Flash back
You stupid bitch why you keep trying me like seriously you always being stupid and insecure. Bro you ALWAYS on that Clingy shit mane like seriously and stop fucking , YOU just a fat bitch like seriously..
As the tears being to roll down 18 year old Zipporiah , here she was once again in hotel room acting crazy over her ex boyfriend who has done nothing but cheated on her , abused her , lied to her and all around made this crazy girl that is very much spiraling out of control.. Zipporiah didn't understand why she couldn't leave him alone but one day she was going to Leave him alone.
Flash back over...
It's has been almost two years since me and my ex chad broke up and honestly I would be lying if I said I didn't miss sometimes. Oh shit my bad let me introduce myself. My name is Zipporiah but everyone calls me Z. I am 20 years old I was born and raised in Mississippi but I moved to Houston Texas about a year ago with ex boyfriend chad. Since I been in Houston, Texas my life as been ass like seriously, my ex boyfriend broke up with and got another girl pregnant and I was pregnant around the same time as her but I ended loosing my baby.. I barely have In friends out here and all I do is work and spend most my time alone... I am not going getting over Chad hasn't been easy because we still have sex from to time and I still how to come in and out of my life but I guess you can say I am stupid but I love with everything in me and I am willing to fight for our relationship.
As I get ready for work I get a text messages from my homegirl jamia
JAMIA 🧚🏾♂️❤️ Bitch wyd this weekend we should go to that new club on 17 street..
I just read the message and laughed because who finna go to a club like seriously, and plus I barely have anything to wear.. not even ten minutes later JAMIA is calling me .
Yes JAMIA I said putting location on my face.
" z you going to the club Idc , because you barely come out the house hell
Bitch idk if you dead or alive sometimes.
I will think about I said grabbing my phone and placing it in on the table
"Z you literally can meet someone new and move the hell on from Chad wack ass she said."
My face instantly dropped when she said that and I just got quiet because it honestly triggered me like seriously, I mean it wasn't the first time someone had told me to move on from Chad but it is not that simple for me at all because honestly I have felt like I deserve a Chad because of my weight and nobody wants to be with the fat girl like seriously which part reason why I just accept what Chad does to me.
The conversation between me and JAMIA got quiet and just head to work..
I was finally off of work and I was honestly Tried asf being that I work four days a week and only off three and being that my job is not what making me happy.. before my breakup with Chad I had a business doing lashes and waxes. The money was good true enough but begin that Chad left with a 3,000 rent to pay by myself I had to go back to the hospital by because I make more money.
After work I decided to stop by the gas station and get some snacks and some gars cuz I need blunt a glass of wine and a hot bubble bath like seriously..
I get out the car and I was scared asf go get out the hood gas station but hey it was the only thing open and plus I am just trying to get my stuff and dip..
I walk in the store and instantly start grabbing my snacks stuff , I grabbed some hot chips , big mama , some water and I got some blow pops.
I placed my stuff and ask the lady could I have four honey Dutches please..
she went and got the Dutches and added everything up and just as I was About go pay for my stuff I heard a firmly voice from my past and my stomach instantly being to curl up..
It will be 22.54 the caisher said
I literally zoomed out for me but I tapped my card and literally run out the gas station with my stuff..
Honestly idk why I got so scared when I heard his voice but I was most definitely scared to death and I was trying to be alone..
I couldn't call JAMIA this late cuz she was probably knocked out so I decided to call Chad , I mean he my dude kinda idk hell at this point..
What Z Chad said answering the phone with a attitude I most definitely begin to regret even calling me..
Umm I was wondering yeah , neverMind I will be okay I said , see that this was not going to end good at all..
Mane Z stopping on my phone bro I been done with you like seriously. He said in a rude way..
At this point call me stupid or just say that dick got me sprung but I couldn't even get over this mane if I tried like seriously.
Alright Chad I understand I said hung up the phone..
Not even 20 minutes I am getting dicked down by this man 🤦🏾♀️
Now i should just move on but y'all this mane has a spell on like seriously and no matter bad he dose me I still continue to go back..
Three months later
I woke up and started getting ready for work , finding out Chad was married to old girl was all the confirmation I need to finally leave him tf alone and I am proud of myself because I was able to move into much cheaper apartment and I am finally back doing lashes and waxing full time.. I honestly I feel so much peace now that left that toxic shit alone..
JAMIA 🧚🏾♂️✨ Would like to FaceTime...
I answered the phone and off course she was happy to talk to me , I been so busy with work and stuff we barely have to talk anymore.
Bitch I miss you so much JAMIA said
I miss you to , I am sorry for being MIA but I had to take min to get my life together..
I most definitely understand she said ..
I am glad my friend was understanding on much I need to fall back to my mental state together.
Okay so bitch wyd this weekend, and you better not say you busy because I already brought your ticket the concert she said smiling hard..
See you always making plans for me how you know I was going be with my man or something 😂 . I said laughing hard asf cuz fuck love like seriously..
Me and JAMIA got done talking and honestly I was happy to finally be stepping out for min hell I haven't pop my shit in a min honestly.
A few days later
It was finally the day for the concert, and girls trip and honestly I was excited asf , I got my hair freshly braided, and I planning taking shots and shaking ass all weekend..
Hey I started play my shake That ass playlist while getting ready..
I decide to keep it cute and simple for the first day of the trip. I worn some black biker shorts and this cute graphic with Aaliyah on it and some my all black and white ducks. I put my hair in a high bun with and decided to let hang down in the front. I decided to wear sliver jewelry and my black Prada crossbody..
I pulled up to JAMIA house and I saw a car idk who it was tho.. I just took and guess and said it one of Trace homeboys.
I walked in the house and off course I was greeted with hugs from JAMIA this bitch so dang on clingy but I love her tho 😂.
I walked in the kitchen and greeted trace and his homeboy who was very a gentleman he spoke and you can tell he carried himself well. I mean he was fine as hell like chocolate with dimples and a beautiful smile and not mention smell like a grown men smell. He said name was Eric but everyone calls him EJ. After talking to Ej for min I decided
I helped JAMIA grab her stuff for trip and take it to the car and as I walking out the house Trace fine ass homeboy Ej comes outside to help me put the bags in the car.
Hey I got that for you beautiful said Ej said grabbing the bag out my hand.
Thank you I said trying not to blush.
As he placed the bag in the car and walked me to the passenger side of the door and opened the door for me.
He said have fun on your trip Z and be careful..
I was instantly shocked because why this man telling me to be safe and why is he being so friendly like seriously..
Now I would be lying if I said I didn't find EJ interesting but I am not trying to even think about talking text , linking or even liking anyone right now because I am still healing.
We finally made to New Orleans and I was to excited of course JAMIA was asking questions about EJ I most definitely told her I was not interested because no ma'am I am not finna get my heartbroken again. We can be friends but as far a relationship I will pass , hell I barely like people touching now and getting to my heart is most definitely a no as well..
As we get settled in New Orleans hotel room JAMIA decided to call Trace and tell him we made it to New Orleans and off course MR. EJ was still with him..
Ej instantly asked about me and JAMIA and trace started hyping him of course.
Maybe i should give it a chance or maybe i shouldn't? Idk yet tho I said to myself
What y'all think of the first chapter?
What think about Z ?
What y'all about trace?
Idk where this book going go but we just going vibe and see what happens 🥰✨