale hi aap duniya ke sabase achchhe dad hain, aapaka parivaar bikhar raha hai. Bhale hee yah meree bhalaee ke lie hai, agar main aapakee sthiti mein hota to main tabaah ho jaata. Main Sadhana didi kee dekhabhaal karane ka vaada karata hoon. Preeti ko is parivaar ka samarthan karane ke liye yahaan rahana chaahiye(I'm really sorry, Papa, that you have to go through this. Even though you are the best dad in the world, your family is splitting up. Even though it is for my betterment, I would be devastated if I were in your position. I promise to look after Sadhana didi. Preeti must remain here to support this family.)" Prem led the way inside, and I knew he was making the right decision. "Prem, I am sorrry. Bhale hi tum mere baare mein vaisa hee mahasoos nahi kar sakate, bhale hi tum ab mere pati nahin ho sakate aur mere sapane chale gae, main tumhen hamesha pyaar karoonga. Please, kisee bhi keemat par Vivek bhaiya aur Sadhu didi ko phir se ek kar len. Bhale hee meree khushi ke har pahaloo ko tyaagana pade, main chaahata hoon ki yah parivaar ek baar phir se khush rahe(Prem, I'm sorry. I will always love you even if you can't feel the same way about me, even though you can't be my husband anymore and my dreams are gone. Please, at all costs, get Vivek bhaiya and Sadhu didi back together. Even if it takes giving up every aspect of my happiness, I want this family to once again be happy.)" Prem strengthened his hold on me and gave me a tender forehead kiss. "Aapako duniya kee pahali patni hona chaahiye jo doosaron ki madad karane ke liye apani khushi ka tyaag karane ko taiyaar ho. Aapake paas mera atoot pyaar hai. Main gaarantee deta hoon ki Vivek aur Sadhu phir se mil jaenge(You must be the first wife in the world who is willing to sacrifice her happiness in order to help others. You have my undying love. I'll guarantee that Vivek and Sadhu will be reunited.)" With tears in my eyes, I released my grip while mumbling "Goodbye, my love." As he hurried away, Prem wiped away his tears with his palm. The world appeared blurry to my unaided eyes. Nothing was clear, including the situation at hand, my surroundings, or my eyes or thinking. I only "cried" without taking any action. I sobbed endlessly. In my misery, I am powerless to speak. Sapna was indignant at what was being placed. "Aap apana ek sachcha pyaar kyon chhod rahe hain, main aapase poochhata hoon? Tum yah kya bakavaas kaam kar rahe ho? Aisa nahi ho sakata. Tum donon Mummy ji se is tarah ke vyavahaar ke laayak nahin ho, jo tumhaare liye bahut cruel ho rahee hain! Mujhe khed hai ki ham is parivaar se bilkul mile. Tum mujhe yah sikhaate ho kyonki tum meri bahan ho. Mujhe is poore parivaar se napharat hai(Why are you leaving your one true love, I ask you? What the heck are you doing? This cannot be taking place. You two don't deserve this kind of treatment from Mummy Ji, who is being too cruel to you! I regret that we met this family at all. "You teach me this because you are my sister. I just hate this entire family.)" I became startled by her statements until I suddenly witnessed Vinod smacking his wife in her face. "Sapana tum mere parivaar ke baare mein aisee bakavaas kyon kar rahee ho? Main tumase itana aatmakendrit hone ke lie napharat karata hoon. Aap apani vinamr bahanon se salaah kyon nahi le sakate? Lekin aap kabhi bhi apane dil mein koi sachchi bhaavana nahi dikhaate hain aur hamesha bahut prasann rahate hain. Dhyaan rakhen ki ek din jab aap museebat mein honge to aapako apane ravaiye par pachhataava hoga. Yadi mere bhaiyon aisa hee karenge, to main tum ko chhod doonga, kyonki main tum se ghrna karata hoon. Mere jeevan mein parivaar sabase pahale aata hai(Why are you talking such crap about my family, Sapna? I hate you for being so self-centered. Why can't you take advice from your humble sisters? But you never show any true feelings in your heart and are always so cheery. Keep in mind that you will regret your attitude one day when you are in trouble. If my brothers do the same, I will leave you since I hate you. Family comes first in my life.)" Sapna broke down in tears. "Vinod, yah tum kabhi nahi the!(Vinod, this was never you!)" "Aap galat hain, Sapna. Vaastav mein, yah aap kabhi nahi thee. Aap vah vyakti nahi hain jise main pyaar karati thi, jo bahut dayaalu, komal aur sabhi ke liye pyaar karane vaala tha. Mujhe samajh nahi aa raha hai ki aapako kya hua hai(You're mistaken, Sapna. Actually, this was never you. You're not the person I used to love, who was so kind, gentle, and loving to everyone. I don't understand what happened to you.)" I start to wonder why all of our joy in life was stolen from us as they both head off in different directions. I seek revenge on whoever injured my family, and I will do whatever it takes to find out what happened.
