A week later
Jahseh
I walk out the bathroom sighing looking at Jaya laying in bed zoned out staring at the ceiling.
When she takes her medication it sucks every last bit of life out of her.
I now remember why she doesn't like to take them.
This whole week has been pretty shitty and boring with her like this.
Plus I'm horny as fuck and can't stop thinking about her.
It's only been 8 days but it feels like a lifetime, I guess it's good for us to bond over things other then sex, but it's hard to bond with someone who's basically drugged up.
And I'm still pretty mad at her for what she did with Billie, I'm trying to get over it but I can't I just don't know how to approach it right now.
" Jaya" I mumble sitting beside her on the bed.
"Mhm" she hums.
"Are you ok?" I ask.
"mhm I'm ok" she mumbles back pushing her hair out of her face.
"Do you feel better being on your meds?"
She lightly shakes her head no "I miss you...but you're still mad at me, you barely look at me anymore, you haven't kissed me. It's like ur disgusted with me"
I sigh deeply "I don't wanna talk about it Jaya"
"so you're just going to pretend to love me until you can't stand me anymore?" Her voice breaks.
"Jaya not right now, anyway u need to take your meds"
"I'm not taking any more of those" she mumbles.
" yes you are" I reply.
"No I'm not" she stands up.
She walks over towards me and lays her head on my chest.
"U good?" I ask hesitantly wrapping my arms around her waist.
"Mhm" she hums before reaching up initiating a makeout.
I kiss back but pull away.
"Why are you pulling away?" She whines.
"Jaya I just don't wanna makeout right now"
"You haven't wanted to makeout or even cuddle for the whole week" she argues back.
"Because you've been on your meds Jaya"
"It's not like I can't consent when I'm on my meds Jahseh, you fuck me when I'm drunk or high out of my mind so don't use that as an excuse"
"Why are you starting an argument with me? I just don't want to kiss you is that not allowed" I argue back.
"No your just insecure that I fucked Billie and now you don't know what to do with yourself"
"Oh so now your admitting that you fucked Billie?" I question her.
"I didn't fuck her!" She says defensive.
"You literally just said you fucked her!" My voice getting louder each time.
"She just gave me head it doesn't mean I fucked her"
"You sound fucking crazy right now"
"Are you saying I'm crazy?" She asks her eyes glossing over with tears.
"Yes you are crazy, maybe I just miss the old you."
She starts crying.
"We're not good for eachother and it hurts " she sobs sitting against the wall.
I sigh deeply.
"Jaya I think we should break up" I mumble.
"I saw this coming, I don't wanna break up" she continues to cry.
" you just said it yourself we're not good for eachother"
She begins wiping her tears.
"It's fine at least I can still be around you, we just won't have a title"
"No Jaya...I mean for good we should just leave
each others lives"
She sobs harder and I can't help but feel guilty.
"No Jah please I can't do this on my own, can we just be friends?" She pleads.
"We're not good at just being friends it never works"
"I'll just be friends I won't hug you or anything I need you in my life or ill lose my mind"
I only just noticed how dependant she is on me and it's kinda scary.
She gets up and sits by me.
"Does that mean you don't love me anymore" tears stream down her cheeks uncontrollably.
"I still love you I just-"
She cuts me off.
"Your not attracted to me anymore?" She asks looking down at her body.
"It's nothing about your looks I think we just make eachother worse"
She nods, looking lost for words.
"can I have one last kiss before we break up?"
"Jaya it defeats the purpose, we haven't made out for a week it's best to just keep it like that" I mumble.
"Please" she sighs.
I hold her face with my hand, her cheeks stained with tears and her eyes red and glossed over.
She's so beautiful it sucks.
Another tear rolls down her cheek as she looks me in the eyes but I wipe it away.
" my hearts broken" she mumbles.
"You'll be okay" I say before leaning in placing my lips on hers.
She kisses back as I push her down onto the bed.
The kiss turns into a passionate makeout.
Jaya
He moves from my lips to my neck, kissing and sucking it.
I try not to react but he knows my weak spots.
A light moan escapes my lips.
His hands make their way under my shirt as he continues to mark my neck.
I push his hand away from under my shirt and towards my shorts
"Are you sure?" He asks and I nod.
Might as well get one last hit before he breaks up with me.
His hand slowly makes its way into my panties.
He continues the makeout as he rubbed me slowly in a circular motion.
"That feels good" I moan and he doesn't say anything.
"Your not going to speak-" he cuts me off putting his hand over my mouth.
"Shh"
"Can we please not do this in silence"
"You wanna do this right? So take what ur given" he mumbles before sliding his fingers into me.
"Oh fuck" I whine and he smirks.
He slides his fingers in and out at a steady pace.
As much as it felt good, he wasn't talking me through it so I automatically felt insecure.
"Mhmm please talk" I moan but he doesn't let up.
He pushes his fingers deeper, speeding up the pace as he places his lips against mine again.
I try to kiss back, moaning into his mouth as his fingers stirred my insides.
"I'm close" I whimper closing my legs but he prys them open again going deeper as my moans got louder.
"Oh fuck"
My body tenses up and my mind goes blank as I ride out my orgasm.
When I'm done he pulls away.
"You don't want to continue" I ask looking down at him seeing he wasn't hard.
Oh
"Nah i should leave now" he mumbles walking into the bathroom.
He really meant it.
He washes his hands then grabs his bag full of stuff.
"I'll see you sometime, hope everything will be okay" he mumbles.
Then he walks out the door.
What's your opinion on Jahseh and Jaya at this point in the story?
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