I have many tasks to do before I fall asleep. I had to write Lady Danbury, Lady Violet, Viscount and Viscountess Bridgerton, and my mother who told me she was going to come over for sunrise. I cheeked on papa and told him good night. On the way back to my room I told everybody I saw the same thing. I bathed and talked to Victoria. And I even had a chat with Amos before he went to bed yet I still had a hard time falling asleep. There was only one thing that was on my mind and my thoughts about him were restless.
I was in the meadow standing next to Amos and my horse Mercury as the sun began to set. All of a sudden I feel like I can't breathe like I'm being drowned....literally.
My eyes snap as I quickly sit up coughing before gasping for air. When I finally caught my breath I noticed that I was soaking wet. I looked to my right to see multiple eyes watching me.
"Mother, why would you do that?" I fumed. "I tried calling your name but you did not move an inch" she shrugged her shoulders. "And you did not think a simple pat would suffice" I all but yelled being put in a horrible mood.
"No, that option did not cross my mind, maybe next time" she chimed before walking away. "Make haste we have break fast with your father in an hour" she left the room Brimsley and two other women followed her out.
I'm already moody on most mornings but the lack of sleep and being drowned awake amplified that by a hundred. The target of my misery are the people in my room staring at me as if I was a zoo animal.
"Amos could you have not offered to wake me yourself or maybe told it is not a good idea to drown her child awake" I seethed.
"Sophia your mother is the queen of Great Britain it not like I can just tell her what- "I get it you have such respect for hierarchy from now on know your place, that goes for everyone in here, now get out" I snapped.
"Sop- Princess we have to get you ready for- "I am very much capable of getting myself ready, thank you Victoria, now would you all, so kindly remove yourselves from my room so I can get ready" I gave them all a venomous smile. Everyone left the room in a hurry, Amos was the only one hesitant.
I am very much not capable of getting dressed myself. Putting on a corset myself took at least forty-five minutes. I have too much pride to ask for help. I styled my hair in two simple braids. Before putting on my jewelry and my gown.
I walk out the room strutting to the dining room. Amos five paces behind me, I didn't question knowing I either upset him or he was respecting my wishes. I'm going to go with both.
I make my way into the dining room to see my father sitting at the head of the table and my mother on the other end. I walked towards my father and took a set on the left side of the table. "My little planet, it's good of you to join us" father told me, kissing my cheek. "Father, I always come to break fast," I reminded him.
"Of course I know that silly but your mother is here today" he told me with a huge smile. I gave him a small smile. Mother and father chatted away while I ate tiredly with my head in my hand. "Mary-Sophia get your elbows off the table where are your manners" Mother exclaimed.
"Do you really want to talk about manners because I would love to talk about yours" I said already mad at her.
"Amelia what has gotten into you, you are never this bad mannered, you're acting like your little sister, now listen to your mother" my father snapped and reprimanded.
"Maybe the reason I'm acting like this is because- I snapped back, almost correcting him.
"Because?" he questioned.
"Maybe the reason I'm acting like this is because I'm not well rested papa," I lied.
"Well my diamond, maybe you should rest," Father suggested in a gentle tone. "Yes I shall do that now papa, will you excuse me" I asked standing up, setting my napkin down. "Of course Amelia, have a good rest" father said.
"Sop- Amelia you have hardly eaten" my mother said giving me a look of pity.
"Yes, well I have lost my appetite, mother" I told her calmly before giving father a kiss and leaving the room teary eyed.
"Sophia, Sophia wait a second" I heard my mother calling after me. I stopped waiting for her.
"Sophia I thought you said he stopped calling you by her name" I heard my mother say sadly. "He did stop for a couple of days at least" I told her, still facing forward.
"Why did you not tell me?" she said, sounding hurt.
"Why didn't I tell you?" I forced out a laughed and turned around. "Mother, when did I have the time to tell you? In between your ramblings about yourself or whistledown? Or maybe you want me to tell your ghost that wanders these empty halls? Mother you are never around!" I exclaimed letting a couple tears fell freely before whipping them away.
"Listen my love, I know I have not been the best mother" my mother vouched.
"You have not been much of a mother at all" my voice broke as my lip began to tremble.
"But I..."she hesitated as her eyes watered, I shook my head biting my lip. "Mother I am restless, I shall take my leave" I whispered looking at the floor. 'Sophia-
"your majesty" I interjected, giving her a curtsy. She nodded her head piercing her lips. I left as fast as possible to a place where no one would bother me. The stables.
"Why is today so horrible? It was supposed to be so...different" I whined while petting mercury
"well maybe it is because you overreacted" a gruff voice refuted.
"I know but everyone was being crass, and father, he reprimanded me for being myself" I emphasized.
"no he reprimanded Amelia for acting like you" he corrected
"that does not make it better, it might even make it worst" I complained
"maybe you should apologize you did behave poorly" he suggested
"I know, but how does one go about that" I asked
"I do not know I'm just a horse" I admitted in a gruff voice. "Mercury you truly are no help" I told my horse. He nudged me with his head. "I'm sorry boy, I lied you are very helpful" I laughed while petting his head.
"Talking to your horse now, maybe you truly are insane" Amos suddenly appeared next to me .
"Fudge!" I flinched away from him. "Amos don't scare me like that," I exclaimed, holding my hand against my chest.
He laughed before giving me a small smile. "Everyone is looking for you," he told me softly.
"That is why I came here" I told him, going back to petting mercury to avoid looking at him. "This is where you came to hide? You need better hiding spots. This was my first thought" he confessed.
"Well maybe you just know me too well" I grumbled. "Aye, I do, I know you well enough to know that you are drowning in guilt," he claimed. "Yes well I just threw a royal tantrum over getting wet" I affirmed.
"You think that's the worst we've seen, I remember when your mother was pregnant with your brother, if someone even glanced at her she would chew their head off" he raved.
"That is besides the point, I should not have taken my anger out on any of you, it was wrong, Amos I am truly sorry" I apologized turning to look at him. He just stared at me.
"Do you forgive me?" I fearfully asked. "No". I swear I felt my heart drop.
"But I will if you make me a batch of your sweets" he continued with a smile. "You truly are evil Charles Amos" I said, shaking my head.
Over the next few hours I spent my time baking many batches of cookies, handing them out to everyone who I yelled at. Before having to get ready to meet Mr. strange.
Baking is very soothing. Let us find out who Mr. Strange Man truly is. Sadly that won't be until the next chapter. I'll see you next time my Gentle readers.