| can i show my love for you? |
It had been four days since Solana had last spoke to Notti, she felt as though she forgave him too quickly and felt as though he had jus used her because he hadn't made any sort of effort to speak to her since the day he had apologised.
Solana cried for the first day, she felt as though she was easy for him and he jus took advantage of that making her feel worse about herself; she truly thought he might've been serious about his apology but this changed her whole perspective
'Solllyyyyyyyyyyy' Elijah spoke as he walked into the room, he knew what had happened but he had no clue why Notti hadn't spoke to his sister because the boy hadn't been out on the block and when Edot asked his brothers where he was, the only response was a shoulder shrug
'maybe he jus maaaaaad busy or sum he ain't been onna block orrr at the stuuuu jus slide on him'
'what if he ain wan see me?' Solana breathed out turning to face her brother who mugged the girl
'fuck you mean, he waited madddd long fa you ta forgive him, gangsta' edot spoke looking at his sister 'he ain gon throw shit away dat quick Solly i promise yaaaa'
Solana looked at her brother as she shrugged her shoulders huffing in frustration, Ethan was never big on communication but Solana couldn't stand being ignored it IRKED her soul
'he hurt you Sol?' Elijah asked making eye contact with his sister, if Notti had hurt the girl he was definitely getting beat on—Elijah didn't care bout no age
'nahh he ain't he ain't' She reassured as hee brother nodded
'then go slide on him nigga'
Solana huffed in response before nodding and standing up, she was going to get down to the end of this even if it wasn't something positive.
Notti tended to get up and walk away from his problems, the boy would often ignore them and act like they wasn't there until—they wasn't.
He knew he couldn't do that to Solana because she wasn't the problem, it was him.
However, after waiting for Solana for so long he felt like he had used her by doing that on the first night of her forgiving him. He should've waited to get intimate with her again because that meant their bond would be re-built on sexual relations not genuine bonding.
All he needed was space so he could think about what he really wanted to pursue with Solana. He knew he wanted to get back together with her because the girl was his whole heart and soul but he wanted their relationship to be strong and not just sex.
They had always had a genuine connection to eachother before, they were best friends and when they began to date things were a bit rocky but the connection was still there until Ethan cheated. The connection was what he missed most so before jumping into anything either of them could regret he wanted that CONNECTION back so he could know they genuinely wanted eachother.
Ethan didn't think he was ready for a relationship yet but he worked so hard to get Solana back. Why would he throw it away because HE wasn't ready.
On the other end Solana felt like she had waited too long and maybe the spark wouldn't come back; maybe the connection between them was completely gone.
The two didn't really interact during the time they were away from eachother and due to the two growing they had mindset changes, what if they were no longer made for eachother, maybe a relationship would make everything worse than it already was
That scared Solana. She really loved and missed Ethan but she was scared it wouldn't be how it used to be. They were perfect together and she truly felt like she was living that movie type of love until it all fell down; what if it no longer felt that way?
Their relationship wasn't guaranteed to be the same but what if it completely didn't work. Solana wanted it to work because she had missed the boy and truly if it didn't work she didn't know what she would do.
She relied heavily on Ethan and having him back was a huge relief
it was just how long would she have him back for?
If he already begun ignoring her maybe the whole thing was never serious, although Solana wanted to believe he was just going through something because she didn't think she could deal with that heart break again.
Just as Solana was about the climb back into bed scared of that the boy would say, her phone pinged indicating she had a message
she smiled seeing Ethan's contact before clicking to open the message
Ry🫶🏽
you down ta slide?
ian mean ta ghost yhu
Vin🫶🏽
yea i'm omw
Ry🫶🏽
aii baby, be safe
doors unlocked.
Vin🫶🏽
im always safe.
niccas know the vibeessss
Ry🫶🏽
you onnat timing mama?
Vin🫶🏽 liked a message
Solana slipped on her crocs before pocketing her phone into her jeans pockets and grabbing her moncler coat hurrying down the stairs.
The girl hoped Ethan explained why he had been ignoring her because if she wasn't given a clear explanation she would over think on why he did it.
Being that Ethan didn't live too far it took Solana less than 10 minutes to reach his front door as she knocked on it lightly.
'Hey Solllyyyyyyyyy' Jay smiled pulling the younger into a hug as she instantly hugged back, a bright smile present on her face
'hey husbandddddd' She grinned widely in Jay's face as they pulled away from the hug and he ruffled her hair
'i'm toooo old fa yo young ass' he laughed as she frowned then shook her head
'age is jus a number papiiiiiii' she dragged out laughter laced in her tone as the taller boy pushed her head
'mmcht get on wit dat shit' he laughed walking back to the kitchen as Solana removed her shoes before heading up the stairs already knowing her way around the house
once she had reached the boys door which was on its own hallway in the house she knocked lightly before hearing him mumble
'come in'
as she slowly opened the door she was hit with the smell of his dolce gabbana cologne along with the smell of weed
'hey mamaaaaa' he smiled engulfing her in a hug before she even entered his room fully, he buried his head into the girls neck and placed all his weight onto her as she hugged back
'aiii you suffocating me baby' she laughed as he pulled away pulling her along with him, once he sat down on his bed he pulled her onto his lap, wrapping his arms around her waist as she now buried her head into his neck
'whatchu wanted ta talk about?' she asked quietly as he sighed knowing he would have to explain everything to her, this was the one thing he was dreading
'issa lot baby, but you gotta listen' he spoke as Solana's heart dropped, she thought she was over what he did before but this just brought back so many memories, her mind instantly went to any negatives things that could've happened instead of anything positive
She decided to stay silent instead of replying
'you gonna listen Sol?' he questioned hearing the girls response of silence; one thing Notti hated was silence
he couldn't stand when he was having a conversation with someone and they didn't reply, he needed verbal answers because that was just something he was big on.
'speak up mama ian hear you' He mumbled as Solana felt the butterflies in her stomach, the boys accent mixed with his tone of voice was enough to make her blush——he always sounded like he was trying to seduce her when most of the time he was just trying to have a conversation
she felt her head get pulled back as Notti's hand rested on her jaw making her face him
'i'm not bouta ask again Vinnie, you gon listen ta me?' He asked watching her nod then look down at her lap, she knew that wasn't enough for him but with the way he was looking at her, the way he smelt, his voice, the fact he was high, his hand rubbing up and down her thigh and the fact she was sat on his lap; she couldn't bring herself to give a verbal answer
The boy sighed pulling the girls face to look at him again before slightly gripping her throat; Solana felt herself become flustered
'yes E, ima listen baby' she replied as he nodded then pulled her back to lay on his shoulder
'aii coo' She felt him take a deep breathe, no matter how scared she was she would sit there and listen because she wanted to hear him out——she needed to know why he had ignored her for a whole four days.