It’s been 3 weeks and Remus has been ignoring you with all his might. It is extremely frustrating for you to deal with him like this.
First, it started with him not replying to you back a greeting you sent towards him. Then he would sit far away from you in the great hall and now whenever he sees you he runs towards the other direction. When you try to confront him he comes up with an excuse of how he is late for a class or something.
So you started sending him letters, and he replied to none of them. It was infuriating.
You almost gave up on him but then you remembered the memorable and fun times with him and how much you loved those moments together.
Like that one time in the common room…
❦
It was just the two of you in the common room with a vinyl record player playing some David Bowie songs to which you would occasionally bob your head while tracing the scars on his arms.
Suddenly you looked at Remus. The way his face would shine from the fire and how beautiful his scars looked on him. He isn’t fond of his scars and hates them but you think his scars form a beautiful pattern like constellations.
Remus saw you looking at him and spoke, careful not to break the peaceful atmosphere.
“What?”
“You have a pretty face Lupin.”
Remus flushed at your compliment and tried hiding his blush by deflecting the compliment.
“There is nothing really special about it.”
“There is. You have scars which I could trace to form constellations on and eyes as deep as the ocean and I fear if I look too deep into your eyes I might drown in them and might never be able to come back for air and that will be fine because I would rather die in those pools of water then never see your face again.
Remus just looked at you lovingly and asked, “Why do you like my scars so much?”
“Because they are a part of you and I love each and every single part of you Remus, even the ones you would call ugly. I will love them forever and always.”
“You’re acting like you’re in love with me,” Remus said half-jokingly.
“Maybe I am.”
Remus choked on the air with wide eyes.
“I’m joking silly,” You said as you lightly shoved him.
Remus nervously chuckled. It’s not like he is in love with you.
“Are you in love with me?” You asked with mischief glinting in your eyes.
“Who would fall in love with you?” Remus retorted.
“Oh my gosh, Remus, Shut up!” You said as you punched him in the arm.
“Ow.”
“It was well deserved.”
“Indeed.”
You both laughed at each other's antics when suddenly you stood up.
“Oh my gosh! Remus, Starman!!!”
Remus listened to the music carefully and you were right Starman by David Bowie was playing on the vinyl player.
You increased the volume and started singing the lyrics.
There’s a Starman
waiting in the sky
He’d like to come and meet us but he thinks he’d blow our minds
There’s a Starman
waiting in the sky
He’s told us not to blow it cus he knows it’s all worthwhile he told me
Let the children lose it
Let the children use it
Let all the children boogie
You stretched out your hand towards him and asked, “Remus John Lupin, may I please have this dance with you?”
“No.”
“Oh, come on now,” You whined.
“I don’t dance.”
“Oh yes, you do!”
You pulled him up and held both of his hands and swayed to the music.
Don't tell your poppa or he’ll get us locked up in fright
There’s a Starman
waiting in the sky
He’d like to come and meet us but he thinks he’d blow our minds
There’s a Starman
waiting in the sky
He’s told us not to blow it cus he knows it’s all worthwhile he told me
You both screamed the song at the top of your lungs. You both had never felt more alive.
❦
That was your favourite memory with him, unfortunately, that was the last conversation you had with him because, from the next day forwards, he ignored you and didn’t even give you a reason for it.
You have been trying to talk to him but he wouldn’t listen to you.
A few days later your birthday arrived and you were a pretty popular person because of your good looks and good grades. You were also very nice so people liked you and knew you. So it was no surprise when more than the people you invited came to your birthday party. Even Remus came. You did give him an invite through James but you didn’t think he would actually show up.
You were greeting your multitude of guests when you saw Remus approaching you.
“Happy birthday Y/N,” Remus said handing you your gift.
“Thank you, Remus, how are you?” You asked.
“I’m good, you?”
“I’m great."
"Are you sure because you haven’t been talking to-”
“I think I heard Sirius calling me, I gotta go bye.” He quickly said running away from you.
