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Shah Zain's POV (Edited)
I stood there rooted on my spot. I was still contemplating everything. The arrival of Shiza was totally unexpected. I never even thought in a million years that she will come here and that too with lunch. When she entered inside, I was confused and shocked both at the same time.
I didn't unnoticed the way her face fell when she saw Zarnish already there. Well, Zarnish did come early. She brought food for me saying she has made it herself. Although, I was in no mood for eating but since she brought with so much hope, I decided to sit down and eat. But my eating plan went out of the window when Shiza came here.
She was holding the lunch box in her hands and she was even dressed. I don't think we share such a relationship that she thought off coming here. But still when I saw the hurt in her eyes, my insides churn. I felt bad the way she apologized and left without even protesting. Like she knew that I will not eat her food now that Zarnish had brought already. Her eyes almost went moist but she was a woman of control.
She controlled herself and left shortly. I didn't fail to notice the way she took deep breaths to calm herself down. She was trying her best not to break down atleast infront of me. I knew her damn well. But she can't be blaming me. I was least expecting her. She was the last person I thought that would come unannounced. I sighed heavily and Zarnish's voice reached my ears
"Are you ok?"
I came out of my wonderland and only then I realized that she was still there. Zarnish had not left. She had left. I nodded my head before slumping down on the chair. I took a deep breath before asking her
"Do you know she was coming here?"
At my question, she shifted in her seat. She remained quite for few moments before saying
"No, I didn't know she was coming."
She said it all in one breath and it made a little bit suspicious. But why would Zarnish lie to me? She never lies atleast with me. She is always honest with me. I knew her insides out. I sighed and looked at the food. I have no appetite left now. Shiza's face was coming infront of me again and again and it was getting difficult for me to handle it. I looked up at Zarnish before telling her
"I think you should leave now. My break is almost over and I need to head out for a meeting."
She nodded her head before standing up. She packed all the things and made her way to the door. But she stopped in her tracks and stated
"I hope you're not thinking about her. I don't think she matters to you that enough."
Her words were sharp and edgy. Like she doesn't like me thinking about my...wife. Well, I chose to remain silent on her statement. I busied myself in the file and expect her to leave seeing me working. I heard her taking a long and deep breath before I heard the opening and closing of the door. I looked up and saw that she has already left. I leaned back on my seat before closing my eyes thinking about her. What are you doing to me, Shiza?"
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It's already 7 in the evening when I got free from my work. I glanced at the wall clock and it show ten minutes to 7:30. I decided to pack up and head home. Mama will be upset once she knows that I am again late for dinner. I stood up before closing my laptop and keeping my files in the drawer. I grabbed my coat in one hand before exiting out the office. The building was pretty much empty. Salar and Aaban left at six.
The other employees also left at around 7. Now it can be possible that it's only me left now. I nodded at the guard before walking towards my car and sitting inside. I started the engine before driving to the way back home.
The whole drive I was thinking about Shiza. I still can't get her hurtful eyes out of my mind. It's like it was imprinted there. I was trying my best not to think about her but my freaking mind was just stuck at her. I tried to busy myself in work which pretty much helped me since I lost track of time easily when I'm working. But as soon as I got free, all I could think and see was her.
The way the colors drained out of her face. The way her smile faded when she saw me with Zarnish. The way her eyes lost the glimmer in them when she saw me eating the food. I don't know what to feel. I should be hating her. But why does it feel like wrong? Oh god! My mind is totally confused. I just want to go home and hit the bed straight.
Soon I reached home.
I parked the car at the designated spot before stepping out and locking out. I made my way inside and saw that mama and Yusra chachi were sitting in the lounge. As they saw me, they stopped their chattering and I greeted them
"Asalamualikum!"
They both smiled before mama stood up and walked towards me. She stroked my hairs before asking
"Are you tired?"
I nodded my head and she smiled before saying
"Go and get fresh. I will ask the maids to serve dinner."
I politely smiled at her before making my way upstairs. I should talk to Shiza. She will have to answer me. Why did she come there today? As I opened the door, I was left dumfounded. The room was empty. She was usually in the room whenever I came back from work. I thought that she might be in the bathroom but it was also empty. Maybe she is in the kitchen. I clicked my tongue in annoyance.
I wanted to talk to her right now. I need her to clarify her visit at the company. But what I can do now? Maybe I have to wait till the dinner. I went inside the bathroom to get freshened up.
