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Love me or love me not; it's upto you! I'll always love you forever..
Because my happiness resides in you.. and if the one path to happiness closes, opens another.....
~PrantikaC.
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The sunlight fell on her beautiful, calming face... Squinting her eyes , she opened them taking her own time adjusting with the light..
When she tried to move her hands and legs she felt caged.. confused she looked at her body which was covered with the duvet. Lifting the duvet with her only free hand she saw herself and her eyes grew wide.
Her body was entangled with another body. She looked up immediately to find the most beautiful and attractive brown orbs staring back at her... And that's when she realised everything... Last night 's events played in her mind and her face turned to the deepest shade of red.
" Good morning Ms. Kapoor!" His morning voice sounded so sexy that she had to close her legs .. noticing the movement he chuckled..
" Morning.." she mumbled trying to get up when he stopped her again.
He smiled brightly at her as he observed the after love radiating glow on her face .. she looked confused at him and couldn't help but ask the question.
" Why are you so happy? I mean you're smiling so brightly.."
" I'm just happy that I completed half century !" He grinned making her more confused.
" Half century? Of what?" She asked when he came on top of her taking her by surprise..
" You were my 50th therapist... And after last night, you're now with me on the bed.. rest you're wise enough to know." He smirked nuzzling his nose on her neck.. she thought for a while and when she realised what he meant she slapped his arms looking away frowning.
" So I'm another one in that list .. great.." the annoyance or precisely hurt in her voice didn't go unnoticed by him.
" Hey hey.." he cupped her face making her look straight into his eyes.
" You might've been my therapist and completed that fucking stupid century.. but trust me you were the last therapist I fucked... And the first girl I made love with.. " his words astonished her as she looked at him taken aback.
" Yes... Fucking and making love is a whole different concept... Yesterday.. was beautiful.. it was magical.. I never felt this connected and involved ever in my life.. you felt perfect against my body.. you completed me baby.. and you are the opening person with whom I started this whole new magical thing of making love.. and trust me when I say that.. you'll be the only person I'll make love with .. " he completed making her heart swell with so many emotions.
Mihir could be this romantic too.. she never thought that.
He leaned down kissing her soft petals as she wrapped her arms around the nape of his neck..
He broke the kiss and looked into her eyes..
" And I plan on completing many centuries with you and only you.." he said smirking making her blush hard ... Her blushing face turned into a pained one when he entered again.. he turned their position such that now she was sitting above him.
" Time for round two.." he winked making her blush again.. and that's how their morning actually turned out to be good..
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Meera sat with Stella on her lap ... Looking out at the rainy view still lost in her thoughts. Her hands kept on ruffling the little cats fur who sat silently enjoying her mom's care..
All the happenings till now processed in her mind and she knew she couldn't keep Manik in dark.. she had to tell him that she doesn't feel anything for him.. and she can't accept his proposal.
Mihir is the one she loves.. and she had to tell him about her feelings too.
Mihir has dropped her in the morning to her apartment... They simply bid their goodbyes to eachother as both of them had to clear things out... No one really spoke a word. They just hugged and left eachother..
Things weren't really awkward but both of them knew it'll get awkward and messy eventually if they don't do what they've decided to do.
Meera's phone rang and her hands dropped from the cat to pick the phone to which the cat whined making her chuckle.
" Hello." She gently spoke with a smile when the words she heard made her smile vanish and the phone to drop from her hands.
When she thought things were going to be alright, problems had to pop in her life.
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Parking the car she ran inside the hospital hastily.. searching for the lift. She didn't had to ask the receptionist.. she already knew where she had to go..
Taking the lift she reached the 3rd floor and hurried towards the medical cabin. Her hasty steps halted when she saw her friends standing outside with a worried look.
" Where's he?" She asked panting as her eyes turned misty ..
" Inside... He has asked for you multiple times.. he just wants to see you.. and no one else.." Isha said sighing..
She gulped the lump formed in her throat and looked at the door ... She was nervous to see him in this state.. she just couldn't see him like that...
Standing there rooted on her place, she breathed in and out first trying to calm herself.. just then the door opens and walks out the doctor.
" Doctor how's he?" She asked nearing him.
" Ms. Kapoor! You got late ... The patient has asked for you hundred times by now.." he said smiling at her..
" I know.. I'm sorry.. I just.. was caught up.. with something.. can you tell me how's he?" She asked tucking her stray hairs behind.
" Well.. I won't lie to you Ms. Kapoor.. but he's not in a good state right now.. he has got absolutely null external injuries.. just his hand and legs have got some scratches.. but.. as we know car accidents can lead to mild to severe head injuries.. unfortunately he has suffered severe head injury.. concussion and confusions, restlessness agitations will be there to deal with.. things might have gotten worsen like skull fracture or he might have gone to coma but nothing of that sort happened.. "
They left a breathe of relief after hearing him..
" So he's fine right doctor?" Asked Raina hoping the answer to be yes.
" You can say that.. but his case is very delicate.. don't put pressure on him.. try to keep him happy... Obey him.. and don't argue.. or else the swelling in head might lead to disastrous things.. just be there with him.. love him and cure him.. this accident could've led to his death too but with god's grace he's fine.." he said and walked out to attend his other patients.
" Thankgod dude.. I was so worried!" Isha said taking the other two in a hug ..
" Ms. Meera?" They broke the hug and turned to find a nurse looking at them questionably.
" Yes.. it's me.." Meera stepped forward.
" The patient wants to see you.." she informed and nodding at her she went inside the cabin closing the door behind her.
When her eyes fell on the man lying there with a bandage on his head and few scratches and cuts on his arms and legs her heart dropped ..
He opened his eyes slowly and as his eyes fell on her , he smiled weakly at her.. she took slow steps towards him until she reached the bed and stood holding his one hand in hers..
" I thought I'll never see you again.. I thought I lost you.." he whispered looking into her brown eyes..
" Not a chance.." she whispered smiling tearfully..
" I love you Meera... And I can't live without you... Just tell me the answer already... I'm dying to hear it... " His words felt like a stone thrown towards her face..
She wasn't expecting that right now..
" Manik.... I.. "
" I've already planned everything Meera.. our wedding.. venue.. guestlist.. your favourite menu.. outfits.. evrything.. you just have to say yes.. infact I was thinking to tie the knot by the end of this month! What say? Won't it be awesome? Like we'll be celebrating our new year as a husband and wife.. I'm so happy already... Our future is sorted...oh god... Meera... I'm so happy to have you.." he said pulling her towards him..
She fell on him as he hugged her tightly.. her eyes went blank as a tear dropped from her eyes..
Agitation.... Confusions.... Excitement...
All of this will be a part of him now... And if we hurt him or make him upset.. it'll cause problems which we won't ever want in his life..
No one ever wants themselves in such a pathetic point of life where Meera stood right now..
At one side .. she had her feelings for the man who have loved her last night.. and at the other side she had her bestfriend who have always loved and supported her in every phase of life.
She had to either break the man's heart she loves with her evrything or kill the man for whom she was his evrything..
None of the choices looked appealing to her but she knew she had to choose one..
Either Mihir or Manik.
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She came out of the hospital to sit alone in the small park which was beside... As soon as she started to sit on the bench she heard a familiar voice.
" Meera.."
She didn't had to turn and see who was it. Closing her eyes she started preparing herself for the moment she never wished to have with him.
" Hey... Where have you been huh? I was searching for you from the morning... " He asked turning her towards him when his eyes fell on her and he was taken aback at the coldness in them.
" What's wrong?" He asked cupping her face..
" Evrything... All of these are wrong.." she replied making him confused..
" Excuse me?"
" Why are you here Mihir?" She asked coming out of his hold.
" For you.. I've come to tell you that I'm ready to take our relationship to the next level.." he was beaming in happiness contradicting to her blank emotions.
" Relationship? What relationship?" She asked ..
" What has happened to you Meera? Why are behaving like you don't know anything? Our relationship! You and me.. us.. " he held her shoulders again trying to bring her closer to him...
" There's no us here Mihir... Have you forgot Manik has proposed me... "
" And?" He asked raising his brows..
" And I said yes.." as soon as she said that his grip on her arms loosened..
" What the fuck ? Are you insane? How can you do that? After what happened last night, I thought it was the start to our relationship!!" He screamed on her face ..
" Come on Mihir.. we're adults.. things happen.. you've had sex with so many countless girls till now.. does that mean you have got into a relationship with everyone?" She asked rather calmly..
Her calmness for the first time was making him angry..
" You're not among anyone and everyone.. you're different Meera.. and I told you this in the morning itself.. you're special damnit.. what the fuck is wrong with you?" He was losing his every bit of patience but she stayed calm..
" I'm no special Mihir.. I was just another therapist whom you successfully got on your bed.. you should be happy that you've completed the half century.. " she shrugged when he looked at her with a nasty glare.
" God.. Meera.. you're sick.. you disgust me right now.." he stepped back from her but instead of feeling hurt or letting any other emotion out she just smiled at him..
" You've Cherri.. you've always wanted her.. I'm just your therapist.. or precisely I was your therapist.. I have Manik in my life now.. we're both happy with our partners.. then why do you want to complicate things now?" She asked seriously confused when he looked at her angrily.
" I'm not with Cherri you fool.. I never got back with her.. that day she told me she loves me but you know what I said? I told her that I don't feel anything for her anymore.. I actually never felt anything for her.. it has always been my obsession.. my stubborn attitude to get what I never could have.. and finally when I had it I lost the interest... " His revelation left her shocked..