(Humpty Sharma Ki Dulhania-Samjhawan)
Hindi:
Nahi jeena tere baaju
Nahi jeena, nahi jeena
Nahi jeena tere baaju
Nahi jeena, nahi jeena
Nahi jeena tere baaju
Nahi jeena, nahi jeena
Nahi jeena tere baaju
Nahi jeena, nahi jeena
Main tenu samjhawan ki
Na tere bina lagda jee
Main tenu samjhawan ki
Na tere bina lagda jee
Tu ki jaane pyar mera
Main karoon intezar tera
Tu dil tu yun jaan meri
Main tenu samjhawan ki
Na tere bina lagda jee
Tu ki jaane pyar mera
Main karoon intezar tera
Tu dil tu yun jaan meri
Main tenu samjhawan ki
Na tere bina lagda jee
Mere dil ne chun laiyaa ne
Tere dil diyaan raahan
Tu joh mere naal tu rehta
Turpe meriyaan saaha
Jeena mera ... haai
Hun hai tera ki main karaan
Tu kar aitbaar mera
Main karoon intezar tera
Tu dil tu yun jaan meri
Main tenu samjhawan ki
Na tere bina lagda jee
Ve changa nayion keeta beeba
Ve changa nayion keeta beeba
Dil mera todh ke
Ve bada pachtaiyan akhaan
Ve bada pachtaiyan akhaan
Naal tere jodh ke
Tenu chadd ke kitthe jawan
Tu mera parchhanva
Tere mukhde vich hi main taan
Rab nu apne pawaan
Meri dua ... haai
Sajda tera kardi sadaa
Tu sun iqraar mera
Main karoon intezar tera
Tu dil tu yun jaan meri
Main tenu samjhawan ki
Na tere bina lagda jee
English:
I don't want to live without you
I don't want to live
I don't want to live without you
I don't want to live
I don't want to live without you
I don't want to live
I don't want to live without you
I don't want to live
How should I explain this to you
Without you my heart is nowhere
How should I explain this to you
Without you my heart is nowhere
What do you know about my love
I'm waiting for you
You're my heart and my soul
How should I explain this to you
Without you my heart is nowhere
What do you know about my love
I'm waiting for you
You're my heart and my soul
How should I explain this to you
Without you my heart is nowhere
My heart has chosen
The path that leads to your heart
Had you been with me
My life would have been easier
My life ... hey
Is now yours, what can I do
Have faith in me
I'm waiting for you
You're my heart and my soul
How should I explain this to you
Without you my heart is nowhere
You didn't do good, O decent one
You didn't do good, O decent one
By breaking my heart
My eyes repented a lot
My eyes repented a lot
After connecting with your eyes
Where would I go after leaving you
You're my shadow
In your face itself
I see my God
My prayer ... hey
I bow down to you forever
Listen to my confession
I'm waiting for you
You're my heart and my soul
How should I explain this to you
Without you my heart is nowhere
Sapna:
Vinod:
Preeti and Prem: