Pete's Pov
Suddenly I feel an uneasy feeling in my whole body making my mood upside down.
'Oh my... Am I going to throw up again?' I felt a lump form in my throat but before I can reached the bathroom I vomited all over the bedside carpet. Like always I was too late. My throat started to burn, my stomach makes weird tension painfully and my head throbing from a headache.
I don't know what's happening with me. I feel weak all over myself. I feel like my mind covered wirh a dark foggy, my sense going numb little by little. I took some deep breaths while clutching my throbing head with both hands.
When I feel My vision get blurt a little by little, I take few deep breaths to steady myself while leaning at the foot of the bed.
This is not new, this shit is happenings every morning continuesly since two weeks. When I asked about my currently situation from doc he said to me there is nothing to worry about and it was a very normal reaction to person who is recovering from traumatic coma and maybe side effects from the medicine I had received.
By the time I was done with vomiting, my head was pounding like a drum and I covered with cold sweat and snot. My cheeks wet with tears and I feel like my throat on a fire. Literally said I feel like shit. This is probably due to the stress I feel yesterday, so there is not big deal.
I thought today my all plans get ruined but after a while I felt little easier than before so I slowly opened my eyes and got up. I have to clean this before anyone noticed that's the only thought ringing in my head now.
I quickly cleaned the all the mess I created before anyone noticed, I have to careful because I know from my experiences rumours spread like a wildfire in this household. First place it's not like I did something wrong or prohibition but I don't want to worry others who care about me. They already did more than necessary has been done.
Mmm..Where's my phone? Oh here you are.
'Milk?' A smile appeared on my face immediately as I noticed the glass of milk placed on the night stand table with a sticky note attached to it. I touched the glas with my index finger, it was already cold that means they probably came here around early morning.
"I hate lazy pigs but how can I hate you?" I recognised clumsy handwriting with a one look, these clumsy handwriting belong to not other than Khun. Oh there's more. It's a emoji of snoozing pig with 'my bro' writing down the emoji.
My heart warms up like a blooming flower in a desert. Every time I think I'm a burden to them they reminded me I'm a part of them. I don't know if I deserve their love but they make me feel worthy again.
I feel my eyes filling with the tears all the emotions I feeling right now, so I quickly grab my towel and enter to bathroom because I don't want to another pathetic break down in the morning.
I took a cold shower instead of a warm shower and weard a plain black trouser with a blue baggie hoodie. After that I had my breakfast with P'Khun, Arm and Pol. After a while P'Kinn also joined to us but he only had a coffee saying he already had his breakfast.
This feel so nice. This all feel like a dream, at this point I doubt even this is real. This feeling is as unfamiliar as it is familiar. Eventhough I feel happy it's not complete, I feel empty, then I realise what I'm missing.
I missed the family I built, I missed the family which I thought mine. I missed Macau, my little boy. And most importantly I miss my love, Vegas.
P'Kinn excused himself firstly while saying he has a meeting, but not before handing me a credit card to shopping. I refused it but he kind of force me to accept it. He is damn stubborn. After that we chatted a little.
After lot of pleadings I went out alone to explore the city and to enjoy my day off. Yeah, you guessed right they refused to let me go alone specially P'Khun but I did what I was good at, pleading and begging like a lost puppy.
'No, you're not going anywhere' when I said I want to go outside P'Khun screamed and protested a lot. But eventually he let me go with lot of conditions.
>>>'Time skipped'<<<
When I left the main mansion today I wanted to forget everything and enjoy my free day while exploring the city and shopping a little for give my self a little rest.
"Ok, let's enjoy" I said with a relief
That's how I thought 3 hours ago when I cleaned the mess I created, but here I'm now laying on a examination bed on the hospital surrounded by 3 cute nurses and a doctor....Mmmm looks like on his early seventies while my doctor also remained beside me with a tension look.
He look at anything but nor in my eyes, this is odd what happened to him. I can clearly see him he is soo tensed. He even wiping his face with a handkerchief time to time.
