2 days. 2 days since Ash had been ignoring or avoiding me or however you wanted to call it. I have never in my life felt so shitty and betrayed. I remember skipping his class for the first time on Wednesday because the only thing I wanted to do was spit on his face and scream at him. But I couldn't. Everytime I'd try to pack up my stuff and leave early to meet him at his car and talk to him but he already left. I felt fucking used. Dirty. And just like another fucking slut that he just fucked.
How could I possibly been so stupid thinking an almost 30 year old man would've been interested in me. I was so depressed. After days of crying and wondering what the hell I did wrong, rage was the only thing filled inside of me. I felt like my heart was bleeding because of the intense pain i felt. I wouldnt wish that feeling upon anyone. Elora and my grandma were the only ones who noticed my change in behaviour and elo would visit me often after school. Shed find me piled up under my covers and pillows, looked like a corpse and tons of wet tissues from me crying my life away.
To make things even more depressing, my mom went on an other flight again which meant that I was completely alone and depressed so I decided to skip school on Thursday. Due to my absence, elo visited me at home and brought me candies and sweets since she got worried about me skipping two days. i still looked like a hot ass mess
"Are you gonna tell me what's wrong Bella?" She always questioned me but of course I always had to deny it and avoid it since I didn't want to cause problems.
"Hey listen girl, I have no idea what's up with you athena but there's this huge party rulio is throwing at his crib Saturday and I think you should definitely come to change your mind get some dick"
Honestly, that idea didn't sound as terrible. I wasn't a party girl at all and hated parties, but I was 17 and never attended one so I thought why not. Plus I really wanted to forget ash and distracted my mind off of him.
So i skipped on Friday as well and was determined to make Ash regret.