When?
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You kneeled in front of me,
I assume you already know.
I will be leaving soon.
But you hope for something.
That thing I want to give,
That thing I cannot give.
I cried and you cried,
Your crushed heart crushes mine.
Your back I saw fading,
The most painful walk I witness.
I held myself from chasing you,
I held myself.
But I remember you asked,
"When?" "When is you and me?"
I did not speak,
For I don't know what to say.
I just cried,
And you just cried...and left.
Years have past,
Many have differed.
Years have past,
Same things still compose me.
Except for some add ons,
Things I don't want to have.
The moment your face appeared,
My heart jump,
My heart beats fast,
My mind aches,
My cheeks flame,
My body paralyzed.
You walk towards me,
I can't help but stay still.
The way you walk change,
Maybe all of you changed.
Then you're in front of me,
You smiled and I smiled.
You held my hand,
I held yours.
Yours is warm,
Mine is cold,
Then I started to cry,
You clear them,
But I they don't stop.
Then you suddenly ask,
"Is today that 'When'?".
Your voice is eager,
Anxious and happy.
But I shook my head.
I shook my head and cried.
"Then when?" I heard you ask,
"When is that you and me?".
I shook my head.
A tiny voice chirp in.
He called me 'mom',
Your face is shock.
"I'm sorry" I wanted to say.
Then HE appeared.
HE grabbed my hand,
Away from yours.
And said "Back off."
I saw your grim face
I want to say sorry.
"When?" "When is you and me?"
You ask again.
I did not speak.
For not that I don't know what to say,
But because HE is here.
I just cried,
And you just cried...and left...forever.