" What?" She asked in a mere whisper..
" Yes... I told her that I want to love myself first.. I want to live for myself first.. I don't want to start anything with her because she simply doesn't affect me anymore.. and she understood it.. she respected my opinion. She became the bestfriend I never had.. in these past 2 years she has been beside me , helping me to achieve more success.. but your place remained vacant just for you.. she couldn't provide me the peace, the comfort, the love which only you could provide.. but I never mind it at all... Because you were irreplaceable in my life.. in my heart... " He said now stepping closer to her again as she stood there silently taking in his every word.
" Then why didn't you tried to reach out to me? Why didn't you come to me all these years? I saw you with Cherri .. I thought you guys were.."
" No.. she's just my friend Meera.. my bestfriend.. just like Manik is to you.. " he said now cupping her face in his hands ..
" You mean waited for me? Why?" She asked looking into his eyes searching for the truth..
" Because I love you Meera.. I love you alot.. and I've waited because I knew you're mine.. and what's yours will come back to you sooner or later.." he said touching her forehead with his.
She closed her eyes breathing heavily... How she wished she could respond to that.. she has dreamt of this countless times in the last 2 years.. and now finally when it was happening, she was helpless..
" I'm sorry Mihir.. but I'm not the one for you.." she whispered and his eyes jerked open.. he tilted his face back to look at her.
" No... You're the one for me.. you're the one who knows me inside out.. and I'm the one who can see through you.. you love me Meera.. accept it.. " he was trying his best to make her admit her true feelings but she has already built a wall around her which no one but only she herself could break..
But sadly.. she wasn't going to do that..
" I don't love you Mihir.. I just care for you.. I like you.. but just as my patient and a good friend.. it'll be better if you just forget me and move on... " She tried to make him understand.. but who was we kidding to?
It was the Mihir Sehgal.. and no one could make him understand and belive things when it comes to his love for someone..
" You don't fuck you patients do you?" His pupils started dialating as anger started resurfacing in him..
" I don't.. but as I said.. we're adults.. and things like this happen.. you've so much ahead waiting for you in your life.. don't waste it for a girl like me.." she said palming his cheeks ...
" Don't leave me Meera.. please.. you complete me.. we complete eachother.." he sounded so vulnerable and it pained her to see that.
"No one can complete you Mihir.. it's you yourself who completes you.. " she stated smiling weakly...
She knew that was a complete lie.. but she had to make him believe that he didn't had to be dependent on her or anyone for his happiness.. for his completion..
Her words instead of calming him like it used to do fuelled his anger..
" So you don't want me? " He asked in a hoarse tone..
" I am with Manik now .. I'm his .. so does it really matter what I want and what I don't.. though I still want you as a friend.." she said holding his hands as they stood at a distance now.
"Do you even love him Meera? That you're saying this bullshit?" He asked in disbelief..
She didn't had the answer to that.. her lips could lie but her eyes couldn't.
And he wasn't wrong when he said that! He and only he could see through her...
" You're basically destroying 3 lives.. Manik , mine and lastly yours.. love is important.. and you yourself know it very well.. and it's us who love eachother.. not the other way around Meera.. you really don't have to do this.. just tell me the problem.. I'll solve it.. please.." he urged her to confess but she was hell adamant to not do that..
" Love is important Mihir.. but not more than lives.." she whispered looking away but he heard that..
" With time you'll get over it.. trust me.. I'm not worth of your love.. years after when you'll recall all these.. you'll laugh at yourself for doing such stupidities.. just like I do right now when I think about my past.." she chuckled expecting him to do the same but he remained silent and serious..
" I don't love you Mihir.. I don't.." she tried to make him or rather herself believe that ... But who was we kidding?
She knew she was lying.. and as of him.. she has always been an open book in front of him.. and he knew anything and everything about her..
" Love me or love me not Meera... I'll love you ... You may move on leaving me behind.. but whenever you'll turn back you'll find me right there waiting for you.." he said looking deep into her eyes meaning every bit of what he said.
" Don't become the Mihir Sehgal I met years back Mihir.. please.." her pleading voice made him smile..
She cares.... Not because of friendship.. but because of love..
" I won't... I am a better version of myself now.. and you're the one who created this version.. keep denying me.. but at the end of the day you won't be able to deny yourself.. that you love me.." he said smiling at her..
She remained silent.. just looking at him.. with so many emotions playing in her eyes..
He stepped closer and leaned down .. she closed her eyes thinking he was going to kiss her but to her disappointment he pecked her forehead...
" Good bye Ms. Kapoor."
And with that said he walked past her leaving her in a turmoil of emotions from where it was impossible to get out...
Her life has always been a mess..
And now her heart and she herself has became a mess too..
And all credit goes to love.
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Leaving her was a difficult move for him to make.....
But he knew she was going to come back to him , not for him but her own sake.....
~PrantikaC.