I reached downstairs after changing into my normal home clothes. Everyone was already seated at the table. I took my usual spot and soon the dinner was served. My eyes were finding her but she was nowhere. Where the hell is she? If she's in the kitchen, than she should have come out now. I tried not to let my movement expose and kept my eyes down at my plate. Maybe, dado will realized her absence and asked herself.
Yeah, I should wait for that. The dinner started and everyone soon began eating. No one said anything. I was waiting for dado to ask about her but she was also quiet. Now, I am getting really confused here. Did really no one care about her whereabouts? I sighed heavily. Kinza's voice brought me out of my dreamland
"Dado, where is Shiza bhabhi?"
Finally someone asked about her. Dado placed her fork on the plate before answering vaguely
"She decided to visit her khala. She will be eating her dinner there."
Wait! She went to her khala. Why didn't she inform me? Are you seriously thinking that, Shah Zain? My conscience mocked me. I sighed and dado turned to me. She then asked me
"She told you?"
She was asking a question but her voice was almost sounding like she was sure that she had informed me. But what should I tell? I can't say she didn't tell me. I can't let dado think that we don't have a normal relationship. So, I chose to nod. I can't lie in words. She smiled and resumed her meal. I looked up and caught Zarnish already looking at me. When she noticed me looking at her, she immediately down casted her eyes and continued eating. The rest of the dinner passed easily..
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It was almost 11 in the night now. Shiza was still not home. I am here in my room working on my laptop. She didn't even call. Is she not going to come home today? My fingers tapped the keyboard and it was the only sound present in the room. I was waiting for her to come home. Should I go and pick her? But she didn't even call me. How will I know that she wants me to pick her up?
My mind was contemplating whether to call her or not. I took my phone in my hand and almost dialed her number but my movements stopped when the door to my room opened and she herself entered inside. The shawl was wrapped around her shoulders. She didn't even glance at me and discarded her shawl on the chair before sighing heavily. I noticed the time and it was 11:15 in the night. I decided to ask her
"Care to tell me why did you come late?"
My voice was unintentionally hard. She didn't reply. She was busy putting her things on the dresser. Her attitude infuriate me. What the hell she thinks she is? Why is she acting pissed off? When she didn't answer, I again mocked question her
"I asked you something and I want an answer in return."
I heard her sighing before she muttered
"I didn't know when time passes."
Her small answer made me even more enraged. She should have notice the time. It's late at night. Wait! Did she come alone? I couldn't help but ask
"Wait, how did you come back?"
She sighed again and answered
"I took a cab home."
Her voice was monotone and it angered me. What the hell was she thinking of coming home alone at this time of hour? Is she mad? I stood up from my place and asked her angrily
"Are you mad? Why did you take a cab home at this hour of time?"
She looked up at me and for few moments just stared. She then answered
"It's not a big deal. I reached safely."
Why is she taking it so lightly? Does she not remember what happened with her when she was returning home once? Is she that naive? I again tried to explain
"Don't you remember the past incident that happened with you when you were walking back home."
At my comment, she turned to me and stated quietly angrily
"So what? It was in the past and it doesn't matter if I was in trouble or not."
What is wrong with her? I pinched the bridge of my nose in helplessness. This time she asked me
"Why are you asking that?"
I looked at her totally amazed. Shouldn't I ask that? I mean she is my wife. She is my responsibility. So, I answered
"Because you are bearing my name and it's my responsibility to keep you safe. Don't you understand that?"
I was getting frustrated now. She scoffed before muttering
"Well, you don't treat me like a wife. You rather spend time with your cousins than me."
At this point, I lose my calm and said
"Wait, let me get this straight. You are angry because I didn't eat the food made by your hands, right?"
She remained quiet and refused to make eye contact with me. I chuckled dryly before saying
"Well, I was not expecting you, ok. How will I know that you will be coming there with food?"
She didn't say anything and just said
"But you didn't even stop me. You could've atleast ask me to stay. You didn't even say anything. I felt so embarrassed there. But you remained quiet. You were quiet. You should have atleast ask me to sit down. You should have atleast taste it. I did alot of hard work."
Her voice cracked at the end. But I was to angry to notice that. I shouted
"Did I ask you to make lunch for me? Hmm? No, I didn't ask that. So why did you thought you could make it. Don't you know in what conditions we got married?"
She was stilled at my words. Tears poured into her eyes and she wiped them harshly. She looked at me and asked innocently
"Will you never see me as your wife? Will we never have a proper husband and wife relationship?"
Her voice was cracking and tears left her eyes. When I didn't say anything, she wiped them and went straight to the bathroom slamming the door shut. I sighed closing my eyes before also leaving the room to refresh my mind...
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