To the present me,

Pain.

"She needs to work on herself",that's what the love of my life told my her.That was after I gave my final fight to keep him,"this is toxic",he said,but he was the toxic one and I didn't want to learn that because I was terrified to loose the attachment I worked so hard for to build.I was terrified,broken and my heart was suffocating each and everytime I asked him a question and he didn't reply claiming I was giving him pressure,it was pressure I wanted to know why he was drifting from me.It didn't work because I LOST