Gemini pov
"Gemini" I heard my mom's voice but I ignored it like I always have "baby you can't be doing this you need to eat" she knocks making me pull my cover over my head when I make no move to reply I hear her sigh "your lunch's on the dinning and I'm not throwing this again"
Heart break are the worst my heart hurts it hurt so bad it felt like my entire being shattered people says your first few days of a break up were the easiest the reality of the situation doesn't hit you right away he said he wanted a break but it feels like break up to me it's been a week and it's getting hard to breathe I've been dreaming about him coming but always wake up feeling disappointed and crying all over again my eyes turns glossy as I stare at his picture sniffing a little I miss him God I miss him so much everyday I hope he text or call me to fix this distance between us
I will just tell him everything about his dad I don't care anymore If it means just seeing him. His dad wasn't the best of men he was a serial killer he killed a lot of people both young and old, guilty or innocent he believes in taking matters into your hands he tried killing my dad several times when he couldn't get my dad I was the next option .Imagine waking up in complete darkness trapped down to a chair I couldn't tell the difference between when my eyes was opened or closed if the room was big or small if there was anyone with me if there was a window or not It was scary
Telling Fourth about his dad will literally break him the way he talks about his father it's like a worshipper taking about their God he will be so disappointed, knowing fourth if he knows what his dad did to me he would leave me feeling all guilty and ashamed that's why I kept it secret not able to cope and survive with him leaving me but here I was still away from him verging on three days without food with a broken heart nor having contact with anyone knowing the last time I took a bath was the day we took a break
My phone rings making my heart beat increase looking at it I saw it's mark who wants to FaceTime feeling disappointed I ignored it pulling the cover away from my head immediately whining as the bright light from the sun nearly blinded me my phone rings again I saw it was mark I pick it up sighing
"Christ!" Was the first the I heard as I look at him in disbelief he was holding his chest and everything"you scared me gem you look horrible" he stares at me in disgust
"I know mark" I groan
"Seriously when was the last time you bathe I could smell you from here" he says holding his nose I roll my eyes
"Sure"
"A bird could make a house with that hair,you literally look like a Halloween costume you have given me an idea just rem-"
"Mark what do you want?"I groan cutting him off
"I'm sorry?" He asks raising his brows oh here we go "I just remembered I had a friend who wouldn't pick my calls or answer any of my text and the one time he did I'm being asked what I want?" He says stressing the friend
"Mark y-"
"Just a 'hey am ok' would be enough"
"Well I'm not"
"You could have sent that too"
"Mark" I say in exhaustion I don't have the strength for this
"Fourth didn't ignore anyone" the mention of his name makes my chest tighten I take in a deep breath as my brain produce to reality that he wasn't affected by our break "oh shit...."
"How is he?" I whisper shakily
"Sad?....sad yes I haven't seen him smile since you left and he squeeze things whenever he hears your name"I don't know why I needed to hear that maybe hoping he at least misses me. I nod not saying anything "What even is the reason for this? You guys where literally playing handy under the table last time we were together" I felt blood rush though my face
"Shut up"
"Oh you guys weren't slick everyone knew we just choose to ignore we all heard Fourth mo-"
"Mark seriously!" I can feel my face heating up. He just smirk leaning back
"You guys were okay right? So what caused this?" I sigh
"It's....it's complicated"
"Of course" he huff "that's always the excuse"
"It is Mark trust me you can't even understand simple biology this will be worst" I say he gasps his eyes widen
"You did not!"
"Mar-"
"We are done!" I roll my eyes sighing
"This conversation was getting long anyways" He huffs before coming forward looking at his screen touching it
"Ford's calling" he says squinting his eyes before it widen "oh I just remembered ford told me group of men came to pick fourth up,one claiming he was your dad they all wore black...."wave of panic cut though my body as I felt my heart drop
"When was this?"