You saw him rushing into the crowd of people to get away from you and it hurt to know that he didn’t want to be in our company.
“Enjoy the party.” You murmured with a frown.
❦
Remus pushed towards the crowd of people and saw Sirius flirting with a girl with long brown hair but suddenly a girl came out of nowhere and started shouting at them. The angry asked Sirius something to which Sirius with wide eyes shook his head and she took the other girl’s arm and dragged her off somewhere.
Remus then approached Sirius.
“What was that all about?” Remus asked.
“The angry girl was the girl’s girlfriend,” Sirius replied.
“You really are a homewrecker.”
“I didn’t know!!! What about you?!”
“What about me?”
“Did you tell Y/N how you feel about her?”
“What are you talking about.”
“Moony, I see how you look at her, in fact, we all do.”
“I don’t know what you are talking about.”
“Oh my- Just take this.” He hands Remus a shot of fire whiskey. “And don’t come back until you confess to her.”
Remus looked at him dully.
“Come on, Moony you can do it.”
“Fine.” Remus drank the shot and walked to where he last saw you.
He wasn’t actually going to confess to you, he was going back to his room and was going to read a nice book and go to sleep. If he wanted to confess to you he would’ve probably done it at the beginning of the semester but the fear of rejection took over. That’s why he has been ignoring you. He thinks if he stays away from you for a while he will lose feeling for you, which is unfortunately not working.
As he was heading to the boy's dormitory he saw a guy leaning on you a little too close while you were looking uncomfortable. His hand was slowly snaking around your waist as he got closer. You put a hand between your faces and said no but the guy wouldn't budge and kept getting close to you.
Remus saw red. He walked long paces towards you both and as you saw him relief washed over you.
“Hey, hands off her,” Remus said as he pushed the guy extra hard just so he could come to his senses. He looked very drunk and could barely stand up.
“Move. I and the pretty lady were having a conversation over here.” He slurred his words together.
“I don’t think so. So I’ll ask you politely, kindly fuck off."
Remus took your arm and led you to a more secluded place with the music echoing through the walls.
You sat down on the floor with your hands hugging your knees with later Remus following you and sitting beside you.
“Are you ok?” Remus asked.
“Why do you suddenly care?” You asked back.
“I've always cared for you Y/N,” Remus replied.
“Then why have you been ignoring me?” You retorted.
“I have my reasons.”
“What are they?’
“I can't tell you that.”
“Remus please tell me I want to know if you still even want to be my friend!”
“I do want to be your friend, I really do.”
“Then what is it? you won't talk to me, you won't reply to my letters what is it just tell me!”
“I-”
“Just spit it out!!”
“Because I like you. I really really like you.”
Silence.
He shouldn’t have said it. Remus really shouldn’t have said it. It was all Sirius’ fault for giving him the liquid courage and making him confess to you. Oh how he hated himself right now, now all he did was wait for you to laugh and make fun of him.
“Are you kidding me?! Are you stupid or something? why didn't you tell me?”
“So I wouldn't get rejected,” Remus replied quietly.
“Are you dense or something you fucking idiot?!”
“If you do not like me just tell me why you have to yell?” Remus replied a bit annoyed by your tone.
“I like you too you daft giraffe.”
“That's new, wait what?” Remus looked at you surprised.
“I've been giving you hints since the start of the semester. I've been flirting with you, I’ve been gifting you stuff, I've been sitting next to you at every chance I got I even shared my goddamn food with you!”
“I thought you were being friendly.”
“You bloody twat.” You shouted at him as you hit him on his arm.
“Ow.”
“It was well deserved.”
"Indeed."
“So.. you wanna kiss,” Remus asked with a warm smile on his face.
“Is that really a question?"
You grabbed his collar and pulled him in for the kiss. It was a sweet and sensual kiss with no hurry in it. You both savoured the kiss like it was your last. As soon as you both pulled away from the kiss, you laughed at him.
“What?” He asked smiling at you.
“You’re really dumb you know that.”
“That’s why you love me.”
“Oh, shut up.”