After examined me the old doc smiled at me reassuringly while patting on my shoulder. I saw my doc and old doc exchange some glances, old doc nodded firmly like he confirming something.
"We can confirm this 100 % after the blood test." The old doctor said to my doctor who is in charge on me as he hand over the some files to one of nurses.
"So young man what's your name?"
"P..Pete." I answered nervesly and doctor chuckled at my behaviour.
"Don't worry son everything will be alright, don't tense too much and take a good rest, okay? You must eat on time, don't skip your meals. Take care." The old doctor said softly and I nodded my head. After that he left the room following the nurses.
"Can I leave now?" I asked my doc
"Mmm..Wait here till the lab results arrive." He give me a little smile before leaving me alone in his cabin.
Then I thought about what happened to me today......
I went out after I feeling a little bit well after my breakfast. Firstly I visited to my favourite curry shop, then I went to buy some strawberries because I really want to eat that. After that I went to shopping mall and explored a little untill I felt a little hunger. So I went to coffee shop nearby the mall.
I lastly remembered before fainted I was in coffee shop enjoying my bubble tea. But when I waked up I was surrounded by a medical team, who was busy to gain my consciousness back. When I gained my conscious back I was panicked and end up in a crying mess.
When I asked them how I ended up here they said that someone called an imergency service and informed 'someone lost his consciousness and not regained the consciousness back'.
I felt little embarrassed because even I'm an adult I still can't properly look after me. I don't know what happened to me but I feel like a shit.
When im waiting for my results my thoughts running here and there freely. I always been a over thinker so my thoughts didn't help me with this situation.
Am I going to die? Why?? Why I'm so unlucky. I don't deserve to be happy? I don't want to die even I can't with him anymore I still want see him from a distance. I don't know what I'm thinking right now but my thoughts flowed freely without control eventhough they didn't make any sense.
Suddenly I felt so scared and vulnerable like I'm in under water without oxygen.
"Vegas, I'm afraid. Where're you?" I unconsciously reached for my phone and opened my contacts list. Then the next second I was typing something on my phone. I'm on outo pilot mod but before I can press the call button I realised what I'm doing. I freeze upon seeing whose contact I tried to reach.
'My Love ❤" I traced my fingers through the wallpaper in my contact. It's a picture of two of us. I can see his beautiful smile here which can make my heart dancing happily every time I seen and no longer belong to me. Remembering this my eyes sting with stubborn tears.
"Are you trying to call him after all of the shit he did to you? You're a fool" Back of mind mocking to me.
When I think about it I want to bang my head in the nearest wall for my stupidness. I felt like my heart clenched fainfuly while bile form in my throat.
~~crack~~
I heard door opened so I quickly wiped my tears away with my sleeves. I don't want to anyone see my tears and think about me as a weakling pathetic thing who expects attention from others.
My doctor if not Doctor Top sat infront of me with a file on his hand. He is the family Doctor of main family, so I know him since a long time. He started to work for the main family if I'm correct 4 years after I started working fot them, so we're familiar with eachother.
I can say he is a good doctor who knows how to keep up with his professionalism, he knows where speak and where to shut up. He knows his boundaries well, that's why he is still in this field after serving for Theerapanyakul family. If not he is already dead. After all it is not an easy task to serve for the mafia family and if that mafia family is Theerapanyakul it is even more hard.
"How are you feeling now, Pete? Any discomfort" I can say his voice fill with concern.
"I'm fine P,Top" Eventhough I'm not fine, I said it and he nodded his head with a little smile. But I can see his uneasiness.
I don't know what's wrong with me, but I can feel it's definitely not a good thing. I feel an indescribable sadness I can't describe in words.
"They know?" I asked suddenly startling P'Top
"Who?" P'Top asked confusingly. Urgh..
"Main family.." My heart beated fastly. He shook his head. I breathe a sigh of relief.
"Don't tell anyone today incident." I said hopefully
"Ok... but I can't guarantee that they will don't figure out." He said calmly. Yeah, I know I can't hide it too longer but untill I know about my condition I don't want them to worry about me.
