𝚈𝚊𝚒𝚕𝚊𝚑 𝚛𝚎𝚗𝚒𝚝𝚢 𝙻𝚎𝚠𝚒𝚜(𝚁𝚎𝚗𝚗𝚢)
July 28th (that night)
I woke up to my alarm going
"Fuckkkkk" I groaned
I turned over to turn off my alarm and got off sin he was still sleeping I hate waking up like I be sleeping so good on him best sleep of my Life. I got up and grabbed my phone so I can go shower and get ready for this fight. I'm not as fit as I use to be I just know ima get winded quicker than I normally do it's all good though
"Where you going"
"To shower"
"Ight"
I just walked off in the bathroom I put my hair in a high ponytail so it doesn't pull believe it or not men pull hair too. I played All I Need by Noname and got in the shower 20 mins later I got out I really wasn't in the mood I just know it was going to be a long night for me.
"Close your eyes"
He closed his eyes
I ran to my dresser and then my closet I put on my Nike sports bra and my Nike shorts
I pulled out my grey sweatsuit and my red, black, and white ones.
I left out my closet and grabbed my duffel bag with my boxing stuff in it.
"C'mon"
He got up and put his shirt on and grabbed his keys
"Umm ima take my car after the fight you should go home"
I said walking downstairs into the kitchen to fill up my flask and put some ice in it
"Renny I'm not going anywhere"
"Sin this is not up for discussion I'll see you tomorrow I just need you to leave after the fight"
"What are you hiding Renny"
"Something you don't want to stick around long enough to see"
"Renny who gone take care of you after your fight"
"Me"
I turned around and left out the kitchen and got my keys
"I'm riding with you"
I just walked out the door and locked it behind him I was done talking about it if he wanted to see so be it but he can't say I didn't warn him. He wouldn't be the first who left and damn sure wouldn't be the last it wasn't just cause I'm fighting. tomorrow is my son's birthday I gave him up for adoption. My birth giver sold me to this man for some crack how embarrassing.
He rapped me more times than I could count for years without anyone finding out I got pregnant at 14 I was still a kid how was I going to go raise a kid I could barely take care of myself.
The day I had him was the last time I saw him the family he is with is taking care of him better than I can and that's all that matters. Just thinking about it just makes me angry and want to do things I promised I wouldn't do anymore but it's hard. I put on Please Do Not Lean by Daniel Caesar and sped off.
35mins later
I parked my car in the back and got out I didn't say anything I had nothing to say I walked inside the gym and crowded asf all ready as I walked back to the back to go change I saw JJ walking up to me
"Renny don't fight out of anger I know what tomorrow is I know you just wanna feel pain but just don't fight out of anger"
"Mm"
I walked away just trying to clear my mind I made it to the locker room and sat my duffel bag down and took off my clothes and shoes I left my shorts and sports bra on I took my gloves out of the bag and put them on.
"You ready Renny"
I looked up at Pablo and nodded
I followed him out to the ring and just kept my head down I prefer my dad not hear about this fight until it's over. I saw my goons standing right in front looking at me tryna give me encouragement. I got into the ring and stood there waiting for my opponent.
"RENNY BEAT THEY ASS I BETTED ON YOU WITH ALL MY LIL MONEY," Seven said
I just chuckled and shook my head I swear it's always him
I saw my opponent come out it was some big-ass white man why the fuck he ain't tell me I was fighting someone big. He got in the ring and was just staring at me so I stared back
"Y'all ready"
We nodded and the bell rung
He instantly tried to run at me throwing punches I just kept blocking them he tried to throw a punch I blocked it and punched him in his side with all my strength cause he was big as shit he groaned and grabbed his side I took this as an opportunity to punch him in his face which made him angry he kicked me in my side I fell cause damn that shit hurts like a bitch
"Get up bitch"
That's all I heard before I got up and started throwing punches to his ribs when he bent down I round-house kicked him and he fell to the floor I got on top of him and started to punch him until I knocked him
Ding ding ding
"AND WE HAVE A WINNER, GUYS"
I got up and walked out of the ringer I went back to the locker room
"Here and thank you I appreciate it"
Pablo said handing me 10k and leaving out the locker room. I took my gloves off and put them in the bag with my money. I put my clothes back on and my slides I keep in my bag. I grabbed my bag and left somebody bumped into me
"Watch where you going"
"The fuck you just say"
"Watch where you going"
I took my bag off my shoulders and started to punch him
"RENNY RENNY LET HIM GO"
JJ came running to me tryna get me off the man
"Mane get off me niggas bump into me think I'm the problem "
I said still punching him
"RENNY LET HIM GO"
Ace pulled me off him I shook my arm out of his hand and picked up my bag and walked out of the building I got in my car and sped off.
35mins later
I got out of my car and went to go inside I felt nothing but pain and anger and that fight didn't help much I went to my room and started to destroy every I just started punching the wall and the mirrors I don't know how long I have been going at but I was far from done.
"RENNY STOP"
"Get out just get the fuck out"
I said not looking
"Renny look at me it's just me it's sin"
"GET OUT I TOLD YOU DONT STAY I TOLD YOU TO LEAVE JUST GET THE FUCK OUT I DON'T NEED SAVING"
I just started to breathe heavily and felt like I couldn't breathe I started shaking
"G...get JJ"
I don't know what happen but I couldn't breathe to save my life I couldn't control my shaking and stop crying
"Renny it's me jj just take deep breaths"
I shook my head my chest was starting to hurt
"Follow me deep breath in and deep breathe out"
I did as he said after a while my breathing had calmed down a lot.
"Renny stop beating yourself up about things you can't change man"
I looked to see Ace sitting in my bed
"Yeah just be like me," Seven said
I just stayed on the floor with my legs pulled to my chest
"We'll be downstairs"
I didn't say anything
"Hey you're going to be okay" jj said before leaving out my room
I stayed there for a minute I got up and go to my bathroom as soon as I closed the door I just broke down I took a min and got in the shower I just let the water fall down I wish I didn't get the bad end of things ace and Nyla never had to go through what I went through I washed my body and got out. Sin was sitting on my bed like he was waiting for me. He closed his eyes I went to my dresses and put on some shorts and a bra and got in bed.
"Here I know you need it"
He handed me 3 backwoods I took them out of his hand and lit one up he played I Don't Know by Nba youngboy.
"What's wrong"
I just stayed silent he grabbed my chin so I can look at me
"Talk to me Yailah "
"What is there to say I'm a damaged and broken girl you don't need me around I'm a ticking time bomb"
"Well call me the bomb squad cause I'm not going anywhere"
"Not the time for jokes I'm serious reign"
"I am too Yailah you have been through some shit and you can tell me whenever you ready but I'm staying right here with you tonight"
"You must like me or something," I said passing the blunt to him
"Maybe I do maybe I don't"
"Mm"
I laid down
"Come here"
I scooted closer to him and wrapped my arms around him and laid my head on his chest
"I got you"
Before I knew It I was sleep