"After class like 5 hours ago?" I cut the call standing up with full force I groan as everything blurs around me holding my nightstand whining as sharp pain shoot through my head feeling dizzy I sit back down holding my head. A knock sounds from my door the sounds like ringing note in my head
"I'm not hungry" I whine. The knocks continues making groan "ma just come in it's not locked" I hear the door open followed by footsteps "ma I need drugs I'm feeling d-" All signs of pain disappear feeling my whole world stop as I heart skip a beat my entire being wakes up at the sight of him,I Ignore the tear in my eyes as I pray this is not a dream
"Hey..."he trails,his voice sending shivers through my spine "you look like shit" he says before coming to sit on my bed,I couldn't help the laugh that bubbles through me come out I haven't felt this kind happiness since he left
"Yeah" I agree with a faint smile as I watch him play with the sheets I stare at him taking in his appearance his hair looking all over the place his eyes puffy it didn't take me a minute to know he knew. He sniffs frowning walking over to my closet he brought out my perfume spraying it on the air
"When was the last time you bathe?"he asks waving his hands in the air
"The day of our break" I mumble making his eyes widen as it filled with guilt something I don't want him to feel. The room feels uncomfortable as we stare at each other
"Oh"he says looking away from me he put the perfume back closing the closet I saw him take a deep breath before turning towards me
"Fou-"
"I know e-everything" he stutters as his eyes instantly filled with tears making my heart squeeze itself"My...my dad h-he was a killer he killed people....." A loud sob escape him as tears spill from his eyes I felt mine water as I stood up ignoring my dizziness to go to him
"Don't!" He yells making me freeze as my chest tighten "don't come any closer" I felt my heartbreak
"Fourth..." I whisper softly as I stare at him with blurry eyes
"H-he tried to k-kill you" he stutters "he tri-"he cut himself off as he sobs profusely his hand grab his shirt where his heart is as tears fall from his eyes I stay frozen in place unable to do anything watching him with bleeding heart as I curl my hand in fist. He sob sniffing before wiping his tears as he looks at me his eyes filled with guilt and misery"this...."he says pointing between us "l-let's break up" those words shooting right through me as I felt my heart break into pieces
"No" I say running towards him holding his hand "no no no don't do this please don't do this"tears spill from my eyes as I stare at him pleading
"I don't deserve you" he cries trying to pull away from me but I held unto him tighter
"Fourth don't say that please...."
"He tried to kill you"
"I don't care!"I yell
"You almost died gem!!" He yells "you were trapped down,beaten and starved for days by my dad Gemini!!....you can't say you don't care!!"
"I don't!"
"I DO!" He shouts sobbing "you are supposed to hate me gem I-i don't deserve you!"
"This is why I didn't want to say anything I didn't want you to be like this you don't have to feel guilty for anything" I sniff softening my tone holding his face in my hand as he stares at me with the pain his emitting "I love you I love you so much fourth you deserve more than I can give you I don't care about what your dad did to me I just want to be with you even if it means keeping this for years without telling you so you wouldn't feel this way" I place my fore head on his relishing the feeling that I miss to much "please....please don't break up with me" I beg
"Hmm"I felt him nod as he grab unto my shirt"I'm s-sorry I'm so s-sorry" he sobs shakily I shake my head
"You don't need to apologize" I whisper against his lips wanting desperately to place my lips on his ignoring my racing heart "can I ki-" his lips meet mine in one quick move cutting me off as I hum wrapping my hands around him his hands digs into my hair pulling me closer as I start floating from the vibrations that runs through my every cell. Our lips moves at a steady pace I deepen it hungry for more I bit his lips making him whimper as I let my tongue invades his mouth exploring every inch relishing the taste I missed so much. Reluctantly I pull away for air seeing his panting form as I look straight into his eyes that held so much emotion making my heart stutter momentarily
"I love you" I say staring into his eyes hoping he could see how much I meant those word
"I love you I love you so much Gemini"
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Hello everyone sorry for the late update been quite busy
FYI-Gemini was brushing his teeth through those days so....
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