"What happened today?" He asked me as he typed something on his computer.
"I went out today."
"Alone?" I hummed and he looked at me like suggesting to me continue
"....... after I felt little hunger, so I went to coffee shop and ordered. The last thing I remember I was enjoying my bubble tea before blackout." P'Top sighed and rubbed his forhead.
"You feel any symptoms lately?" I don't get what he asking so I look at him
He cleared his throat,"Like sudden neusea, vomiting, lost appetite and maybe chest pain time to time." He looked at me
"Mmm, yeah" Now there's is no need to hide it anymore so I nod my head.
"Since when?" He asked me but it's more likely he demanded an answer from me.
"Since I gained my conscious back." He nodded and sighed. "What's wrong with me? So__something serious?" I choked out last bit with a great difficulty.
"This is really getting out of hands." P'Top mumbled something absent mildly but I didn't catch it.
But before he can say or ask something there's a knock on the door.
"Come in." P'Top said, he gives me a look I can't understand while saying 'don't be afraid'. That's when I noticed my hands trembling from anxiousness.
Author's Pov
Doctor Top look at the file again and again top to bottom disbelievenly. His eyebrows furrowed. His eyes showing a deep concern and confusion too. He then look at the older doctor who is beside him like he want to double confirm what he is seeing.
Finally he settled down the file back on the table and quickly gulped down a whole bottle of water. He can't be the one who gonna broke this news to Pete, so he asked his senior who checked up Pete earlier to come.
"Don't get tension okay Mr Pete. I need you to relax." There's a deep silence around the room, only Pete's loud heartbeat can heard.
"What's wrong with me doctor?" Pete asked this time in tired voice while leaning on the back of the chair.
"You're pregnant Mr Pete" Older doctor said directly. Pete in a great shock.
After sometime Pete finally found his voice "What? Are you kidding me?" Pete chuckled not getting this seriously but when he saw Top's face his smile faded little by little.
"You're already 10 weeks pregnant. Here, you can see it." The doctor handover file to Pete. Pete clumsily opened the file and his eyes met with the line printed in Red 'POSITIVE'
It's not over yet, there's more. "But...." this time Doctor hesitated a little and Pete can felt clearly doctor's distress.
"But what?" Pete asked impatiently. He was anxious and desperate.
"Don't get tense child.________ before it's too late." Doctor finished.
"No... noo..... it's not true." Pete shouted angrily as he stands up while clutching his belly protectively. His whole body visibly trembling like a leaf. Doctor Top quickly reached trembling figure
"Pete... Pete breath.
In and out......
Don't stop." Again Pete's breathing returned to normal.
Shaking his head he tries to push the bile which is trying to rise up in his sore throat, Pete sit down on the chair with a trembling. "Please, no no ple__ doctor please tell me it's not true." He again tried pleadingly while wishing this all turned into one of a bad dream he had. He looked up
"Yo__ you a...re lying, right?" Pete asked hopefully while smiling through his tears but when he saw older doctor's sympathy look towards him his whole world collapsed infront of him instantly. He can't digest what happened
"P'Top he is lying to me, Right? Goddammit!!! Answer me." Pete yelled and grabbed doctor Top by his collar. doctor Top look down with a shake
"It's true." Doctor Top confirmed it crushing all his hopes. Pete let go off Top's collar.
His smile vanished, then he frowned deeply, nextly his eyes became dull and his face became blank with emotions like someone stole his last reason to live in this filthy world anymore.
He doesn't react actually he can't react. He listened to doctor like a motionless patient. He curtly nod at the doctor before standing up.
He walked out from doctor's cabin with a daze. He heard someone called after him but he didn't turn around. He doesn't know where he was going but he just followed where his legs brings him like a homeless person. He didn't cry, even a single didn't fell from his eyes.
Something wrecked inside his gut and it finally came out with a heart clenching sob. another louder sob came out from his mouth. now he needs a shoulder to cry but whose gonna there for him.
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